I am so stupid that I fall into bouts where I think someone might care. That there might be heartbeat of integrity somewhere. That that's why visitors are on this site. However, the reality is quite the opposite isn't it? I see what you are looking at. Just yesterday in fact. Then today we have who showed up here, their attitudes, the removal of whatever they were taking and in the end you are just another CRIMINAL ENTITY aren't you?

Just like the cops, the doctors, the crown office, everyone. You are all part of the perpetual fraud show. Whispering in women's ears. Empowering them to be reckless unaccountable whores who kill their own family members and then cry foul that they are victims when they are called out. Then you and the rest of the fraudulent government entities step in to fill your status quo. Get the "bad man".

You give yourselves jobs stealing from the public purse empowering corruption to no end and bob is your uncle. Selfie time. You are all heroes. I cannot even close my eyes for five minutes without past events scrolling through my mind pissing me off. Which is why I generally practice avoidance. Which is why I distract myself until I have the resources, but with your polished practice you make it impossible to recover in time.

I think you are all disgusting fucking criminals. It is unbelievable the shit that I hear come out of people's mouths. You CRIMINALS just waltz into peoples lives and destroy everything to suit your fancy. Facts don't matter. Politics and Optics do. Feeding "Programs" matter. Then when you have messed up a situation beyond all repair your victim is painted like HE is the problem. Yeah HE, because it's generally MALES you attack.

The women are your weapons of destruction. You protect them as tools to your means of survival. They are your Whores. They are your Monsters. You corrupt women for your gain. I wish I could write this properly, but I have my moments where I see exactly what everything is and how it works on a tilted scale to favour all the wrong outcomes. Just like the medical industry, there is no money to be extorted from acting fixing problems.

I am too tired and I have too many other things to do, then you losers... you kill people left and right. I don't even want to post this as it's not what I want to write, but in the moment I am going to do this instead venting off the Mayor's page, or a Community Group that is full of your uncaring, irresponsible, blind as a bat, dumb as a door post women. I was left thinking tonight all they is swept problems under a rug.

No accountability. No responsibility. Not in the sense that truly matters that is. It's pretty simple when you are catered to, provided balance, peace, stability, empowerment and rule sets if that is your thing. However, that's not the natural world. That's man made. That is a providence. The real accountability comes when you have pay with your life for other peoples mistakes, corruption, etc.

I cannot write anything properly, I need to get to bed. I am tired inside. However, once I get to bed I probably start having clear thoughts that make tangible sense and worth stating. Then I will come back to the computer and fall apart trying to convey it because I am simply too tired and worn out. At the end of the day, I continually look back and all I see is useless people who don't care to get it.

I am not explaining anything here properly, but in spite of all that at times I think I really get it. The way God has intended things to be. However, even if I could keep a solid grasp on it.. I have no idea how to teach it. Society is too far gone. Never mind me and how bad I appear to be, when I look at people who would be normal, healthy and yada yada, I personally cannot believe how oblivious they are to their own lack of whichever.

Thou shalt not judge I guess, but it just seems to me that people don't hold themselves accountable. Are my views natural to me, or where they hammered into me during apprenticeship? I don't know at the moment, I just know that I conducted myself a lot differently than others. I want to say better, but that's self serving. I definitely did so better than I do now. Better than my low points as well.

Maybe it's because I worked and lived alone so much. Solitude. Just me and the truth. If a person is left with that, then they likely sort themselves out in manners that are unobtainable in "social spheres". Social engagements would be more akin to most people lives which explains their lack of regard. They don't have enough time alone with just themselves, their thoughts and the truth.

Maybe we are all living unnaturally. Maybe the World needs a War, Conflict, Struggle.. so people come back down to reality. I am out to lunch now it seems these days in many ways, but when I look at and listen to people.. they just do not bear the same personal standards. Now, because of such.. they've damaged me beyond all repair. My life, and the life of others, do not seem to have many parallels.