Who would be coming here to pick up the mail?

By chance would it be the very same people who have coerced, manipulated, and used you to bring incredible harm to your very own son who you promised to look after and care for?  Do you not understand that you are consistently led into harming me?  Do you not understand that "they" are the ones who have manipulated and used you to harm my life and take from me since I was a child?  Do you understand that they have nearly killed me without care multiple times?  Do you not understand that "other" people are the cause of all of this?  Do you not understand that that "they" are the ones who drove me off the rails spiritually, emotionally and financially?   That "they" are the ones who drove me into suicide?  That "they" are the ones who caused me to nearly drop dead on my 40th birthday?  Do you not understand the amount of damage done to my person?  Do you understand the reason why I am so sick, nearly dead in poor rolling health, destroyed finances, continually impeded from recovering, and the reason why you haven't gotten any money from me in nearly eight years, is because of "other" people who enjoy abusing my person?  Other people who lie, cheat, steal, commit perjury... and leave their own family member to die?  Do you not have any concern for my person who you made promise to in order to maintain my support?  Do you not understand that I have been expecting to die.. I didn't even think I would make it alive until Christmas.  The only reason I am able to function biology and begin to recover health-wise so that I may improve my ability to stay alive is to not think about all this crap.  Do you have any idea what the "others" have enjoyingly led you into doing to my person?  Do you have any idea what kind of health I am in?  You are too pre-occupied with people who have guided you into committing perjury and killing your own son.  That is absolute fact.

It has been over a month since I wrote you without reply.  I know you are concerned for my brother Mike.  I know that the others will, and do try to, control you. Control what you think, what you do, what you say, how you feel, and how you act.  It has been going on all of my life.  They have you and your thoughts elsewhere.  They do not want you to have any thought for me.  They do not want you to have any concern.  Just as they had no concern for you.  Do you remember Halloween 2020?  Do you understand that I have been in absolutely terrible health, in need of your support, and wanting to just die since I came home. It is not even describable.  It is not even describable how I go through all this pain, only to barely rise up from it, only to then have the same people send me flying backwards, over and over and over again.  Then comes Halloween. First the first time in ten years that I thought I would be giving out Halloween candy again, and that actually made me healthier.  I used to enjoy doing that.  Then my little sister Lisa phoned.  She was bringing her kids here to literally take from the neighbourhood and the dynamics of this house, of our relationship, had to change to please her. All while expressing no concern for you, or for me - someone she has nearly killed multiple times from her own greed.  Do you remember that I asked you not to have them here at the house that night?  To in the very least, have them go park someone else and stay away from the house as I was completely overloaded with bogus Criminal Charges from her Perjury and attempting to write Crown Administrative Counsel so that I would not end up in this position and unable to feed myself right now. Completely overloaded because of all of the combined damage. Any weight brings incredible harm to any chance of actually recovering, rather than dying within the next several months or within the next year.  You have let these people cause all these problems and their presence makes me physically ill.  Just the fact that they are within my vicinity, let alone manipulating you into taking my last breath's of air before I cease to biologically function, makes me incredibly ill.  Do you not understand that?

Sharing this makes it even worse as it is like giving people who want you dead, guns and ammunition.

Regardless of what you thought, regardless of what I thought, regardless of anyone else's needs are but her own, she was coming over and everyone better get out of her way.  I told you that that made me incredibly ill.  You responded by saying that her making me feel extremely ill inside, made you feel extremely ill inside (and somehow that doesn't matter).  Her actions, her wrongful conduct, her harmful self-serving intents, they do not matter either.  What matters is that the little princess was coming over because what she says goes and no one should ever be able tell her otherwise, including her own mother.  You are scared of your daughter, and you are scared of Jim.  Do you know that the whole tone of your email here brought me harm?  It just reads as without care for anything sensible that you would have expressed, or asked of in all the prior years. Then there's the fact that some undisclosed person/people is/are coming by with no expressed concern to my person, how I am doing, what is going on, the damage I might incur from such.  I should at least see it for what it is.  A heads up, but then you haven't even responded to my email.  You have expressed no concern to my person.  Maybe I am wrong, maybe it's because you have no time around them and attention spans are what they are. Just so you know I have been expecting to die, while you are running around in tears over Mike, all while making sure that you completely disrespect my person at someone else's command, for who knows what..  by locking doors here, and this and that.  It is absolutely criminal beyond belief.  In fact it is so criminal that I have a hard time believing that your words here, and your actions here, are of your own.  I know my mother.  I have lived with her for over forty years.  I know how vulnerable she is.  I know how she is coerced, guided, and played to follow through with what "others" with ill intents desire her to do.  Do you realise, that your oldest son, Jimmy Berladyn, gets off on harming your youngest son and has done so all of his life?  Do you understand that his whole intent was always to harm and take?  Do you really think those notes he passed to you during a telephone conference/testimony with the Residential Tenancy Branch was the honourable thing to do and say?

You are harming your own son right now.  You have no care for the condition of my health.  They do not want you to have any thought of such.  They don't want you thinking of me which is why everything always has to be so secret.  The moment they find out about anything they have to destroy it.  I think I deserve a little more respect than this email.  For all I know, this is the corrupt communist pieces of garbage in the government who are controlling, limiting and directing your communications here with me.  It's all a corrupt criminal game of fraud.  Defraud the public purse for personal / political gain.  All of it.  There is no justice system.  Everyone else has broken so many laws. Everyone.  Every single person, yet here I am just trying to stay alive, go to work and better my person, getting continually impaled by morons who make money taking it from the public purse.  They are all criminals stealing from the public purse in my view.  Their most primary concern is their perks, their income, their stability and their comfort.  They could not care if their actions, or their lack of actions, lead to my death, your death, or anyone's death. They are corrupt pieces of garbage.  I think I deserve a little more respect from you, a little more care, than what you have shown me .  Than what you have for the mail.   Why don't you tell me who is coming here and what is going on?  Why don't you ask me if there is anything you can do for my person, or if there is anything I can do for your person?   The son you have NEARLY KILLED.  Read your email, you are dictating.  You are not even asking, you are just commanding without care, without foresight, without insight, without anything.  Here is a picture I am going to include in case you forgot.   I know my sister removed all the photos upstairs and replaced them with hers.  All part of her "I am going to come to this house and make it better (for herself)" game. This way you are always of thinking of her. Just like when she tried to keep me from my home, just so she can keep you thinking of her.   You need to wake up.  You are at extreme risk of killing me from your complete lack of concern that everyone else fills your head with.  I personally know that this is not you, that this is the effect of the intentional influences of others.

It absolutely disgusting.  The whole history of everything.  My siblings, the doctors, the police, the lawyers, the prosecutors, the "social workers", the hospital staff, the judges, the politicians, extended family, friends, neighbour's, everyone.. it is totally disgusting.  It might not be important to you, but if people are to going to TAKE MY LIFE and KILL ME, or at least damage me to such an incredible effect that an early painful death is the most realistic scenario (as brother Jim even stated laughing at me for caring for you/the house), it might not be important to you, but if I cannot even be left to have some semblance of dignity, health, and a remote chance of recovery.. then I would at least appreciate trying to make the World a better place for everyone else before I die.  However, no one that works for the government actually cares to do just that.  They are such clowns, they could change the world if they only say what I saw.  They are like my siblings.  They have no care for anyone but themselves.  Even the retarded police who cannot figure anything out in their files because they are too stupid to actually engage somebody online where everyone in the world can see.  Did I say stupid, I meant corrupt, well likely both.  Anyways at this point, I would rather just remain in peace, but other's (including you while you are under the influence of others), do not seem to want that.  You all do not want me to have peace.  You do not want me to recover.  You do not even want me healthy to address court, or to work, or anything at all period.   You all want to torment and me and kill me very painfully..  you have no idea mother.  This much I know for a fact.  You can not imagine..  what you all have done to my life. Poor you, poor you, poor you... was always your story, everyone feel sorry for you.  While I never really had the chance to mate, and it now it looks like I never will thanks to my sister Lisa, but the point I wan to make is - I have not had kids and went through what you did in life. However I know for an absolute fact that you have not gone through what I have.  You have no idea how absolutely disgusting it is to have everyone around you take from you and take your dignity...  there is no help.  The help just helps itself because everyone is a criminal.

I haven't even known if you were alive.  I didn't know if you got sick.  I don't know if everyone is screening every email.  I do not know even know if it is you on the other end.  All I know is that my mother told me that she has to delete every single email very quickly so that the others do not find out about them.  All I know is that my mother does things for me on her own out of care, but she will not do so if she feels that others will find out as it causes problems with her other children.  The others that "Dr. Owen" deemed were TAKERS.  All I know is that my mother is actually scared of my stronger siblings who then invert that claim against my person to deflect from their own wrong doing.   All I know is that my mother is scared for other people find out that she does things for me and that our relationship would actually be completely normal if there were not other people involving themselves.  All I know is that my mother does not want other people finding things out; "you know what will happen" she would say.  Do you know what that is a sign of mother?   Abuse. They are the Abusers.  They always have been.  They do not know any different.  They have manipulated you, they have abused you, all to the expense of my life nearly killing me multiple times.   I have wanted to write you so that I may know what is going on, how you are doing, to know what I can expect and so on.. yet, I haven't been able to write you because I have been too sick.  You all have caused me so much personal damage... that I cannot even write..  let alone pull myself out of this situation on command.  Tonight, I seem to be able to write, the last several days have been terrible.  Not working, the cycle, the snowball effect of compounding problems after compounding problems, I have to allow everything to come into balance by not thinking about it, just rolling with all the various issues.. and sure, enough.. just as opportunity comes, or just as I start moving forward, someone who has no care comes along and screws everything up.  Whether it is siblings, doctors, police, lawyers... anyone and everyone.    My siblings do not even care about the fact that they have nearly killed me multiple times.  It does not even register with any of you people.  You are balling your eyes out of over Mike, yet.. you totally ignore what you all did to me.  You have TAKEN MY LIFE and I will no longer survive at some point far too early.   It doesn't seem to register to you, or to them, that they have destroyed one of their own.  I always blame myself for not being stronger, smarter, more efficient, more capable in beating impossible odds in keeping on top of everyone, but there comes a point, where people who have no care while planning to harm others for their own benefit...   is no longer my fault.

They simply do not care, and they have caused all of this.  I am the one that you, along with everyone else, punishes while you are completely misled into your own demise.  I cannot be held responsible for the actions of other people who do not even care. Your daughter committed perjury yet again.  Again.  After all the damage she has inflicted onto my life without care, immense, invisible, non-recoverable damage... and the she does it again, believing that she is so smart.  Obviously that is Ok, cause not one government criminal has done anything about it, nor will they.  That is not part of their communist agenda.  They are such blatant criminals that I cannot even talk about it.   Totally corrupt, just like Jimmy, just like Lisa...  keep cheating the World everyone.. and one day the piper will come calling.  She WINS nothing by harming her own brother.  She WINS nothing by killing her own flesh and blood.  The damage is done mother.  I keep reading bullshit in files about not paying this or that, you idiots have cost me nearly $500,000 or more in the last five or six years alone in income and exponential account. Speaking of such, I am concerned for you.  I dreamt about everything that has happened over twenty-years ago.  I never know if I am personally best not to think about, not to talk about it, not to admit it (not even to myself), I don't know..   I don't know how to explain what I am trying to say, but life is continuing right on course no matter which way I turn it seems.  The outcome is the same.  I die at the abuse and actions of my own siblings.  I am already dead.  You are all too sick in the head.  Seriously.  Your daughter is a CRIMINAL who turns on and KILLS her own FAMILY for MONEY / BENEFIT.   The same as Jim.   In the dream they didn't care about you, they for sure didn't care about me, they cared about themselves, their long sought after desires, and their every thief for themselves nature.  I don't even know what there is to tell you about the mail because all I know is that all you are doing is causing more problems with more people. For all I know, this is one of those people using your email account. For all I know, those were Jimmy's exact words in an email or two ago.  That's totally his style.  Laugh at everyone behind their back and cheat them right into their deaths.  This is exactly the same thing that made it impossible to GIVE YOU MONEY for the last SEVEN PLUS YEARS.  I nearly killed myself, do you remember that?  That was because of the people you are with right now.  The people you have been with daily for the last two months.

It's not me mother, it is the lack of care, the lack of acknowledgement, the complete disrespect, and the complete disregard that everyone else espouses with their actions, deeds, and expressions.  Even the police are total pieces of garbage. Just absolute trash.  I am not sure what to tell you.  Maybe you should call me, but then like last time..  I will probably be trying to sleep - all totally messed up.  I will tell you one thing, I am certainly not jumping to someone else's command at the destruction of my health.  It is absolutely disgusting that..  I am tempted to leave the mail somewhere (police?), but let's look at what those idiots did to my life.  They completely destroyed my life, and they are so self-serving that they lie to themselves and state they are just in their actions.  Total pieces of garbage.  You are all lucky that the cops are criminals, the doctors are frauds, and the courts are completely corrupt otherwise you and everyone else would be asking me for FORGIVENESS - like I have done for all of you in the Courts.   Rather that dictating that they are coming here to cause these problems and those problems, I would actually be getting healthy if it was not for them. Do you know what?  Action speaks louder than words.  Their whole intent is to harm me, for their own gain, likely while they tell you - it would be good for you to DESTROY, DISPOSE and KILL your own son (me).   There isn't even any point in me staying alive.   You have all caused me that much damage, and you keep continuing to do so without care.  The only thing I can do is push it out of my mind so that I may begin to forget and roll forward...  but nope... they do not want that. They do not want you to want that.  They want to KILL their OWN FAMILY MEMBER, they want what they want, without any care regarding their own actions.  I remember Nana in her misery, I remember dad in his misery, and I know myself in my misery... you all seem think it is your right to dump on my person. Absolutely disgusting.  It's not you, as on your own you are fine. It is "them".

They have even admitted it.  Jim enjoys my pain, and so does Lisa.  Sick, disgusting people.  Affiliates of theirs suck-holing my mother for personal gain while taking her away from me who is in dire need of her are no better.  There is something incredibly wrong with all of you.  You are fine, but you are under the influence of "them".  They learned to cheat, manipulate and control you thirty-five to forty years ago.  I chose to just go be by myself.. and look..  even your friend Bernice said it, they are sick... and they cannot help it.  Who calls the police making fraudulent claims denying someone their home, denying someone who nearly killed themselves. Someone completely wiped out by these same people (siblings) making false claims to the police?  You have been around those people every single day for two months and you express no concern for my person.. why is that?  No concern for how sick I was made to feel while attempting to write the Crown Administrative Counsel properly, no concern while I was trying to do that, bottle-necked with health, financial, work issues, which were only compounded even further bail/probation that I should never have been subjected to.. and on and on and on... my sister lied.  She phoned the police and lied in spite of everything I have been through. Even the cops lied to me, I was arrested, made extremely sick again, and I am not able to recover because the absolutely corrupt legal system which is (mis)used to bring me incredible bureaucratic harm..  I have been at points over and over and over where I have just felt like killing myself to end the misery.. that all of the criminals inflict while continuing to destroy and impair what is left of my life and my health...  I am not doing anything at this moment regarding the mail.  My health comes first.  If I am harming my health... by emailing someone who might not even be my mother, or likely.. just my mother following instructions of her corrupt children... just lie, who cares. Just cheat, just steal, just take, just get rid of that person... they'll never know.. they are stupid, blah blah blah.

Why don't you cut me some RESPECT and show me that you care ?  You are going to have people that cause problems, come here to cause more problems?  Please tell me that you are not an elderly person being used for some bureaucratic ploy at this specific point?  You are always USED and EXPLOITED to bring me harm.  Always.