I removed my original comments here which were unseen because I have simply been made too sick to write them properly. I simply want to explain too much. They are hidden on page two, but to me this is nothing but utter ridiculous bullshit.
[private] As is often the case in these affairs, as much I have known directions I have wanted to push, things I have wanted to say, points I have wanted to express, I am just mentally blank and indifferent beforehand. I am just feeling blah not overly well before court appearances. At least I had the sense to attempt to go bed at a reasonable time and sleep sleep sleep beforehand, although I still couldn't clear my mind well enough to be where I mentally needed to be.
I would do myself well to have my points ready to express clearly, in and ordered fashion, regardless of what they throw at me but they set the pace. They lead the show. You can think of everything and anything between appearances while you are off dealing with other things, but when comes time you so burned out by delays and such that you just turn into mush.
If you read this stuff, you have to realise they pushed me down to points were I cannot even feed myself, nor continue working, never mind finding recovery. Five plus years of my life gone. Never mind all the exponential damage from such. Neighbours have expressed that they cannot believe I am still alive, and at times I don't even know why I bother to be. All they do is shove more fraud, more lies, and more injustice into your affairs.
THE CANADIAN BILL OF RIGHTS
https://laws-lois.justice.gc.ca/eng/acts/c-12.3/page-1.html
...MEN and institutions remain free only when freedom is founded upon respect for moral and spiritual values and the rule of law;
I am not free. I am spiritually impaled. This is like an impedance driven right into the core of my life. Having this stuff ongoing is very damaging to my immediate physical health. As well to my greater overall health as I have no choice but to continue to hold my life in reserve and delay, defer and restrain from many other ambitions and opportunities. I have no choice but to hold back for bureaucrats who might force my attention at their command at any time anytime and at their gain to do so.
Health & Happiness
I often feel like I am going to have a heart attack. I feel sick all the time and if my elderly mother happens to pass away my life will most likely biologically terminate. In order to recuperate my health, I have already had to accept the damages and dying even younger. Here I am after incurring all of these unjust damages, just wanting to pick up the pieces and heal after literally having every party involved not bother to heed, nor assist, my perspective that I should forensically write everything out as truthfully and as accurately as possible for the benefit of all.
They didn't want to do that. They did not want to assist me. They did not want to provide for my needs, nor refrain from impairing them for years. Then after completely destroying what was left of my health, they could not even allow me to just live what was left of my life in peace. Just enjoy what is left. Even further, they had to tamper with the functioning of this household while causing ever more damage to such. Forever creating careers by imposing unbalanced and unjust conditions upon my person and my home which just awaits further exploitation.
All for other people's known fraud, known perjury and known quests to unjustly reward themselves at my expense. This doesn't just include my family members, it includes the politics of police, healthcare and the judicial system itself. They all have virtue signalled their worth at the expense of the truth, at the expense of reality, at the expense of my life and the greater truth. They are all criminals abusing someone innocent for their own gain. The entire system. All of them, including the judges whom I tend to try and leave impartial in my assessments.
Which is also something that is tainted by a friend's perspectives. The judges that is. I wish I would leave them out o it.
Prosecution
In pretty much the exact same manner as she did over a month ago, Lori Ashton asks for the exact same thing. The prosecution is asking for considerable lengthy delay of another month to see how I behave in the community and get along with family while court orders impede such. For starters, this isn't an extensively considerable delay in my view, this is however stringing along a very bad situation that has gone on far too long already. A bad situation, which leaves an abused person suffering in ever more damages left wide open for ever more abuse by herself and external parties.
Rather than simply putting the truth of the matters before the court, here is the prosecutor repeating the same self-serving nonsense. Painting an innocent person who has been completely unjustly abused beyond belief as a problem that they want to see if they 'resolved' after being the cause and if he now 'behaves' out in the community, the Charges that are based on perjury, undisclosed evidence, tampered with evidence, etc. might be shelved and shoved under a rug for later use. Let's just keep that strain over his heart, while impeding his relations, home and life by unjust manners.
If the Prosecution is stalling for more time because Victoria is looking at Freedom of Information Requests and even direct questions asked to Lori Ashton herself, why didn't she just say so instead playing this game? Maybe I shouldn't nitpick, but I just find that this is the ridiculousness of courts. It's ridiculous. I am not trying to ridicule anyone, it's just the lack of dignity granted, it's too much. The entities involved can never seem be upfront and open with their facts. Dignity, that's how I felt last appearance, that I am left without dignity.
Lawyer
Once again, I am asked about lawyers and legal advice which only deflects from everyone else's wrong doing all while impairing my health. Just mentioning lawyers damages my "mental health". I despise being asked about lawyers. If I am pushed into points of such destruction that suicide becomes a realistic viable option due to the incapability of even providing for myself, where would I ever find the energy to pursue people of the circle jerk? There's no health, time, energy, resources left for that.
Let's look at it like math. I am going to court to conduct math in a competition of the final variable. The parties forcing me to court and withholding their numbers. Withholding their variables. Rather than concentrate on that issue, lets point out to the fact that I am not using a certified mathematician. You need a mathematician to calculate 2 + 2 = 4. Indirectly placing the onus on you, as if It is all you are at fault. Never mind the fact that if we play games, your fail is due to not having one of our mathematician buddies.
Lawyers never fully represented me and my interests. Never. Neither of the ones I had had did. They used my situation for themselves, just like everyone else. You should sue, but I won't help you with that. Oh, those are the questions you want asked, nah I won't ask them. Don't show up, let the lawyer handle it. Then you show up moments too late and get told that you are a sucker when what was done was exactly what you did not want. Dismiss a lawyer, and he refuses to allow you the luxury of representing yourself. Fuck off.
Then there is that dumb cunt. I expend energy that I do not even have telling her my story, and she shoves her head up her ass not comprehending why it matters. Get lost.
I might not have responded today as I might have wanted to, or as I should have, but lawyers are free to come to these pages and post advice in the comments. They are more than capable of coming here and offering assistance to someone in need. Action Speaks Louder than Words. Sure, infallible advisement would be great. It would be great to have the resources, or even better the free will of such in defence / offence, but I am not wealthy enough to buy myself justice in this system.
Relations
Watching my Mother drive off... leaves me suspect. As it often does. Who's is fucking with my mother? That's what I think when she takes off at certain times.
I'd love to write more, but at this moment I don't want to. I have other things I want to do. I have other things that I must steer my mind back onto or I am going to land right back into dangerous problems. I have been turning down work to ensure that I am not overburdened/overtired for court, and so that court doesn't just drastically suddenly permanently impede me. I have a concern over the Port Moody Police or whomever just showing up and arresting me, or something rather causing a loss of tools and livelihood which is all damaged enough as it is.
There's also no sense in giving out ammunition for people to use against me, but I'll likely update this later if I can clear my head. I just do not feel well, and I have low drive / energy. I feel this would all improve if I wasn't hindered by courts, and court orders, and yada yada. The court orders have actually impeded my health, and the natural way that the relations had typically worked throughout decades. That's nice. Have everyone fuck with your home and relations, then when you are nearly dropping dead, even more people begin fucking with it.
Clearly in my perspective, I am a victim who is treated as anything but, and the aggressors are treated like victims.
4:00pm notes
Hours later I feel remorseful for my conduct this morning. Just the way I conducted myself. Observing/Stating that the Judges are just like us, knowing I have Royalty posted on these pages, knowing what I have written, I should be conducting myself better. I haven't even listened to the audio, but I just feel like I have shorted myself somewhere. Mom had obviously just went out for groceries, and came back. I don't have my health. I don't have happiness. I am turning down jobs, not responding to requests, all for court, and what happens. It's the same thing next month, when insurance is due. It's just beyond words, because what might trivial is not. I do not have the focus, the clarity, the drive, or even the vision that I used to have. This stuff instantly destroyed my eyesight it seems.
It's 4:00pm, not only have let this destroy weeks and months on end, it's destroyed my day. Another day gone. I would be dedicating myself to something else. I cannot go all in at work like I used to, even if I had the health, I will lose myself mentally on all this stuff. Anyways, maybe it's not as bad as I wrote above, maybe it's not as bad as I verbally communicated this morning, maybe my conduct/performance was not as bad as I feel it was, but.. there's no point in doing all this damage to me, on going for what is soon going to be a year, over something that could have been processed in less than an hour or less. I am all over the map with though, and I do see how things need to be communicated verbally, but so much of this could have been sorted online through text without the damages.
It's not the destination is the journey. Five years and more of this garbage? [/private]