I would probably be smarter not to do such, but...

Mom left to take care of my care and she locked the door between the upstairs and downstairs. This is a complete affront to my dignity. I brought this up as she was leaving. I really wish I had listened to myself and recorded the audio.

Her reasons for doing so were so that I do not "get in trouble" for being upstairs. She wanted it locked so the others didn't catch me. Upon my protest, it's in my interests to close that door and not see people... she insisted that be locked because of the others...

So now I am cut off from having a kitchen with doors and locks that I paid for and installed to protect me from people abusing me. People who have driven me into my death. The locks on the doors have been turned into a "Suicide" position, the position changed them to, from their original install position when I nearly killed myself in this house.

I did that so my mother could have some form or secure privacy against what I had foreseen as "Investigators" crawling through the basement. I actually envisioned ADULTS not children as police officers. Now because of piece of shit port moody police officers... I will likely always be cut off from upstairs in a house that would not be here with out years of my suffering.

I am just done. This makes me want to kill as there no recovery. Just more useless bureaucracy that never fixes anything, other than a guarantee of the wages and conditions of those "working" in such. I honestly just feel like saying fuck it. My own mother... is destroying my health because police officers told her to.

Which is really a crock of shit because it was my mother who insisted I come upstairs to start with. I had that same opinion, but I had not taken the step yet. I did so because my mother asked me to. This is an incredible insult to both my health and my dignity. As soon as she returned and unlocked the door.. I immediately felt better.

Going upstairs, this house, the memories... everything to do with it, that my siblings and everyone else are so keen on destroying... have been important enough to me to decide it was worth dying trying to save.. along with my parents... and here is this piece of crap from the Port Moody Police... recommending that the door be locked..

The same pieces of shit who stated that they believe that I should not live here anymore. In reality, what they were saying is that I should not live anymore and that I should just go die... then the Port Moody Police can go back to taking selfies and celebrating how important they are to maintain peace and safety.

It's really simple. When people leave this city and they want to come and take from a life long Port Moody Resident, you just kill the Port Moody Resident and everyone is happy. That is the Port Moody Police. That is the Court System. That might even be the worthless Doctors as well, but I only heard APOLOGIES...

Except for..

My Life is not even worth living anymore to be honest.