I nominated myself past the deadline, which surprisingly was today.  As usual for me, a day late and a dollar short.  I probably should have worded my submission much better, just as I most likely should have worded much of this site much better.  Anyways, I am posting this for a personal bookmark and to help share the work of this Organization.  I was only kidding about the nomination, I would not accept it.  I see people on Facebook doing far more than I've ever accomplished.  If you believe in Freedom of Expression, which I am sure you do, you might want to take a look at this organization.

https://www.eff.org/about I should have given this some thought before my submission.  It's just my state today.  Lots of thoughts, lots of self-distractions.

This is rather self-serving of me is it not? I do not want honour, I just want real help before I end up killing myself, but in saying that, I wouldn't really be killing myself, I would just be succumbing to the position the 'system' put me in after I had asked for 'help'. All I have wanted to do in the last two years is hide in complete secrecy where I can conduct myself completely untethered and uninfluenced. This to write out my history in very high completely factual detail to the best of my ability and fix my problems through such while allowing the system to study the faults in the policing / mental health / judicial fields. To me, the answers are so simple to implement and the effects as I see them would change the world. You have to know how to look after the little problems, before you can handle the big ones. Or perhaps as Einstein put it - those who cannot be trusted in small affairs, cannot be trusted to the large ones. Or something to that effect, I am tired and run down. I noticed a web hit from Arpa today it led me here. I do not actually want an award, I just want to be in the company of like minded individuals or something to that effect. I apologize for much of the writing on the site, it is very hard to maintain clear thinking when you are continually losing what you need to survive, losing the most important things to you, losing your own thoughts due to external distraction. My aims have been so simple, yet so difficult. At least for me. In the very least, thank you for the read - there is other pages that may be better. The particular page I am submitting was written in haste.