I wish I was her age again. I wish I was more proactive in listening to my Uncle Peter. He gave good advice. Anyways, I have been using multiple platforms to cater to my needs and the needs of others. Nataliya has proven to a be beautiful friend. She has the right stuff inside.

On the topic of this Audio, I said the following last night just after 2:00am:

You are awesome. I wanted to say something more fitting, I was just thrown off on the last paragraph. I think he is a stronger survivor than I am in those regards. I wouldn't last that long sleeping in a vehicle, especially now in this shape. I would actually be dead if I had to go through all that I did again. I could not physically take it.

Thank so you very much for your nurturing manners. You are a good woman evident with what you wrote. I must have some strengths, also I am far more flexible in many regards. I do not work for an employer. In fact, I tell people that work for God. I just go out and earn honest cash. That is if luck is on my side.

Right now I am in a bad spot because I cannot stretch my finances two months. Locking me out of the kitchen upstairs only drives up my expenses as I am seeking stretch them as far as I can. My mother, that really hurt my dignity. Whoever is behind that, I literally want them Quartered.

The direct assault to my dignity. I RENOVATED that kitchen and paid for much of it. I re-piped this whole house. I put a new furnace in. I have done more than I can list and I have done less than I would have wanted because of my siblings. Anyways to lock me out of a house that would not be here if not for decades of my suffering...

This was suggested by a Police Officer who has conducted himself like a shady teenager with badge. I wish I could fit the descriptive word, but I feel like he should be SHOT for this. He has directly assaulted my dignity and likely made this house unlivable. It is intolerable to me.

My mother wanted me to ignore Court Orders, and I did at her request before I concluded my own determinations. Suddenly she did a 180 degree turn and against my dire pleas insisting that she was locking me out for my benefit. It was such an assault to my health, my well-being and my ability to survive this Winter.

Last Winter.. I just decided to die. I actually barely came out of that. Just enough of a trickle came to make another heart beat and it getting back going again was really tough. Here is my mother locking me out for "my benefit". I told her, you let me deal with the Courts. They (intentionally) wrote the address wrong.

There are so many ways out of any Charges. They knew. The Judges know. I wrote all of the Judges in the Province in 2018 I believe it was. They all have a letter from me describing the very core of this situation. I have a feeling too many people know in that Courthouse and they slide shit my ways. Oops, someone made a typo.

Do you know what I mean?

Even without that there are valid arguments. Even further, look what I did with Bail / Probation. I literally told them to go fuck themselves. What has happened? Knock on Wood, but no Arrest Warrant. I am too much trouble for everyone. It's just on too many desks and who wants to get splattered with blood of an innocent person on their hands?

There is too much information for me to process than even a share. The RCMP Officer, what did he tell me.. I probably do not want to go the Port Moody Police. (I probably miscommunicating this) Knock on wood, but I don't expect to be seeing them. If I do, it might not be pretty but that's the point I am at with everything.

Anyways, forget the bureaucracy. This is my Rightful Home and if someone is going to lock out of sections I will end up just killing myself before I ever continue to tolerate this over the long-term. Which is what a friend said to me the other night. *They* would likely rather drive me into suicide than properly resolve this situation.

If I really wanted to, I could cut a hole in the wall and go upstairs but there is no point in that. That will actually bother me because I will have to fix it and it will drive me nuts that the wall is patched from such stupid unneeded attack on my health, pride, dignity. Furthermore, it is making me go against my mother.. on something that..

It's just wrong all around. The whole business of it. We will see what happens after I finish writing what I am, provided I can finish in a manner than I am happy with. We see will what happens after that. If the table doesn't flip at that point, in proving that I am the innocent victim driven to death by the government at the hands of proven liars..

We will see. I have had lots of thing go through my mind. I can burn the house and everything in it, but that doesn't make sense. That just kills my mother and it kills me. Leaving the two worst.. exactly what they would want. Insurance money and a clean slate.

With mom gone, me gone and my other brother gone, plus his house... they would just clean up. It would be ideal for them. They could be the best of friends and cry to everyone about how hard they had it with such a bad brother like me. Everyone feel sorry for them because they are "survivors". That is exactly what would happen.

Except now, I think it would pretty hard to cover up the driven to suicide aspect.. and yeah.. I don't know what everyone is thinking government wise, but.. hopefully they have concluded just to back off and be realistic about what they are really doing here. It scares me to write this because when they know too much.. they form plans and act.

Vk is like Facebook.

They control speech and my first lady friend on there, they banned her permanently. I am not sure what she did. I was disappointed because she was so beautiful and she asked me to be her friend. Anyways, I am wondering right now if I am under review for the same. Ban Him. That will ONLY HURT my HEALTH.