You criminal pieces of garbage. All of you. I am feeling so sick and not feeling well.

I need to physically work today in someone's house. I have to be in someone's house who I already know will not leave me alone and will literally be standing over my shoulder potentially being difficult for me for to handle. Things will only grow exponentially worse if I am sick and unable to hide it. The absolute last thing I want to do is have conversations with people bringing drama into their homes while they pour ever more poison down my throat torturing me with their words, opinions, and taints.

What's worse, is that the schedule cannot move without adding evermore problems and failure. Which is exactly why I do not work for companies any longer. The damages caused by such are just too great. Failure to perform to demanding expectations is not rewarded in the real world. What am I doing on Monday? Working for a company. What happens when that falls apart from this? That relationship has already ended. This was a new beginning for both us. Now everything is going to... collapse again.

I make too many excuses for people. The doctors, the police, the courts, all of you people who failed me. I am just listing off names to myself this morning of people who failed as I cannot help but acknowledge such. People who have knowingly failed me. You people are all sickos. You are sick. Sick in the head. So many of you. I cannot even write the thoughts. I just wish I could freeze time and sleep for another five hours. At least then I could shake this off and do what I need to get done today without adding further problems to the variables at hand.

None the less, you people are CRIMINALS. I don't know why I ever start feeling bad for my words regarding very sick and disgusting people in government who absolutely fail miserably in their positions while knowing exactly what they are and what they are doing or not doing, in relation to what needs to be done. You people are very sick individuals. It's just disgusting. It honestly would be easier to just kill myself than to put up with anymore of this torture. My head hurts so much. I am in miserable pain. The problems just continue without ever resolving.

Why? Because people intentionally do not do their jobs. Because people intentionally have the wrong motivations. People intentionally never appropriately take the right action for their own comfort and/or personal gain. You are all sick people. This was all known so many years ago. All of it. It's not complicated. Not unless you throw your own desires into the mix. Just derail over here, derail over there. Collect here. Use positions to steer for this purpose and to steer that for that purpose. It's a criminal gong-show. It really is.

That's almost $10,000 this week alone. Gone.

How much do you think a person can take? Do you have any idea what it is like to continually start over and literally have to go through pulling teeth each and every time just to make things work only to barely scrape through and have it all perpetually collapse over and over again, because no one ever actually does anything to resolve the real issue? Yet, they all take their pay cheques, their vacations, their pensions while demanding all their Rights at the public purse.