I WILL IMPROVE THIS LATER. I HAVE NOT SLEPT.

Remember I am groggy this day, I slept late and I was in a deep sleep. Right off the bat I give my normal response. However they were standing OFF of the property which assisted in gaining my respect, my trust, my complacency. The biggest thing in their favour is that I was just completely over-loaded with issues that I hope I get to write.

Right in the start I give my regular response. In my eyes this kills me, right here right now. I am beyond description in overall health and I just barely started seeing enough opportunity to possibly survive all of the damage that I have incurred. These assholes. It just beyond belief from where I stand. As always, but now I am even in worse shape than I ever have been.

Every time, no matter how low I get, each time I just start climbing boom they send me backwards. This even thought they have evidence of perjury, fraud, and more. This just all turned out to just be another game that leaves me with no reason to have any respect for them. I want him identified so I can access my trust level and have such for reference in the audio file.

I have his assurance that he will not play games, because they just seek to walk in and question things later. As always they serve injustice and not righteousness. Just have a chat, we will work everything out. I don't want them yelling across the neighbourhood either. I do not even want them here, talk to me online where they cannot lie.

He wants an appropriate conversation with me. He is concerned for his safety, while he has eleven friends with guns. They have a point there, but in all honestly it's always ONE-SIDED. It's all about them. It always all about them. From my perspective, they are not serving the populace. They serving themselves, along with their master.

0:47s - I wouldn't want them to drop their guard on the wrong guy, but my word is generally pretty credible. Mind you, they've turned me into a human puddle over the last five years. Anyways, no intent to harm.

0:52s - Have a conversation like MEN. Sounds honourable, but he is full of shit. They are always full of shit.

0:57s - I am too groggy and unbalanced, but I am trying to say like "men" where other people come into your home, fuck your wife and take your life out from under you all while the State protects the "Rights" of others to do those things to you and yours. You have to understand the relationship between my mother and I, is not some kid living at home as everyone likes to miss-interpret. They actually already know that though, they know they are morally wrong.

1:04s - I am not firing on all cylinders this morning, but these people with badges and guns continually REFUSE to speak out of in the light of day where everyone can see and "we can all be safe". It's actually impossible to properly communicate with any of them because it all ONE-SIDED. They don't even care. They just don't.

1:08s - We already know what the deal is. I come out, they prove they lied, I get arrested, my situation which is near death with NO RECOVERY worsens. Nobody takes any losses but me. At what point do I begin to matter?

1:11s - I already know what the deal is here. They lie, they serve themselves. Meanwhile my last chance of survival slips away and I am left for dead. Same deal every single time.

1:16s - I think I am trying to have a smoke and find my balance, but I don't know. I don't smoke in the house. I do not know what this was. Emergency measure to try to find mental stability perhaps.

1:20s - Just wants to have a chat. Again, sounds so safe and honourable. We will figure this whole thing ou he claims, long after htey make a huge mess of it and I pay the consequence. I pay the consequence, not ANY of these government paid PUBLIC SERVANTS.

1:26s - I was exactly right. May well just commit suicide now. That is the sane option. I would be sane to commit suicide after this damage.

1:30s - The police are not going to know that until after I am dead, but I know that. Yet somehow they cannot trust the word of someone who wants to be as honest as humanly possible.

1:35s - I do have a better idea. Why don't they just get the people who not live here out of this house so that they STOP causing all of these problems?

1:38s - I doubt they did that. If they did, then GREAT FOR THEM.

1:40s - I understand his position is hard, however each of these heros should try my position as I am just a mess and trying to gather balance.

1:50s - Ok. You win. I am not going to fight you, but this is the reality. I have just woken up. I am out of it. I was in a deep sleep, I have no coffee, no smokes, and I just had people literally convince my mother to KILL ME.

1:54s - I get it. Fair enough. It's all good.

2:03s - I never end heard this part, which is dangerous. I don't think I paid attention to it is as I was too out of it. A person gets killed this way.

2:14s - It's obvious that this is not a chat. It's also obvious to me that they are going to bring me tremendous irreparable harm and I am so far gone that was my last chance slipping away from me right now. A person can only go so far stretched on their absolute last strings. Please understand the situation as the police never seem to do. They trust a woman in an instant, but MEN no apparently our word is worthless. Strange that.

2:21s - I am trying recite the exact law, but I have noted them and written them down in the past. It is illegal what has transpired against my person here.

2:54s - wrong of me perhaps, but if I wind up dead or without internet access I want the world to know. I want one last communication. Send a signal. Someone will miss me at some point. Leave a bread crumb.

3:10s - I think I am trying to swallow coffee in a desperate attempt to boost the brain power. I have just woken up. If I didn't have contacts in, or I needed medication or all kinds of things. For all I know, I am left in the street for DEAD again.

3:33s - gathering stuff. I am in the wrong clothes for extended absence.

4:30s - the door is open, I have committed, I am exposed but I am still needing a few things to be taken care of. It's hard under this pressure.

5:19s - Another swig of coffee.

6:00s - I need a smoke. Light one and try to gather a calmness.

6:15s - Oops. I need a belt. A big mistake if I am abandoned on the street. I cannot walk around with my pants around my ankles. I do not need that problem. Speaking of such, is that the problem with blacks who do that? The police do not let them get belts?

6:18s - See, I already know they are going to make a mistake.

6:31s - No you cannot get a belt for me. I wonder if they even would have. I do not want them in my space. It's extremely violating and they probably entered anyways after the fact. It's extremely violating. They've used my mother for walk throughs. Just disgusting as I have always valued privacy. They wouldn't find a belt anyways. I cannot find an appropriate one at times myself. I am too disorganized in this state.

You know what.. I keep feeling bad, but I get LIED to.