If I was able to keep organized throughout the duration of the last two years, if I was still intact and working from home, I would have kept a running list of interesting visitors to this site. I might have even tried to program some sort of server side script to aide myself in my various ideas as the who, what, why and when, not even ending there, but to try and ascertain the politics of it all as well.
I may not be very smart, but I am smart enough to theorize many agendas by various potential visitors. I am just barely smart enough for example to correlate things I see in my news feeds such as reports written to President Donald Trump on people who blog excetra. I do hope no matter my fate that the interests of freedom and the pursuit of knowledge are aided rather than hindered for all peoples no matter how I use or misuse this website.
Today I note several IP Addresses places that interest me. The ones that I will mention are returning what may or may not be any of the following:
- U.S. Citizenship and Immigration Services
- Department of Homeland Security
- US Appeals Court
- Washington State University Downtown
- Seattle Public Library - Central Library
None of the above scare me and I can even conjure up reasons for people involved with any of those entities as being legitimate website visitors. Of course, the IP Address hits could just as easily be none of those entities as well. Regardless, what I want to say is that I find it all very interesting, the domain names and the corresponding locations I am shown.
In nearly driving myself crazy in the past, keeping an eye on who visits, seeing things that are possibly only the results of things I want to see, I have learned to view the world much differently. I only wish I had the free time, stability, independence and resources that I had had for nearly twenty years in seeking ever changing hobbies to occupy my free time after work in the evenings.
From what I have experienced in the last few years I would love to have those opportunities back. Not that what see now is any different from ideas and desires I had had all those years, but I have the personal growth and the conviction, the personal security, of being comfortable about being open in transparency to the world and the follow through without shame.
I may be vague in this paragraph, but what I see seems so sensible, so simple, so practical, so real. Very fitting going along with my ever evolving interpretations of religion, the bible, christianity, life. The who and what we all are. Perhaps I do not make sense and perhaps many of my writings made in anger, depression, traumatization, exhaustion and nonsensical assumptions undo me, but there is so much I would love to write out.
I feel that if I ever get the chance, by the time it happens I will likely lose the reasons as to why along with the what of the things I would like to write. Anyways, this is a senseless ramble. Who ever visits, for whatever purposes, thank you. For some visitors I may out to lunch in saying that, but I feel it is all good no matter why people visit here. Even if they are just here by accident never to return.
I am always open to receiving an email: dberladyn@gmail.com