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This picture reduces me to tears. My Father Held me the same way during the Abbotsford Airshow, perhaps 1980?
My Father had Friends too.
Friends like Doctor Murdoch. The Man who Delivered me into this World. He was an RCAF Bombardier. My Father met him in Hawaii, on a trip with my Mother.
He became our Family Doctor. I liked Doctor Murdoch, and I have never forgotten the visit when he tried to get me to speak. My Mother could not contain herself. She barged through the door and interrupted just as I was about to speak something important to my little person. I have never found his Enlistment Records, but I did talk to his daughter online and thanked her for her Father.
Then of course there was Franz Stigler. Another Friend of My Father.
Does anyone have any guesses as to why my Oldest Brother would threaten me to not go and see Franz Stigler sharing our mutual interest in Model Trains? This after I brought Jim's attention to WWII and Dogfighting, rekindling his memory of Franz? Does anyone have any guesses as to why Jim would hastily state the words: "You better not go there! You are going to screw it all up for me!".
It's funny, all of Jim's life since I was maybe five years old, he has been so concerned about my person embarrassing his person. Even to the point where he kicked me off the Monkey Bars in Elementary School. Yet... he seems to have absolutely no problem screwing up my life all throughout my childhood, my adolescence, my adulthood, etc. He even directed young ladies interested in me away from me. Then he laughs about it.
Meanwhile, I looked up to him and wanted nothing but the best for him. My oldest brother. Doesn't the youngest, always look up to the oldest? What do you suppose happens when the oldest starts abusing his position and starts short changing the youngest in the nest? What do you think happens where are two brother's ganging up the smallest one?
Then, just for good measure, add a younger sister (who just as my mother's friend said: learned to manipulate her unique position to get whatever she needed). Maybe you have to live my experiences to actually know.
A Community (I am told).
Commune. That is the root word of Community. The same as Communist. Communists kill people. HRH Prince Philip would have told you that. Communist killed his Family he stated (paraphrase). Think Russia, Communism. A Community wants to dispose of my person without even comprehension or care. Who could these people be? Could be it be LAST_CHANCE and ROADS? Let's talk about those two for a second.
LAST_CHANCE
He called my father an asshole over what I believe was an instance. Do you know who the asshole really was in my eyes? The neighbour that would come over cut someone else's grass. That's not entirely true, but that was true according to my sister Lisa PALMER. She stated that LAST_CHANCE couldn't have made dad feel very coming into this house and doing things while he was out at work. I always looked at LAST_CHANCE as a guy trying to help.
However, I think LAST_CHANCE is an asshole for stating that my father was an asshole. LAST_CHANCE had a Union Job all his life. Hard dangerous work I am sure. However, all he had to do was go to work. Simple. I have worked worked both ways, I understand each. LAST_CHANCE was not involved in EMPLOYING UNION WORKERS and putting up his own Capital in order to secure income, security, etc. only to lose it all on a Governmental change.
LAST_CHANCE had two kids and Modest Wife. Dad had four kids and wife that expect to be a Queen.
ROADS
Roads said to me once that my dad should just leave. He should just leave. That was a completely ridiculous comment. Instead of doing whatever dad could do put to a roof over our head, food on the table for four kinds and a wife, he should just leave. Brilliant. Everyone has opinions, but sometimes they are best not to share them with the wrong people. Roads had a fairly stable profession too. Right along with a Wife that had her own income.
I can see the same statement being made in regards to my case. Which would would be completely ridiculous if that was the case. Here you would have a man that stated many times that I was the only one he spoke to. He was the only that he had respect for as I would endeavour to save the house. He appreciate the work I would put into it. He even told me once, that he sees what was going on here (in regards to carnivorous siblings).
I understand not wanting to be involved. He wasn't there for me when I was literally getting murdered, don't be there for the murderers is all I ask. I always had respect for you, except when you said my dad should just leave. He should just abandon ship and let it sink. That was not my dad. He did all he could do. He tried to the best of his ability and what more can you ask of a man? He was perfect in my eyes. Selfless. Unlike others.
A Coalition
I have mentioned two names in Glenayre, however I could easily list off others with different far more appropriate and realistic opinions. For myself this actually comes down to something between myself and God. Other's are irrelevant to my even deeper reality. That is something that is completely true and goes right into more extremely vivid dreams from much earlier childhood. A promise made is a promise kept.
I couldn't leave here and survive a life worth living if I tried and that is not for reasons that my oldest brother will claim. He is clueless. He's attacked me several times trying to figure it out. He was always best just to follow through with his own abandonment and retain integrity, rather than his plotted self-serving exploitation. If he was unwilling to man up, then he should have stepped aside and disavowed personal interest.
Planning to gain at someone else's risk of life. That's just.. not right.
