By my own Mother.

A friend said the other night that he would just burn this house down. I am the only one that loses in that situation. They would love that. They have no care for this house. They have no care for anything but themselves. I could just imagine the perpetual victim card. Poor us. Then they'd cash in on the insurance and they wouldn't even have to lift a finger. Nothing to sort, nothing to move. Of course, they've already robbed anything that is valuable.

Why do I feel assaulted if it is just my mother? For starters, she reeks of my sisters attitude. She is completely manipulated by her, now likely her boyfriend too, and Jimmy Berladyn. Plus whoever else. "Mom's stupid. She's easy" ~ Lisa Palmer. They never change. She's a piece of shit. Jim Berladyn is a piece of shit. It's rather sad that my mother is choosing to be a complete piece of shit. I know that if it was not for the others, she wouldn't be.

What I did not expect, but probably knew somewhere inside, was how big of pieces of shit doctors, police officers, lawyers, crown prosecutors and everyone really is. Just disgusting pieces of crap, because I have been abused terribly by my own family in very bad manners. Of course, if I am too sick, this just gets easier and easier for them. I am not sure that people who manipulate elderly citizes to kill their own family members should really be around them.

Never mind coming around me, or this house. That would fix things, or at least give them a chance to be fixed. Will the police, the doctors and the courts put someone's life above their cash cow? Not from the record that I have seen in the beginning of all this. It's just 'Kill the Men, Reward the Whores, Collect the Profit'. That is all it is. It is just sick. If a guy doesn't like it he can spend on a lawyer like a drunk sailor and they can all make money off him.

My sister claimed that I was going to kill my mother.

My sister must *think* that my mother deserves that. Why else would say such a thing. Both my sister Lisa Palmer and my brother Jim Berladyn have both pushed my mother into this position. They have both made words towards such. Both of them. Sometimes with intent, as my oldest brother has always intended this, and sometimes just out of plain ignorance as my sister had done before she decided to "Take".

I am wondering if I shouldn't really be suing my mother because she is not looking after me. This is disgusting. It makes me sick and it prevents me from doing much. The only thing my mother has taught me, was that perhaps the others were right and she deserved to left for dead. She should have never have been helped. She should have lost everything and lived in a shit-hole cying as Jimmy Berladyn foreseen to happening. If not that, then this...

Psychologically I have to suffer so that Jimmy can feel right about himself. That makes so much sense. The guy takes off laughing at mom and dad. They are going to lose everything and he won't help. But if anyone stays, he is going to make sure they lose. This way Jimmy gets to feel better about himself because he gets to justify leaving. The guy is a sicko and I only wish that I had had recordings of his abuse throughout the years.

I have determined that I cannot even take out people who I feel are directly responsible in government. Outright criminal behaviour by people collecting cheques from the government purse. Do you know why I cannot? Because there is simply too many of them. It is almost insulting to get one, two, or three when there are hundreds. It's almost worse.

Nobody should be made to feel the way I feel. No one. Especially given the history.