Obviously my mind is here on this story.
I am so inundated with problems that…
There are so many reasons why I wish not to define anything. Like so many other things, I wish I had the time and the energy to parse the story for context as I see it in various forms, but then I am likely best not to define things. I do not know what life is like for others, but I have often found it best to be quiet in life. This way one can remain neutral to some degree, which allows for flexibility.
Otherwise, Karma or what I often call the "Law of Inversion" takes place. Life has a way of suddenly flipping the tables. It just has a way of blessing the persecuted, or turning lions into lambs and lambs into lions, or something rather. I am feeling bad for labelling my own brother as I already have in the previous posts. I almost want to apologise or retract them, or correct for it somehow but my actions do not match my thoughts.
I cannot keep up to my thoughts, never mind where I need to act. I am however concerned for my brother, no matter which way I turn. I know his issues. I know how they formed. I know who he is. I do not wish him to hurt. I may add to this post as time and energy permits. Naturally, my time and energy will be lessened with me working as I have to move forward with doing so, in order move forward.
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Everything is what it is. It happened because it happened. If I would have kept a journal, and wrote what I had wanted to for years, all would be known. Amends could be made perhaps. Atonement or something rather.