It's just too difficult access the internet, it always is, but it seems even harder these days.  Anyways, I have no reason to not follow through with everything I have said.   I really do not, the State has willingly aided and abetted my siblings in their bid to coerce my elderly mother into taking my life.  Her circle of old cows are no different in their gossip of ignorance.  Neighbours, disappointing and my extended family has been abysmal.

I only wish I could leave the right words as this is not suicide, this is actual outright Murder.  If you lived through my shoes and seen my world from my view you would see this without a doubt.  People assume so much.  I have been denied the right to my life.  Murder fully endorsed by the State and fully excused by lies.  There has been zero interest in pursuing real crime with real outcomes.  There has only been an interest in the fabricated crime pertaining to a desired agenda.  One that does not involve the word Justice.

Many people involved have done so self-servingly, at my expense even.  What am I saying, it is all at my expense.  What has anyone else lost?   Even the Courts have left themselves with plausible deniability.  Oh wow, a Peace bond that only serves the interests of the Abusers and not the actual Victim.  Remember the Victim, you know the one that would become physically ill, nearly dropping dead, nearly committing suicide.  Who was that again?  Oh right me - the one Charged.  The one losing all his material assets required to gainfully earn income.

It really is too bad that I was unable to log and write in a capable manner going through all of this.  By the way, if I do end up walking into a car and ruining someone else's life.  Apparently this is just the way it goes.  If the police, mental health, judiciary, social services and family take no blame than neither shall I get.  You a driver / passenger of the car can just start over.  Just get over yourself.  Just pick up the pieces and move on.  That is what they should tell you, that is it no big deal a fully grown adult steps in front of your car as you motor along ruining your day.

Just get over it.   Think of all the Public Service hours it will create.   All those stable government employees getting more justification for their existence.  Perhaps they can even get an increase in public funding to their respective departments.  See it is beneficial for all - well all except you.