I should be treating you, as dad treated him.

Really, at the end of the day, you've both committed the same Sin. Go ask Uncle Ike what that was. You fucking piece of shit, I just remembered. You put me down and ridiculed me, laughing in my face that my dad was my hero. I remember him crying to me when I was fourteen(14) years old. "My Sons laugh at me" he cried. You thought that was funny when I finally said that to you. He said more too, but this is on you.

Do you know what? I am totally right about this. The same conclusion over and over and over. The only thing is I am always too sick, and I have to wait.. then if I am able to follow through before I decide to forgive, or forget, I get stuck in a useless bureaucracy that is totally corrupted by dense leeches who just do not act appropriately. However, I have the answer to that as it came tonight. When the knife is hot, the answer is there.

If I am still alive by Monday, maybe I will follow through. It's either that or die.