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Smoking
What a morning, another complete waste. A complete waste because I have to consume time, energy and health pondering how to quell this requirement to smoke. I am very lucky there is good people who do from to time supply me with a cigarette when I drop face and ask. Some people are far too good to me as I am not as liberal. I do not mind giving out cigarettes, but I have an internal built in counter. I like to keep it balanced.
I often find the same dynamic I noted as a Union Organizer at play. One that I should have written out years ago. I find Government Employees are among some the of stingiest people in this dynamic. Time and time again, I see people who earn their living on the Public Purse, either smoking alone or as per usual in small clusters. If I ask, they lie right to my face. Time and time again. They refuse to help their fellow man, as if he is beneath them.
Today, I even asked a couple of women if they knew what HeadsTogether was. I was certain they were government employees. I mentioned Prince William, then the Duchess Catherine. I explained HeadsTogether was a Charity of her idea. A Charity that I frequently parktake in commenting to on Facebook. I explained that I am trying to help the Government, help all of us by fighting them to make the System better. I politely explained that I really need a cigarette, I cannot even speak properly without one. Nope.
I almost decided to walk into the Bail Office and state that the Province of British Columbia is not meeting my Mental Health needs, I am not answering any questions and you can all [Blank][Blank]. Such a simple thing that 'Professional' 'Educated People' cannot seem to comprehend. I am biting tongue on the last long winded Rain City email I received some time ago... if I was him, I would email me stating hey Dan, I have some cigarettes, I can meet you here tonight/tomorrow etc. Then I'd have my meeting. So simple.
Anyways, lucky I ran into a friend who smokes almost as much as I do and he gave me a few loose tobacco cigarettes that did not fix my problem, but they did help ease it before walking in the Bail Office.
Community Lunch
I have not been around the Salvation Army very much, just enough to get meals and relieve the burden on my associates providing a couch. People inquire because they have not seen very much of me. I am a mystery. I find it best for myself not to share too much information but other people love to share their problems.
A guy sitting beside me starting telling me how he really had it out with the Salvation Army Staff. I was interested to hear what the issue was until I learned of the issue. A relatively capable and intelligent guy was basically taking issue with not being able to do drugs on the property. At this point, I had to tell him - I do not feel sorry for you.
I have basically been here trying to save my life and not only that, but potentially better things for everyone in regards to our system only to get pulled down by adolescent acting drug users. Not just pulled down, but literally buried in all the problems they bring the people around them with their choices in life. You all know the rules, I do not feel sorry for you. A which instantly became defined as an asshole and he walked away.
Maple Ridge Public Library
As per usual, the Library is frustrating. The WiFi Network is grossly under designed. Almost as if it is designed for bare minimums. Not only do I have to wait until 10:00am to find power and internet, if I am lucky enough to get connected to the internet I better not pack up and go outside, or to the restroom. It's ridiculous. If I had designed it, if I was the Network Administrator, I would have over engineered it. I would have built a System capable of 300 WiFi slots. Commercially everything is overpriced, but in the grande scheme of things this is such a cheap problem to fix. It is a Public Library. It should just work. It should also open at 8:00am when people need it. This is often a problem before and after the Bail Office. Not only that, but depending on what I am doing internet wise, I cannot do all from this location. I actually have to leave, connect somewhere else do my thing and then come back. The Network here is really not designed to be completely useful to a person like me.
Bail Office
It's taken too long to get to the keyboard. I have to admit, I sound better than I think I do when I am speaking. When I state that the room we are in is a little more friendly, I mean in reference to the fact that there is no shielding partition between us. We are almost in an office that could be considered comfortable and business like.
I was happy to given another polite male in replacement of Michael. So this is Chris. I was hesitant on asking his name. I am surprised that I actually did ask him. He seemed like such a nice guy. I did not want to bother his feelings by asking but I obviously did. Bother his feelings by having his name out here I mean, knowing that there's very little chance, perhaps next to none, that he does not know what I am doing with these conversations.
That pad of paper. It is like a brick of gold in my eyes. Imagine that, not even being able to buy paper. At home, with all of my supplies, all my expensive hardware, I could have easily have responded properly to the Courts. I could have responded with well organized, well documented, well written facts. With TRUTH. Yet, here is this System, manipulated to place me into a position where not only can I not meet my own Mental Health needs, I cannot even buy Paper, let alone defend myself.
0.36s Police Contact - This is such a degrading question which I suspect primarily is asked to throw a person a little off kilter. I do not like it, I find it insulting, degrading and likely even unnecessary. Aside from the psychological aspect, the only argument that I can field for it's justification is a failsafe if modern technologies were suddenly non-existent.
0.41s Residency - Same as the above I suppose. It is redundancy, but I understand. They know. I am neither here nor there. The only address that I truly have is the home that this System has been manipulated by various parties to deny me. Which is Murder. Especially, when overwhelmed with life destructing problems or near death. Murder.
0.55s Eligible for a Room Somewhere - Right. Unless I am mistaken, this is the Salvation Army, a Federally recognized Church that had failed to provide Sanctuary from the Communist, Socialist System of Moral and Legal Corruption as it had discriminated against my person in my true needs. This was the attempted tethering of one's mind in order to control, modulate and steer a person's conscience. A means to violate a person's Truth.
If the Truth will set you free and if the Truth requires an untethered mind, this is the System tethering my Freedom, my Independence, my Truth. This is the molestation of my person, a witness to his own defence. This is the continued Violation of my Charter of Rights and Freedoms. Everything that this System has been conducted to do, has been counter-intuitive to my actual true needs. Everything is running backwards.
1.36s Bail Conditions - I do not even want to hear those repeated as doing so only degrades my Mental Health. I am quiet in response, without cigarettes my mind is dull. I was searching for the word decline. I decline to comment as in Canada, a person has the right to not provide testimony against his own person.
2.00s You People - I have to laugh because ...
2.20s FraserHealth - There you go. You have had plenty of time.
If I had cigarettes, coffee and internet stability, I would write plenty more on what I should be writing about, that being he words expressed in the Bail Office. Chris was a very nice person, good pick.