Tonight, the simple act of someone I have never met sharing a message boosted my Spirits, my Faith in Humanity.  This is probably the most critical leg for me, running out of money three weeks before Court.  I do not partake in drugs at all and it is completely normal for me to go through a whole year without alcohol.

The one habit that I do have is a bad habit of smoking.  I do not function properly without.  No substitutions.  Especially, in this situation, they've kept me going.  Coffee and Cigarettes.  Primary health care needs for stability - if you can believe that.

Would you believe it was an older girl in Grade 9 who I started smoking with?  I never thought I would smoke beforehand.  I also never thought I would ask for donations towards them.  It almost seems the System is set up for this.  That we should have no addictions of dependency, no weaknesses to be exploited, making or breaking a person.

In Canada, there is such a thing as an email bank transfer.  It wouldn't take much to see me through.  I've reduced myself to this as I know my mental processes will suffer greatly once I smoke these last cigarettes.  This is kind of pathetic of me isn't it?  I would just rather post it now before my phone cuts out at midnight.

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Everyone knows Mike Rowe.

I don't know.