I give ((them)) far too much credit.

It has bothered for sometime that my siblings are in control of my mother, the upstairs is locked and that they would be entering here when I am not home. They have access to all my belongings, my mail, the internet connection, everything. Not to mention the idea that they could easily have been putting cameras up. However, like Mark Berladyn suggested they are too cheap. They were too cheap.

Today an Asian neighbour was over. I didn't really like her being here. She is one of those stupid 'happy' people. So happy to be with my mother triggering who knows what problems. My mother will be telling lies that she begins living to save face. Other people say stuff all the time, not even realizing that their stupid feel good assumptions slander me wrongfully and cement really bad relations.

People are constantly clueless about their own acts. I am not surprised anymore that I used to be sensitive. Far more sensitive to others. I would catch things that others continually missed. It's obvious to me now. I was cut up and bruised. I was sensitive to needs. That made me sensitive to the needs of others. I knew what it was like to hurt. From such, I could sense the hurt in others.

I went to bluetooth my phone earlier and what did I find? A baby monitor. My phone picked up a baby monitor over bluetooth. This explains why my mother is constantly in the room upstairs above me. The bedroom windows are tinted and others have conditioned her to actually put a camera up there to watch; to spy. That is exactly what people like Jim Berladyn are like. The guy is absolutely disgusting.

As another nieghbour had said, he doesn't even know what he is doing is wrong. He is just that much of a sicko. My little sister used to call him a sicko. That was her exact word she used; sicko. My oldest brother is a sicko. He really is. He didn't even think it was wrong to steal off customers cars as a mechanic. Stealing parts and emblems to sell on Ebay as; they are stupid. They'll never know.

Those are the kinds of characters that I am dealing with. People who think you are stupid. All backed up by the police, the doctors, the courts. Everyone. Everyone helping them coerce and manipulate an elderly person into kill the son that saved her - so that the others could feel better about themselves and end up with more. That is the world that I live in. It is just disgusting.

As these so called "professionals" completing fucking up my situation beyond belief. I constantly think about killing myself. They've wrecked my childhood, my adolescence, every single stage of my life. They are just such pieces of garbage. No matter what direction I turn, they have destroy it. They are just losers. Anyways, I shouldn't expect much camera wise. She cannot run wires and they are cheap idiots.