Whereas Canada is founded upon principles that recognize the supremacy of God...
Insured by God in a godless communist bureaucracy. Regardless of what anyone thinks about this, I have been put through more than I would wish upon any other person. In doing this today, I was only doing what I absolutely needed to do in order to survive and recover in overwhelming odds that are always against me. The one thing I have learned over the last five years is that the government will not help. The government will simply not help. You can claim whatever you want, but the government will only do what government does and that is to impede and impair my ability to recover and survive.
I really did not need the RCMP costing me what really amounts to $3000 today. Which in my shoes, and in my position, is really pretty much the last nail my coffin... and here I am telling myself that I am not paying this ticket. If I am telling myself that, then... it's over. In fact the only thing I am doing now is planning my death. I would rather die. That is my initial feeling towards all of this. Which anyone who monitors my Facebook, like the RCMP, or the person who claimed to desire to report unrelated comments would already know. Someone who I have no respect towards spouted off on my public page today and I believe those words came out of my mouth. I would rather retain my self-respect, than suffer ever more unrelenting agony that my health cannot afford which is continually impaled into my person by useless government employees. Just useless pieces of shit. I keep typing that, and I keep deleting it to be nice.
This during a "World Wide Medical Pandemic..."
Collecting Road Tax is more important to government paid employees at the RCMP than is the survival of someone who corrupt government bureaucracy has already, for all intents and purposes, murdered... with gross negligence. The Crown in Port Coquitlam had already been informed this week of this intent to drive "Insured by God" prior to this incident. What is Peter Ng to do? Cover his ass. What is he going to do when he see's that? Or the Members of Parliament who it was also sent to? You are useless Marc Dalton. You really are. You blocked one of my profiles on Facebook. That just tells me everything I already thought I knew about you when I met you. I am really glad I never bothered with any ballots, or it would just be another kick in the teeth.
Again, of course I have also been vocal about it on Social Media. In fact, I have been very vocal about many things on Social Media. Many things that could make many people in positions want to insert unrecoverable injury. I have to wonder if this wasn't an intentional trace and track out of either vindictiveness or what have you, rather than just happenstance as the "Officer" claimed. I am quoting "Officer" as she insisted I call her such. She's not a Lady, she doesn't like that. And with that - even the Officer, and others like her, may have reason to be vindictive.
Like me or not, I am of the opinion that women are naturally short sighted. It is entirely natural. They are very talented at many things. They are superior to males in many ways, but they completely lack in areas where males naturally succeed. If you personally believe that the sexes are equal and interchangeable you are lying to yourself. Anyways, I am not overly faulting her for issuing the ticket. I am however faulting all of these officers involved for their complete lack ability to seek a personal understanding. One of them at least attempted and continued interest, until he was told to drop it and leave by the "Officer".
At the end of the day, I had believed the "Officer" was telling the truth about being right behind me in traffic, but the insanity of doing this to someone in my shoes along with the erroneous advice given by people who completely fail to see how ridiculous they are while claiming the same of me is counter to everything regarding my needs. Roughly one month ago while I was venting on the Attorney General's page, rolling with thoughts all over the map not being able to sleep, I nearly typed in text over Facebook that I am going to carry a knife with me and put it right into my throat if an Officer hinders my ability to survive from that unmanageable point forward.
How would that text written to him over Facebook have panned out?
It just would have led to even more ridiculous doctors and damages to my overall situation in a system that does not work while ever more government employees profit by making my situation even worse. I would have lost the meagre income in November and I would not have been able to write the Crown Office as I did in a letter that was already crippled from its full form by the Bail/Probation Office bothering my person unnecessarily. All of that extra damage I would have incurred while ever more ridiculous self-serving bullshit was written in files while tampering with my witness to the last five years of government incompetence rendering my person useless. Just as it always has since day one. They serve themselves.
I had a lot of thought towards this incident walking home.
I am not sure if I can capture all of that however. I am now tired. I am feeling drained. The best thing to do in my mind is to write from memory and then add to it after I listen to the recording. Unfortunately, it's just going to end up as a long unorganized post that a psychiatrist will write a bunch of mumbo-jumbo about. An unorganized post that I will add insult to injury when I see a police offer deem it as a long non-sensical rant in police files. I find that private thought to myself while analyzing life is envisioned and processed so much clearer when I am alone in my mind. Attempting to explain it via long texts after the fact doesn't really work, but at least for me this is an attempt to communicate certain things.
I am in a position that is really impossible to describe in full. Let alone remember all the details of as I try to manage multiple hindering positions all at once. This while I am continually impoverished by government entities that do not serve an honest person like myself. The government really does not serve individuals. It just doesn't. It does not know how to. It does not care to. As long as government employees get theirs. Just like everyone else they only care about themselves. As far as I am concerned my friend from a few weeks ago was probably right; they would rather KILL ME and drive me into my death than correct their own errors.
I cannot pick and choose the opportunities that come before me. I can however assess risk and my ability in any given situation, which is something that is naturally hampered by fluctuating factors. How I am feeling in any given moment, the amount of rest I have had, the amount of stress or just plain affronts to my dignity... which is rather commonplace these days. It's better now, but seeing losses in your life everywhere you look is not a good thing for any person. Acknowledging this loss today is absolutely terrible for my person.
I know that I need to be working and that I am in a very dangerous position. Again, the government will not help me. I know that if I do not take work then I starve and it becomes impossible to recover as the tax on my person is just too great. I have simply been put through too much for too long. All while people in the "system" just continually wear me down while I attempt to heal. Every single interaction with the Port Moody Police coming to this house was destructive and had added a set back of a month or more per visit. With this, my care for government entities and the people within them just goes out the window.
If this system was working properly towards justice and towards my actual medical needs, these "Officers" would have never even came near me today. If the "system" wanted to kill me and finish me off, then this is exactly what these "Officers" should have and would have done. There is really no way to describe for a reader all of the constantly changing variables that impair my person and you can make of me whatever you want. I really do not care anymore. I am probably more honest than you yourself reading this. Doctors are frauds. Cops are criminals. The honesty guy gets no where.
I was fortunate enough to get a call today for an opportunity that would help me tremendously in surviving right now. I thought well, it is high risk to drive all the way out to Maple Ridge, but hopefully I can secure a quick job that will correct my immediate problem. The alternative is stupidity. Sit home and starve to death while my ability to work and earn honest independent income collapses. If all goes as good as it could with driving out to this job within two days I will have corrected my immediate problem and bettered my overall health. At worst, I will have corrected it within the coming week. I myself have to move forward as opportunity and health allows. I don't get to pick and choose.
Like I said in my last letter to the Crown, people do not get it. They don't get it all which was completely evident with these "Officers" today. Everyone has good days and bad days, but it was very clear to me that only one Officer was really worth speaking to. Even at his best, in listening to the audio, he doesn't completely grasp it himself. I am not trying to fault the others, but they suffered failure where most people do. They failed to grasp what most people who live in mental box fail to grasp. Of course, like so many, they were more concerned with dictating over my person, and my burdens, than they were in understanding the reality they just foisted upon my person. Really in the end, a friend would tell me that they just don't care. In which they don't. Why would they, it's not their biology on the line?
I figured driving and attempting such today was high risk. In some ways my decision and acts were careless. I could have planned my route better. I assumed that I would probably get nabbed at the location of the job as it is a bad area and police presence is very high. As I drove to see the job today it registered in my mind that the area of Coquitlam that I was going to attempt passing through was really bad, but this where I simply carelessly thought I would simply roll the dice. I just cannot stress about things anymore. Stress is really bad for my health, so I try to avoid directly allowing it engulf my person. Luck was either going to be on my side, or it was not. Life goes on. For some anyways. Sure enough I passed people headed in the in the other direction pulled over by police.
Just keep going and feel no concern was all I could do. Don't sweat the small stuff. Just keep going about my business bringing no other person harm was my plan. Take from no one. Sure enough with in a block of the other police facing the other direction suddenly there was the RCMP right behind me as well. Lights flashing, siren on, get the "bad guy". Get the poor son of bitch her peers have almost killed and is just doing the best he can do to survive and recover from constant over-bearing police and government stupidity. Never mind that stuff. The real important agenda here is get the "bad" man just trying survive and recover tremendous losses during a "World Wide Medical Pandemic". How fucking ridiculous. You are KILLING PEOPLE and then you tell them that it their fault. Ridiculous.
I am not the kind of person who freaks out and stops traffic on a main highway. I would rather pull over somewhere safe and quiet with space for everybody. Fender benders included and that's what I did. I spotted the next immediate available exit and pulled into a commercial shopping area which was actually much to my own dislike as I could no longer just decide to punch it and make a total mess of the situation. Which is probably a bad idea on any given day. It's actually a completely terrible idea on any given day. Realistically, doing anything other than working with people who will not recognise your life and death situation is... a terrible idea, because it just is. This way you die slowly.. with no attention brought to your person. It doesn't matter. If you caused a scene, it would just lead to cries of more programs and policies that do not actually help somebody.
I could be wrong, but I felt that I was agitating the officer by leading her into safer, more convenient, area for stopping. Then I wondered while trying to be polite and courteous in the mirror towards the officer's needs, if the police "Officer" was female and sure enough she was. Not a "Lady", but an "Officer". I am just making enemies typing that, but quite honestly it makes a difference. It makes a big difference that I never even truly realized myself until my oldest brother intentionally poisoned the well claiming that I had problems with females. Funny he would say that. I believe I have more girlfriends than both of my brother's combined. I am the only one who actually brought girls home to meet the parents kinda thing.
My oldest brother's statement painting me as a woman hater only helped blind the first female officer with her prejudice back in January 2016. I suspected that he played her like the fool she was. Just retarded. Feel the power. I have a badge and zero accountability. Women are terrible. They really are. I am surprised that I now have this view, but it is reality. This view has only compounded with every female who has tried to control me since. Speaking of which, I once hooked up a female RCMP of the Heavy Duty Criminal Investigations Unit. It's not appealing. I was not enthused.
Anyways, here I am now with this perspective that I lean towards regarding females in uniform. Of course, quite honestly I cannot say they have all been bad. Not all women fit a failing stereotype. There were a few that stood out and I have actually respected them via their actions in certain situations. I look back and I have respect for them. Some of the guys are nearly just as bad as some of the women though, so don't take me completely wrong with my assertions.
Anyways, everyone already hates me so I may as well just go for the gold.
Furthermore, everyone seems to want me dead. Their needs matter, mine do not. It serves everyone else's true self-interest actually. Instead of just facing up to the reality of what they have all done to me, of how they have continually made it impossible for me to survive independently while retaining my own dignity and self-respect in a healthy manner, instead of taking the opportunity to make the best of this and fix these systems that do not work, they would all rather just have me go away while they cover their own behinds. Human nature right?
I mean seriously how hard is it for a failure that works for the government and takes living from the public purse to engage with me online while sitting at a computer drinking coffee and getting fat? This is a bureaucracy. It is just words on paper. What is the internet? It just words without the paper. Which I easily argue is far more environmentally friendly, far more efficient and far more accurate than the clown operations that they operate. They all shy away from doing this. All of them. Police, doctors, everyone. What are these "saviours" scared of, the Truth?
It's confession for criminals or something. Like Sunlight for Vampires.
At least they were "nice" Vampires. They spent ten minutes before giving me the ticket deciding that they were going to tow my vehicle home, rather than an impound yard. So what was she doing all that time in the car, with at least five minutes to herself? Was she glancing at the endless files on the computer, taking instruct from a superior, or just writing the ticket? I suppose that five minutes actually is probably what it would take to write the ticket and triple check while confirming details. I just cannot help but be suspect with any interactions anymore. I have seen too many. Far too many.
Likely no one is going to read this writing, but lets do the math here:
- There is a World Wide "Medical Pandemic" which is completely destroying people that do not work for government and Road Tax (insurance) is more important than my ability to stay alive.
- Infringing my ability to independently work, earn honest income, and correct my problems as ONLY I can do to avoid my own death, is not their failure towards my person as a human being, it is mine apparently.
- While my truth is completely dismissed by guys who would not last a single day on a job site, I am said to be unreasonable and not willing to listen to bureaucratic solutions that are fully proven to my person without a single doubt to be anything but viable solutions.
These police officers and everyone who will agree with them, which is most people, are so fucking stupid and without any actual clue that this situation is now beyond all repair. It really is. I am not saying that police should allow me to drive freely without insurance, but maybe they would have been better to "not see" me. The RCMP handled this correctly the last time, and only other time, I had to do this. They followed me for several kilometres and never pulled me over. One behind me and one in front of me for a time if I remember right. They actually had my respect for that because I did not want to be on the road uninsured for my own reasons. Reasons which completely outweigh these mere tax collectors.
Perhaps their real concern is having others find out. Of which I never intended to tell anyone but it all came out in a recording with my mother. Which is another story within other stories. The problems never end because the loser Port Moody Police decided that they should assist in damaging the relations between my own mother and myself. I trust what my mother told me regarding over anything the police say in these matters. As someone who stood by my mother and helped her keep this house against everyone else's desire, I should not have full access to this house and the perpetual damage never ceases. As my friend said a few weeks ago, they would rather likely drive me into my death, than be forced to look in the mirror. Just have me go away. Just get rid of me.
They kill people all the time .
I know of people that are dead. I know of people with their lives destroyed. None of these government employees have the initiative to fix the system. They don't even care to. That is someone else's job. Someone else's concern. Someone else's obligation. No Personal Responsibility. Besides, how are they going to take their income from the public purse if they actually make the World a better place rendering themselves without a reason to exist? Right now they do their thing, collect their government cheques and go home. Twenty five years later they collect a government pension and do something else. I have over twenty five hard years in, I have no pension. In fact I am destroyed by people who receive a pension among other perks. I am more than sure that I could have built a working example of what is needed if my health and finances were not completely driven into the ground continually destroyed by government sloths.
It's 3:10am, and I have come back out of bed realising that I cannot sleep. There's no food available here, not unless I bash through walls to get to it. Orders of the Port Moody Police. I should not have access to a kitchen I renovated in the very house I was created in. Police have completely failed to serve the true needs of this household while they have been sure to serve themselves. Kill a life-long resident whose aim in life was to secure the house, save his parents, be honest, work hard and take from no one. Just kill him. Just take the only things keeping him alive. Real hero's. Kind of like today with the RCMP. Just deny his ability to secure an income to pay his Road Tax. Let's add another $700 to that impossible situation and make sure he drowns. I have absolutely no respect for you losers any longer.
You are Criminals. Can anyone spell criminals?
I can: g-o-v-e-r-n-m-e-n-t e-m-p-l-o-y-e-e-s .
The RCMP I have been far too nice towards. I have been way too nice because I have met some good officers that EARNED my respect here and there. Respect is earned. However, I have mainly been far too nice to the RCMP because I do not want to be at war with every single entity. I do not want to have these negative views of all these other government people who will interject themselves even more into my life, against my life. So what I have done is tried limit the negatively to the Port Moody Police who fully deserve every ounce of it. Focus it the first entity that failed me. Failed me miserably. Do not blame my siblings for your failure.
It is now 4:45am, I am not sleeping. There is no food here. I have gotten out of bed again because I am laying there trying to sleep knowing full well that I am deteriorating very quickly and these idiots who think they are doing the world a favour by impeding my ability to survive with this much over all damage, in these conditions that I am in and surrounded with, in a "World Wide Health Pandemic" to boot... are just brain dead fucking losers. The ridiculousness of these clowns. 'We just cut off possibly your only real actual ability to continue recover and survive in Winter.' Then they ask like retarded children: 'Do we need to take you to communist doctors who are completely fucking useless just like us the police?'
The complete lack of perception of the real world reality is almost mind boggling. Keep blaming my person as you destroy the only ability for me continue living an already drastically shortened life. You people are complete fucking idiots because the only thing you know how to do, is wrap your lips around the government tit while try to stand over Canadian Citizens dictating impossible situations to them that you do not even care to comprehend. That conversation today was actually painful. Especially with four of them. Four on one. It's terrible. It is all about them.
You needed to have four people there. Do you how hard you made the conversation bouncing back and forth between different people? What a waste of man hours. What a waste of words because it all fell on deaf ears. All of it. You simply didn't give a fuck other than entertaining your own needs and interests. With the exception of the one officer, the rest of you were terrible. Whatever, you have good days and you bad days. She wasn't bad.. given her clarity of her stances, but aside choosing the lesser of two evils.. she was actually not constructive to anything other than herself. She would have been more constructive to that whole incident to just drive away after getting her "bad" guy.
I am laying there in bed and I thinking to myself, I wouldn't care if I killed any one of them. I really wouldn't. I wouldn't care with the exception of the one who expressed and pursued intelligent constructive interest. He actually pursued interest. I do not believe you hear it in the audio, but he pursued that interest until the female cop who didn't really give a shit about what she just did to another human being told him to drop it and move on. Typical woman. This whole world deserves to collapse in on itself, and government workers like these people actually deserve it to happen. They really do. How will any of you government bums survive without the tax-payer or mega-corporation to leech your existence off of?
At least, how would you survive in an HONEST fashion where you are not taking from another, lying, cheating, stealing or living off the public purse?
I cannot help but lay in bed and think to myself that I would not lose sleep over killing any one of the three of them. I wouldn't care about killing the any one the majority of Port Moody Police Officers either. They very clearly do not care about killing me. Action speaks louder than words. It does. You just took the ability of myself to survive this month and beyond. No matter what you say, that is what you did. There is no way around that. The reason I am in this situation is because of people like you. How much more apparent could I really have been in that dialogue? Listen to the audio. They do not care. For myself, I had to avoid escalating the situation, but they had absolutely no care. None. Sending me to a useless communist doctor? All that does is provide false relief to their own obligations in life.
I still wonder if that traffic stop had anything to do with my words else where, I really do. HERE and other places.
My response to all of this might not make sense to many people. At least the way I am thinking since this event today, but these people along with everyone else in government, the doctors, the prosecutors, the judges, the social workers, literally everyone... they are people who only profit off this situation at my expense while they fail to completely address the reality that they continually impose on my person. The bulk of the populace is likely far too stupid as well. There is just so much to this for my person, aside from anything others might correctly deem here, there is something too important to core of who I am... that makes this unrecoverable. I don't have a choice. There are things that are important to my life and if they are gone, they are gone. There is simply no point living with something this unjust. However, maybe half the population will dead next year. Genocide.
Go sing your Canadian Anthem pretending that you Stand on Guard for Thee. Go pretend that you are Strong and Free. The over whelming majority of you are not free. Perhaps I am wrong in what I say, but I do not even think the majority of Canadians comprehend Freedom and Independence. It is just a concept that they are completely lost on, even here in the above dialogue... suggesting that I take Welfare... it's just unbelievable. Why don't I throw away my ability independently earn an honest, humble income working with my own hands, so that I can take $300 a month and have the government completely fuck up any ability to actually work in the only manners that drive me to continue existing on this planet? These people do not know how to live outside of a box. All they know is what the government, or corporation, provides for them. Well, provides for them to dump on someone else anyways.
I do not even want to live in this world anymore. I have said that over and over on social media. Which is interesting because I can recall articles about the RCMP hiring tremendous amounts of people to watch people online. Perhaps those are the East Indians and East Asians I heard about the other day. Maybe that 'program' was farmed out over-seas... as per the recent source which claimed this was done for the political ambitions of destroying the United States of America. Who knows?
All I know is that Canadians here who take their income from the public purse do not even care if they kill somebody. They do not care if they deny them the ability to provide for themselves in a "World Wide Health Pandemic". They only care if they will be liable for not incarcerating those same people into more government communism that does not work. They only care about their liabilities and obligation to feed even more useless government people who line their pockets destroying Canadian independence.
I am just done. I was done a long time ago. All I have to do is decide where to go from here. I could follow through with X route, I could follow with Y route, I could continue to get impaled with Z route.
