This illegal. You are abusing my person into my death.

With a mind that stopped working sometime over the weekend, I just drifted into the idea that I should just kill myself during the court conference. That way they have documentation, actual evidence that they killed me. It's a terrible win, but it is a win. They want to kill me, so steal the kill from them. If you cannot beat 'em, cheat 'em.

I felt I could do it. If I had the means set up, being so tired not sleeping, it would be so easy to do such a thing. As long as it was set up and I didn't have to think about it. If you have to think about it, forget it. But I actually drifted right into that. There are thousands of words typed on this site for it. I had nothing else to do. Just brain dead, not sleeping, life destroyed, unable to survive. What would you expect anyone to do?

Typing and fixing typos, I started reading and I was no.. this isn't a good idea. Besides my mind was too tired to actually find the means to do just that. Even if I managed I would just make a mess of myself, but in all seriousness.. I recognized that I would be better to do that and take the opportunity to make a statement, rather than die off out of view sometime else.

Anyways, I talked myself out of it, but the realty that's what these criminals call Justice. Do you people think I was born just to sit here and wait for you to kill me in an bureaucratic assembly-line, slaughterhouse. Pick on the weak, pick on the maime and kill them. Is that what I am guilty of?

Allowing my siblings to weaken me to the point, where you just kill me off?

This is what happened today, this is now my THIRD ATTEMPT to talk to a FRAUD.

I was prerecording statements because I have been awake so long, that I was scared that I might not be able to even speak and I could not re-find the direction I wanted to head last week. Nothing was working. Reality, is reality.

She emails like my life is like her life. No, it's not have a nice a weekend. It's not thanks for being patient over the holidays. Get real. You are KILLING SOMEONE. You do not even keep your word and you lie through your teeth.

Why would anyone even remotely sane, call this a Justice System ??? My biological life isn't even worth 12 minutes of your time. You have already KILLED me and HIDDEN that from the PUBLIC. You people are the Criminals. Get that through your head.