Seriously?

I am so ill from this package arriving just now that I cannot even function. Are you seriously this sick in the head?

It is just non-stop. Relentless. What is wrong with you people? Do you all need to be CHARGED and put in Jail? Seriously? There is something extremely wrong with this picture. I never even get to recover the health.. you people are absolutely insane. It is beyond words how absolutely disgusting all of you people are. Just torture someone right into their death with completely immoral conduct. You are extremely sick people who want to see me dead. It is just unbelievable that you would continue this bullshit after putting another human being through what you have put me through. Unreal.

Obviously I need to go to the courthouse and file paperwork. Of course, nothing changes while you all make me too sick to even function. Then to heal and recover I have to forget and let go. Then I get hit again, and again, and again. And again. You obviously will not rest until I am dead. It is unbelievable that you would continue to be so disgustingly immoral. Just absolutely atrocious behaviour. Unbelievable. My personal being cannot take this any longer. I was at the point of not being able to take this a very long time ago. There are some seriously disgusting people in this World who need to be in JAIL and it is not me.

Obviously I cannot go to the Port Moody Police who have proven without any doubt to only have the self-desired interest of creating conditions that dispose of a life long resident by coercing an elderly mother to break her own word to her own son who saved her life and kill him. Cause that's what the police here do. Which is so evident by the little things they state and do. Gee, it's not our fault that your court orders are weird. Usually we just walk into someone's house, kick the man out regardless of circumstance and take a bunch of photo's celebrating ourselves as hero's. What a complete fraud show. Gotta feed the "System". The Lawyers need guys to EXTORT.

You wonder why people kill themselves and/or other people? It's your fault. You are just a bunch of mindless morons. I was completely right to say "Officer" such and such should be QUARTERED eight or nine months ago. QUARTERED for what he did. Of course, these are the very same files that the Port Moody Police and the Crown Office have not wanted to disclose to my person. I could see it right there in the file that I already had had. The cause and the effect. The intent to permanently damage the relations of other people for the external purposes of other parties. The desire to try force a situation that does not result in an appropriate resolution.

The desire to DESTROY FAMILIES and LIVES so that other's can EXTORT a PROFIT.

The only thing that there is no doubt about right now is that someone else wants to continue pulling strings. That is a really nice thing to do to someone who just spent money they didn't have buying what was deemed required to KILL HIMSELF. I was so ill the last two days that it actually hurt. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't type. I couldn't prepare for court. I couldn't even function. Somehow I managed to pull together just enough to at least prepare a somewhat satisfactory response in the courtroom. I am continually spiritually bled out left and right , and some piece of shit is obviously still fucking my mother and my home. I do not understand why it seems so hard for other people to not do the right thing.

I was still very sick last night, I thought maybe I should go sleep outside. Fresh Air would do me good. I didn't want to bother my mother by inflating an air mattress near midnight. I thought she'd find that strange in the morning, why is he sleeping outside? Finally I realised that I should just crack my bedroom window open. It won't budge, what's going on? Oh, that would be big brother. Big brother "James Alan Berladyn" - da 'Man'. I instantly thought that piece of shit probably put a lock on the window while he was laughing at the police arresting my person. He had that lock on there so tight that I had trouble at first getting it off. So tight that I was thinking he must have used a tool denting and pitting the metal.

Trying to lock his baby brother out of the house that would not be here if was it not for his baby brother stepping up to the plate to save it. My oldest brother trying to KILL his baby brother so that he can feel right inside about his own prior life decisions to abandon the house and his mother. I just had to explain all of this to a neighbour just now. The motivation. The reasons why people do things. It's an incredibly simple dynamic, but if you don't get it, you don't get it. Anyways, I believe there is a bible story about the oldest brother killing his youngest brother. It's not a very smart move. It's not a very smart move at all. The same with the police. I was asked while I was in jail about how they were suppose to end this.

Maybe, if you started to respect the MAN of a HOUSE there would not be any issues. I am sure my readers in Saudia Arabia agree with such. Maybe this would have been over and corrected a long time ago if you just acknowledged my Father's Son. This was such a simple problem to resolve. However, due to external people having their motivations, their own desires, their own corruption... on and on and on it goes. This is not my failure, it's the failure of others. However, something that I learned a long time ago... everything is my fault regardless. Somewhere, at some point in time, I could have foreseen this and taken X step.

The Sun just went down. I was happily washing my truck for the very first time this year thinking to myself, if I am washing my truck that means my health is coming back online. I am taking steps to look after myself. The Sun just went down. It's half washed. I stopped washing because people still want to assault my health in this house. If you do not understand WHY this is an assault, then you need to insure that my health is not assaulted so that I can eventually get you to understand why is it an assault to my health. I am not sure what I am going to do about this at the moment, but there are some extremely irresponsible people still seeking to capitalise on this situation.

The result will only make everyone hurt. You people have no idea how much you are violating another human being and the responses to such that are continually updated. I have passed several new barriers this year of things that might happen in response. Action speaks louder than words, but even I myself am surprised. You clowns have already completely decimated some innocent person's life, you've destroyed his health, you've continued to unnecessarily torture him, and you keep going. You people are absolutely sick in the head. To the asshole who used to tell me that I was only one he would talk to because he could see what was going on: You should be ashamed of yourself.

I used to think highly of you.

You just sat there and watched me literally get abused right into my death while others outlandishly attempted to steal my life. I can imagine what you said to yourself. I have heard you say it in regards to another person. That was a terrible thing that you had thought that was appropriate for that other person. I was shocked. I am still bothered by it. Your math was right out the window on that one. Just as it is right out the window with me. None of this had to be like this, none of it has to go like this, and none of it has to end the way that external people obviously keep wanting to steer it. You want to befriend completely corrupt people who murder their own family members, you go right ahead. You'll be dead soon anyways.

You of all people should actually know better. As for the rest of the World, my own Mother has been coaxed and encouraged to destroy her own son. Then after nearly killing her own son multiple times, the people responsible are still pushing to damage and divide the natural relationship between my mother and I. Even further, they are intentionally messing with something so personally dear to me, something that they honestly don't care about themselves, because they are actually that sick. They are that disgusting. I have very sick people who intentionally want to mess with my home and destroy what is between my mother and I for their own purposes.

I am simply asking the World for Help here. How hard is it really, to help your neighbour, your fellow man?