I cannot even get healthy enough to deal with everything that I want to, and I think I am getting hit again. Why can I not have the peace to do what I need to do?

A false alarm perhaps, but my body is in shock which tells me... this is a reality that I have to deal with. If I do not, I will just be assaulted again at some point. Psychiatric Assault I suppose that it is. This really sucks because I actually do not want anyone to hurt. I am not out to hurt anyone. Unfortunately that was not true in the inverse. Besides, I know I will regret not looking into taking appropriate action down the road, because the day will come. It is inevitable.

Of course, maybe I just misread that for what it really was too. If that is the case, this is so wrong. Everything about everything has been wrong, why would anyone change that process now?

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Why else would she open the door that way? Why would that car that.. I have yet to identify as... Black Honda... flashing lights was weird. Is mom still home? Deathly quiet upstairs, I think she is gone.

I thought that was my sister, maybe it was someone else.

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