If you see this post, this means I am telling a Provincial Court Judge that my intent is to prove that the government murdered a Canadian Citizen by following though what the only thing I can do. You can claim that I am choosing this, but I am not. Do you think I would want to kill myself? I believe I stated it four times in court, in one ear and out the other.
The alternative is more of the same. Except now it's even worse because they've knocked me right out work. I knew this September 6th, 2020. You will kill me if you forcibly from my home. That stupid fuck never learned the first time he did it. He doesn't have a clue what he did to me because he doesn't care. The guy is full of shit. Never trust that dumb fuck.
Every solution offered by the government and those representing such, will not be a viable option. I do not care what any of you think your "gay" little "communist" programs will do.. or any of your "capitalist" ones for that matter either. The only program that will work is pieces of paper with the Queen's head on them. Give me lots of those. The government has those. That's all it would take.
Kick-start me.
Cash injection. Call me Bombardier or some Quebec Corporation. Just grab some cash off the shelf somewhere and throw it over the fence. Then just look the other way while I test my luck to get on my feet. The truth of the matter in all seriousness is that I do not want any money from the government or anyone. The only thing that will heal me is INDEPENDENCE.
MAN WAS MEANT TO BE FREE
You fucking losers. You destroyed my health and tortured me, just continually wasting my time in serving bigger objectives with your loser ass bullshit. Half the population is completely fucked in the head. There are just things that are an absolute must for my existence to survive, and that's that. Quite honestly, I am thinking back to grade one.
I always valued certain things. Certain things internal to who I am.
I was always this way. I am not broken and you are not changing me. You people are the ones that are fucked up, not me. You think certain things are not a big deal? Well guess what they are. I will settle for a government credit card. Let the world see what I spend to get on my feet. That information will just be used later to undermine me.
That's not a great idea. We know he needs exactly this much, or what ever have you. Then they make you are always just fall short in fulfilling that requirement to knock you down. Or they will lock you down for that amount, not taking into consideration all the bigger expenses you had to continually push off and now you are fucked.
Now that I say that, yes I am fucked.
They murdered me. There's just no chance. I am dead. They did it. They didn't care that they killed me so I may as well do everyone a favour and prove it. Talk is cheap, however I have honestly felt that this will be very easy for me to do. The reality however is that I am not sleeping, I am losing focus, and I'll just mess it up then get tortured as a cripple.
Besides, the biggest problem is how to record and upload it all after I am dead. It's possible I am sure, I am just mentally tired to actually bother trying anything like that.
I am too messed up to even go through with a more thorough plan, this one is easy, it will work. If it would not a kill a healthy young person, I am pretty sure it will kill me in this health. This isn't the best thing to do, but the alternative hits to my biological health that I can no longer take. I just cannot take the hits anymore. Writing this actually bad.
As I am writing this I am actually thinking about it, as I correct the typos I am realising this is actually bad. For days I have known I can literally just do it without even realising what I am doing, if I do not actually think about it. Scary, but it's not unrealistic. I am sure that there would people that would say I cannot believe that he waited this long after what they did to his life.
Why didn't he kill himself sooner, I would have. People that might have a more realistic understanding of my actual situation. People that go, yeah - I don't think I could deal with that either. I am not even thinking about the "Charges" they are on about. They MURDERED me five years ago. Let's deal with that one first, along with the overall torture, damage, and failure that came along with it. They completely destroyed my life with no recovery.
I never mattered. Not to them. They did not have clue about my needs, they didn't have clue how to communicate them, how to do anything in regards to my situation. Anything at all. Just about every single things was wrong. I didn't mess any of this up. They did. I gave them chance, after chance, after chance, so I could prove without a doubt for myself that I didn't fail myself, they did. Otherwise, I would felt guilty for not knowing absolutely.
They don't care about you. You are disposable. If the way they do things doesn't actually work, that's your problem. You die.
I am too messed up to write anything sensible. Anything intelligent. The idea and the intent has been there, but I am just too tired. I haven't slept in I do not know how long. I don't know how many days that's been. My sleep has been messed up for weeks. Working helps me sleep. If I try to work to save my life they stop me and my make situation even worse.
The Motor Vehicle Act of British Columbia trumps the Constitution Act of 1867 apparently. Just ask the RCMP. In my view it is God, then the paper rules in the Constitution, then somewhere at some point after that, the Motor Vehicle Act. Never forget, road tax-collecting is more valuable than life-saving. Timothy 2-12 says so. Invert that, because it an inverted world.
The reality here is that I am going to legally make my situation way worse as I am tired, stupid and I will be telling a Communist Bureaucrat the last you ever tell a Communistic Bureaucrat... if they do talk me out of it, which I likely will be stupid enough to allow them to. I will be for a world of torture. We have to legally do this to blah blah blah. But that actually harms me, and it doesn't help me. We have to legally do this to blah blah blah. That is all I will hear as they decimate my health even more.
I cannot sleep. Waiting for their dates to define my life around to build around, waiting and waiting for days is leaving me as mush for brains. Not that I have been in a hurry for this, but there's no sense getting anything else going that they are act as a fence post in the middle of. It's the way it works in my life. Even if I can swing around this and that, which I can in good health, something will get a stake right through it by just around these people.
I will wish that I did it. They will just rubber stamp me into government garbage that will NOT better the situation. They will just torture me more with stupidity. I will just be pushed even further backwards. The damage they did to my health, ramming me into the hospital thinking nothing of it. It did not help me. It helped other people. It worsened my situation every single time. It even threatened my survival let alone cause job loss.
I am sure a lot of Port Moody residents would be upset losing a $40+/hr job that they liked because Jenn OHASHI of the Port Moody Police had plans to ram them into the hospital against all common sense. You cost me that job, then you threw me out into the street to die, this after I nearly dropped dead, this after I recently recovered from nearly killing myself in the darkest days of my life.
Darker than the stuff you put me through, which was far more than what other people told me they could even handle. They did not know I could survive what you did to me. Are you really that stupid that you did not know that you will killing me Jennifer OHASHI of the Port Moody Police Department? You really are that stupid, I already know that which is why I cannot stand to see your name on my files.
Now I actually want to kill myself in front of a judge, just to prove how absolutely stupid that you are. You can all pat each-other on the back, and tell each-other how good you are, but you know what? Maybe you should see the carnage trail behind you assholes. You killed someone from Port Moody because you decided that a life-long resident created and born into this city should not live here any more. You took that upon yourselves to decide.
You told me there was no help for me, because I was MALE. Then you giggled, and hugged your little police partner at the end of the Hearing. You two girls celebrated the fact that you just killed me by RAILROADING me through the courts. I don't care if this was a plan to make me WIN, which is wasn't. Not on your account. That was obvious.
At the end of it all, what you did was beyond even comprehension. Do you believe that you were assisting my mental health as a "Mental Health Officer"? You were destroying it with at every single turn. You even damaged other Port Moody people who helped pay out their pocket to help fix the irreparable mess that you had created. A lot Port Moody people paid out of their pocked to save my life after what you do did to me.
Ask my best friend. Another person born here. The very first friend I had ever made. We do not even talk anymore because of what you did. He has kids to feed. He helped save my life. You took from his kids. He is not the only one from Port Moody that you negatively affected in your actions.
They were your actions, no one else's. If the law tells you to kill me, and you kill me. You are still responsible for that act. You do understand that part right? You do understand that you are responsible for everything that you do to another person in your time here on this planet right?
An auxiliary mother of mine, someone I have known since I was four years old, she said that what was done was to me unforgivable. You partook in an act that was not forgive-able. She has lived in her Port Moody house since 1972. When did you start living in Port Moody OHASHI? What year? You even cost her money cleaning up after your mess.
Another best friends sister. They paid. Thanks for destroying that relationship. Money came all the way from Norway to help stop the unstoppable bleeding that you sowed into my existence Jennifer OHASHI. Maybe that means nothing to you. I am a person who never wanted to take from anyone. That was important to who I was as a human being.
Maybe the Courts are the Wrong place. Maybe this should be an Open Port Moody discussion. The residents here do not like you people down there at the Port Moody Police. I am not typing this to be vindictive, it's just that the damage is still going for me five years later. Your taking yearly leaves of absence? The damage to my life never leaves me.
I don't get a break from what you personally had done to me. Do not blame anyone else for your actions. Do you know that another Port Moody Resident had said to me just the other day that he cannot believe that I am still alive? He was born into this city. His life began about 1971. He says I should be dead from all this damage and he's surprised that I am not.
Fast forward five years, I am bumming money just to stay functional for these people. The reality is that I am out of resources and my position is actually impossible. If it was not for this court crap, I perhaps could get up and out of it, but at the same time after the last five years of... there isn't even words. Why would I even bother putting myself through this cycle over and over?
Seriously. It doesn't matter what I do. I get up. I get knocked down. I get up, I get knocked down. My health cannot take it. It has destroyed my health. I have gotten better, but which collapse there goes another chunk of health. This is not 'mental disorder'. It is an external disorder. Everything that I explain that I need will just be met with well we have this great blah blah.
That is not what I need, and you just burning my health out by wasting everyone's time. At this point, you either serve my needs or you do not. Actually, I was at that point a very long time ago. All I did what watch them fuck me up more and more and more by ensuring that I was not the one failing my person. They were.
If I do do this in front a judge, if I at least I give undeniable proof that they killed me. Which they won't want on their immediate hands, so they send the "Mental Quacks" to pretend they are helping me and I am back to less than square one. My thinking was just do everyone a favour, and do in right in front of judge. The government kills men.
They just help themselves. They could help me with a keyboard. That's all they would need, but that's not what they care about. Actually helping you, and your needs that is. It's all about their needs. You are not important. If I was important, they would have stuck with the keyboard five years ago. If I was important, none of this would have happened.
Instead they chose to kill me.
The only thing keeping me going is coffee. I cannot even feed myself and their solutions to that are not an answer. You KILL MEN by doing what you did to me. Here's is actually a perfect example. I feel so bad for this guy, because I can feel his pain. He was MAN who felt in earning his own success in life by own honest hard work. This likely killed him.
Never mind. My Twitter is totally gone now. I used at least be able to use it as bookmark. Other people's tweets I had retweeted. They were still there, it was just my stuff that was gone. While being permanently locked out of course. Maybe Twitter got shot down, maybe the World is burning, I have not followed anything and I am better off not to.
It was healthy distraction in the worst of times, but I was glad to finally push that stuff away. See, I am healthier in some manners. It's taken a long time, but in other manners.. I can the physical damage to by body increasing with each collapse. This is what I mean, I cannot take the hits. I just cannot take it anymore.
I'll be too worn out to be bother with trying to commit suicide in front of a judge by the 9:30 or whatever rolls around. I have been scared that I might not even be able to talk. Aside from sleepless nights, or short stints without sleep... all this time has been wasted waiting for court that will not help me. Why even bother with these people?
Just off yourself, they are just a waste of time. But then, do it front of them, give them the evidence. I cannot think of the fallout if that happens. They nail my family then? I cannot even... I don't want that, but I cannot even access that. Surely they will not nail themselves. They'll just pull a media blockage. Never happened. He had "Mental Health" issues.
Sure. I had Mental Health issues called INJUSTICE from the Justice System.