From: Dan Berladyn <dberladyn@gmail.com>
Sent: March 3, 2018 8:25 PM
To: 'Mark DeWitt' <*******@coastmentalhealth.com>
Subject: RE: From Alouette HP ScannerHi,Yes, Graham is a good nurse in my opinion too, however he was and is of no help – Mental Health wise. I was in such terrible Mental shape, Social Services themselves told me to apply for a PWD and booted the young bitch from downtown off of my file. I heard three months for an approval for such a claim, if Graham could have filled that out, at worst I’d be collecting those benefits beginning now. At best, I would not have been expecting to commit suicide within the next 24 hours for weeks at a time, several times since. Not that I care to share too much, but it’s funny.. really screwed up things, like a guy smoking Fentanyl under my bed, or being badgered, threatened and assaulted, or catching the flu, made me too sick and drained of energy to follow through on such plans.
So in reality, you have no ‘mental health’ doctor for me. Not that I 100% need a doctor for my personal health, but the Bureaucracy and Courts need one, so that I can the help I need..
Not that it is important, but I am giving you an updated file. I could probably go over that initial file a 100 times finding things to write better, but there are a few mistakes that bother me. Somehow I wrote that drinking alcohol is a requirement, I also wrote that I lived in a boarding house for a month getting abused, I practically do not drink and it was really seven months that I lived in that house. Small details that are perhaps irrelevant to you, but it bothers me as that went to the Bail Office and who knows who else. I do note someone in the immediate vicinity of the BC Legislature visiting my site, today I noted them again. Stuff for me to know and be concerned about, I suppose no sense in sending you the updated file, but I will anyways because someone else wanted it as well.
I learned something today, one important roadblock of many has been lifted. I am permitted to do something that I am not suppose to be able to do for at least two more months yet. I’d rather not share the details, but that new information changes a lot of dynamics. As it is, I am still trying to process your abilities and what they bring. It is almost painful to concentrate and try to make decisions due to health I cannot describe, I have been through too much stress, but it’s slow going as each time I try to explore the options or process thoughts, my peace is invaded by the people in this shelter. Most of these people have no sense of “Keeping their shit in their own pants”. I used that analogy for the first time today and it seems to fit a lot of the characters. Some of them, quite literally!
Anyways, the form doesn’t look so bad with the exception of privacy. I wanted a life in privacy without sharing personal information with people who collect such and now look at me…You did not say when you would be available to meet, I probably should have wrote at your earliest convenience as that is actually what I thinking. Should I expect Tuesday, or…. a heads up will ensure I do not take off somewhere, like the Bail Office.
Dan
None of this really matters, but for as much as I had written, I wasn't having an easy time typing from upstairs in that Shelter. I should have expressed myself much more assertively regarding Tuesday. I remember being hesitant in signing off with those words. Within a day of sending this I was disappointed that I never heard back from him until he just appeared out of the blue when I least wanted to see him on Thursday, without the paperwork to sign that these emails were all about. Exactly how I predicted him to be the day I met him.