I WILL IMPROVE THIS LATER. I HAVE NOT SLEPT.

February 19th. My siblings are manipulating my elderly mother. Likely with the assistance of the police. Either willing assistance, or unintentional assistance because they are careless, stupid and they do not actually seek proper resolution. I am not trying to insult the police, but it's just pathetic. It really is. Partially that is my fault, because I am not strong enough after all the damages over the last five years to properly communicate.

The police show up. I have just been woken up from a deep sleep and I am out of it. Since the police were OFF THE PROPERTY and respecting my wishes in that regard I came out thinking that I am probably making a bad decision here. They wanted to talk. I knew what would happen, I knew I could not trust them. I am immediately Arrested as soon as I am in reach. Why do I not trust them again?

I count twelve officers, some of them with bean bag guns, all staring at me. I look at the house and there is my oldest brother with my elderly mother staring out the main front window. He is laughing his ass off as he photographs with his camera. He looks like a psycho. It dawns on me that that I keep forgetting that he is criminally sick in the head. It's not his fault, I know what his problems are.

However, I am instantly I reminded that I am way too forgiving and nice. He is actually enjoying the fact that he is killing me. I feel like a fool, but then I am too burdened to counter him. They just instantly thrown me into a position that I cannot survive and internally I know that I am going to die. All the police are staring at me. I comment that they are laughing in the windows. The cops are too dumb. All of them are staring at me.

No offence, but are the police really this stupid? Not one of them thought to look in the other direction. Not one of them. I mean are they all this stupid? They been abusing and innocent person into his death for five years and are they really this stupid to think that I am the only person responsible for the ongoing chain of events here? Come on, think outside the box guys.

As soon as I am in the police car I am told that the PMPD and the RCMP are tired of this by the younger newer officer who reads to me like his motives are dirty. So they are tired of not doing their jobs properly and they are taking it out on me. That's nice. In the car I tell the Officer that I was assaulted. He says: "Why are you telling me this?" He was actually dumbfounded by the fact I was telling him this.

Why am I am telling a police officer who did not even investigate the so called crime that I was assaulted? Why did the police say to me "why are you telling me this?" I don't know, because he was a police officer and it is his job which obviously he is not doing properly. I want to like this guy, but honestly he was acting like a bit seedy which didn't change until we were at the police department.

I tended to sense that they and the RCMP just wanted to RAILROAD me again. Make their problem go away. The RCMP violated my rights just earlier in the week and I made issue of it openly and I had even just disclosed that I wanted to file a complaint. I want to force a report regardless of the outcome. I wanted to see what would be said if I had done so. That intent is publicly available and eleven other people liked the idea.

In the car, the PMPD Police Officer's primary concerns were my reading my Rights. Having my confirmation, etc. etc. For me there's just too much going on too fast. At first he said would take a statement, then that whole idea was just dropped. I tried to explain that the police were in the wrong, but he was immediately dismissive.

Ok, he's new. I get it, it's just too much for me that's all. Just like when he was driving, he was asking me why are you sitting like that? Because I am old, I am in ill health, and these cars are designed to be painful. He's just too new, he'll gain experience in time. Knowledge, Experience, Wisdom it takes time right? I just do not have the patience for it as this has nearly biologically killed me multiple times, and in many ways it already has.

If you have never been in the back of a modern police car, they are absolutely terrible. There is actually no need for such an intentionally discomforting design. Then if you get an instance like this time, the officers are not concerned about getting you out. I was in pain, I am overheating, sweating really badly and I need out of the car. Then it came to getting out, I could not even get out of the car without assistance. It is not right.

Especially when you are arrested and charged without even an investigation. Not even any conversation, just immediately arrested. Do these people not understand the damage they cause to someone's life? What if I was in the middle of contract worth $5,000,000 and they wrongfully arrest me causing the deal of a lifetime to fall through? The whole system here is terrible. It's just blatantly arrogant as it runs roughshod over people.

At the department once out of the car, I had no issues. I caused no issues that I recall. I was fairly easy and compliant I believe. Even given the fact that I could see the damages and the impossible odds they just piled on top of impossible odds that barely just offered a clearing. If anyone was in my shoes, they would find how impossible the situation is to even describe. Then you have that almost insulting question, the lawyer bit.. it's just like stop burdening me with that stuff, although it is necessary. I get that.

February 20th, 2020 I get a bail hearing. I have already stated that I do not want a lawyer. It's almost like killing you with kindness. I am told a Criminal Duty will be available. This just adds burden, but give him a shot because the last guy was actually good. I trusted this guy on the phone. I liked him, but at the same time I trust no one.

Criminal Duty Counsel states that the Crown Prosecutor is seeking guarantees that I will not go upstairs in my RIGHTFUL HOME, in my declared Church, in my place of Creation, in a place that my mother would not have in her name if not for me stepping up to the plate and trusting her not to screw me as she promised. I am not happy with this because it a direct assault to my psychological health, among other things and it is totally wrong given the actual history here.

The Justice of the Peace sounds extremely pleasant, intelligent, attractive, confident and I am actually drawn to her in a manner I cannot describe. I wanted to like her a lot and I was confused because of the stresses of being incarcerated. How does he want to be addressed she says throwing the duty counsel off balance. He didn't know what he was doing. She orders a Psychological Evaluation for February 22nd.

Who ever this woman was, I must ease up on females.. because she was beautiful to me, even in my protest. My last words were corrupt as I fought the evaluation. Then I spent the next two days expecting an psychological evaluation, trying to keep my thoughts towards making use of such. However, I do not get a Psychological Evaluation.

Instead I get a court hearing after complete screw ups in the morning as the plans changed from what I was told to something else, to something else again. Further injustice gets rammed down my throat by a judge who a friend would tell me is a [_blank_]. I recognized his voice. I did not agree to the events but I chose to respect his request to stay silent when he asked me to.

Then upon my release the Police Sergeant says: "Here's the Court Orders you agreed to" as he passed me the documents. I never agreed to them. In fact my exact words were: "I see EXACTLY what is going on here". Meaning, the CRIMINALS running the Injustice System just rammed more FRAUD down my throat again. They simply want to KILL ME that is all there is to it. All of them. They are all in on it.

The police, the courts, everyone. Just like that they made my biological survival impossible. My siblings especially, they were laughing at me thinking it was funny. I swear my oldest oldest brother is sick in the head. He is actually enjoying driving his youngest brother into his death. It is not even suicide. It is MURDER. These people are all careless COMMUNISTS.

I keep falling into the trap that I should forgive and trust and then swing back like a lunatic calling them criminals, but the facts actually are that they are criminals. Then they demand my respect. I mean, I get the wanting respect bit, but Respect is EARNED. If I am not giving you Respect it is because you have not Earned it.

I think my friend is right. Not all of the Officers, not all of the Judges, but enough of them just work in tandem to kill me. Just get rid of him. He's a pain in the ass. There is nothing I can do because they just simply elected to kill me five years ago and they are upset that I am still alive and struggling with all the issues they have given me.

I am so victimised, maybe my perspective is out a bit, but realistically it is not. It's just that I am not winning by outing my abusers. I need to rewrite this. Lots to add / sort.