I cannot for the life of me understand what is wrong with people.  I generally do not 'tell' people what is good for them, as ultimately I do not know.  I had two helping friends do that today and a third late last week.  All of my answers are within my being, the situation I am forced into by external entities along my now subsequent dependency (everyone involved) cripples me from keeping my own answers at the forefront of any intent.

• My Being, my Truth, my Reality dictates X.
• My Family Members, careless in their own words and acts claim Y.
• The Communist Bureaucracy of self-serving Individuals force Z.

How do you people not understand this is/was MURDER? Pushing all the above aside, if my MEDICAL NEEDS were actually met, how viable is it for me to:

• actually get up and get moving in a forward direction towards generating a gainful income?
• this list is too painful...

  I feel I have to rant, so below is a rant on this subject.

You people are all asswipes.  I see the Province of British Columbia visited this site 22 times today from either Maple Ridge or Sechelt.  I am wondering what is it?  The issuance of an Arrest Warrant because you have unjustly driven into the ground and consequently into suicide (which actually MURDER) an innocent honest person who came to you for help while nearly dropping dead from stress only to have you help by taking away his livelihood and ability to support himself, along with everything he owns.  Are you visiting because he hasn't used up resources that he does not have to check into a ridiculous Bail Office, never mind support himself?  "Just a Bail check in".  Honestly, what a bunch of complete asswipes.

Just Arrest him and throw him in Jail, that'll teach him.  Well, actually who cares about that, but the paperwork will line up and that's all that matters.  See that is Communism.  The paperwork, the bureaucracy of lies is more important than an innocent person's life.  It actually does not make sense for me not to kill myself.  It just doesn't as all of you are non-sensible.  Not only that, but having a family that cannot explain the facts properly only makes it worse.  Just CARELESS.

I am not further ahead today than I was yesterday.  If was to commit suicide I have not addressed the issues that I do not want to leave behind for others.  If I am to keep the bureaucracy happy, I have not done what I assume they want.  I am to do what it right for my HEALTH, I have not done that either.

The only thing I have accomplished today is the continuance of some breathing space while taxing friendships of good people who donate their time and money to keeping me alive.  Something I would rather not in debt myself to, something I would rather receive if that money and time was actually going to something sensible.  Like reassembling my person and bring myself into self-sufficiency.  Fuck you fucking Communists.  That is exactly what you are.

You all take no accountability for my situation or my needs, but you sure want to hold me accountable for yours.  Held to account and destroyed for your purposes.  You murdered me and you want to hold me accountable for YOUR needs.  Unbelievable and I really do not like posts here like this on this website.  It's just meaningless clutter.  Everything about all of you people, every single one of you is about your needs, NOT SAVING MY LIFE or making any GOOD out of any of this.