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2018-05-05 Update
I wish I could write the right words here. I almost want to apologize to Gloucester, because for him this isn't good 'professionally'. For myself, only I know just how much all of these interactions with 'Mental Health' / 'Social Workers' / etc., have truly cost me.
In this instance alone, it is now Saturday. My mind was on the meeting with my lawyer and the courtroom when this bullshit happened on Thursday. All of those thoughts, processes and aims I had intended on following through that day in regards to my lawyer and the courtroom are gone. I will not get them back. This is continuous.
You would never understand what I mean by continuous until you are living on a days wages spread over an entire month, in a low barrier shelter with drug addicts and petty criminals, while you have no credit, no finances, no ability to work, especially without jeopardizing your situation, continuously broken sleep, and on and on and on...
Do you know what the best part about all of this? Every time you try to pull yourself together and take a few steps, people come out of the woodwork under the pretense of helping you. You trip at them trying to involve themselves controlling your legs, your steps and your direction. Then, the best part. They blame you for not wanting help in controlling your own legs. Perhaps Gloucester hasn't blamed me yet, but others have.
They should not call it 'Mental Health' - they should call it something else. An appointment in June, I am concerned your just going to fuck me up before court. Everything needed is available on this website. Nothing has changed in two plus years as far as my needs go. Absolutely Nothing.
Actually, the thing that has changed is that everything has become much worse. Including the chance at actually, successfully fully recovering. My needs have not changed Gloucester. When I listen to your words stepping into that office you said things have changed, no they haven't. My health needs are unchanged. Worse, but unchanged.
You must be talking about the 'System' or your needs because mine are unchanged.
Bunch of Fucking Communist Criminals.
Amy (Salvation Army) approaches me and asks to speak to me alone. Sure, no problem. We step into her Office and there is Gloucester from Maple Ridge 'Mental Health'. This obviously is not about my stay at the 'Emergency Homeless Shelter' as I expected.
I decide to be open about recording for their benefit. A good natured deed at my own expense and at my expense it came, believe me. I inform them as my mind is adding one plus one from past conversations. Seeing that I had legally REVOKED the Administrative Staff's permission to share information and communicate about my Person with these other parties this exact scenario should not be happening.
Gloucester is holding two pieces of paper in his hand. He appears to have a personal seriousness to his own agenda here, his own personal involvement. He opens the conversation stating that my "Bail Officer" Denise (who has self proclaimed that she is not my main Bail Officer), has forwarded him a referral with Court Orders attached, he then moves on to explain that they have gone ahead and booked an appointment for early June. Just yesterday Gloucester walked by me unable to make eye contact.
Having this suddenly dropped in my lap by force brings a whole host of thoughts that I cannot recapture in full. I ask to see what he has, he doesn't pass me the appointment slip, he passes me the fax referral form which appears identical to the one Denise had began filling out months back. I didn't care at this point time, but I realize in typing this now, reasons as to why that paper was so important to him.
As I am holding the paper personally concluding my own convictions, I mention to Amy the fact that I have legally revoked her Authority to speak these people about my person. To this Amy replies that that is why she has brought me into her office for 'privacy'. A comment that is a nonsensical. Everyday they speak of clients 'privacy' and how they do not disclose information to anyone not staying there. As an example they often state that people staying here may not want to be contacted by outsiders.
Now, here she is bringing me into her office to be caught off guard, unprepared, for someone else's benefit whom I intentionally legally revoked for good reason. She has already breached her legal permissions just by bringing me into her office under false pretenses to speak to this so called 'Psychiatric Nurse'. Doing so on his terms, not mine (caught off guard). Just like everyone else... it is not about me, it is about them - the so called "health" workers.
To Gloucester, a man who claims he has done very well in fulfilling his own lot in life, a man who claims he's come back from retirement for his own enjoyment of helping people... To Gloucester, a "Psychiatric Nurse" who another person complained took $235 in cash off of his person during 'treatment' and didn't give it back upon release as promised... To Gloucester, a man who I feel is breaking his own word to me by partaking in an attempt to 'force' fraudulent medical practices upon my person...
To Gloucester who I never had the opportunity to write words to his recording here on this site... To Gloucester who completely ignored what I told him I had needed replacing my stated needs with a version all of his own making... To Gloucester, who has now just partook in polarizing my stance against giving these people another chance...
To him, I had said "I've already gone through all of this with you people" - as I am thinking to myself that these are not doctors, these are not healthcare workers, these are Communists whether they all realize it or not. At least thoughts to this effect thinking of all the bullshit I have seen so far. I went on to state how I was lied to. I went on to state how I was told that my meeting with you, a FraserHealth Employee, in a FraserHealth Office, in an appointment where the root of origin was the Bail Office itself, was not a 'real meeting'.
At this point Gloucester demands his piece of paper back which was much to my surprise as I was still reading it. With his tone, I took more interest in scanning the words written. Looking to it, Gloucester became very aggressive demanding the paper back to the point he physically and forcibly grabbed my left forearm, the arm holding the paper, trying to forcibly grab it from my hands. In response, I crumpled the paper in my hand, exclaiming in disbelief that you are ASSAULTING me. This then prompted Gloucester to demand even more aggressively that I give him his piece of paper back as he struggles to wrestle my arm and grab the paper.
It actually lasted for more than a moment as I again repeated my words, "you are assaulting me" looking at Amy. I was in disbelief that I am being physically assaulted by a psychiatric nurse. Gloucester began using two hands on my person trying to physically force me to let go of the paper. The paper which formerly had no value to my person. Not believing that he wants the paper that bad, I let go and the 'Person of Paper' (as I like to call these FRAUDS) happily uncrumpled and inspected his retrieved prize. Sorry, Gloucester but it's true... what I stated next.
I stood up, looked at them both and stated you are all fucking Communist Criminals. The whole lot of you. You are all fucking Criminals.
I haven't even began to write my thoughts on my stay and the intertwined coercion on the Salvation Army's part. You people are NOT a Church. Connie is not a Pastor and the idiot upstairs running the Genesis Program... is not a Christian. You have all veered sideways from Truth whether you realize it or not. You are not with God, you blindly are with whatever hand feeds you. Amy, I do apologize because I like you.
As for Gloucester, here is a Psychiatric Nurse Physically Assaulting my Person over a Piece of Paper in which I never had an inkling from withholding from him. I never had a care of other than to see what was written. If I did care and if I was on the ball, not taken by surprise in everyone else's favour but mine, I would have taken a picture. This is not about my health and I am definitely not the one who needs 'Assessing'. You assholes are.
I was with a Member of Parliament last night. I was actually very impressed with his own forthright statements regarding our Justice System and National/Global Politics. With the mention of him aside, you people should really be ashamed of yourselves. You are Communists, you have lost all comprehension of 'Standing of Guard for Thee'. You already have all you need medically. I have stated it over and over. The longer you deny me, the greater the injustice.
You are all Fucking Criminals. The whole lot of you. Most of my words were directed at Mental Health and I was even thinking of Denise at the Bail Office in stating that, but I am also directing those words to the Salvation Army because... as a Federally designated Church, if you understood the same picture that I do, you should have given me reprieve from what is nothing more than Godless Communism. Instead, you tried to coerce and drive me right into it - including your 'Pastor'.
All of you know my needs. All of you know who my Primary Doctor is and you can all go fuck yourselves. The ONLY people that you help - is yourselves. Please go justify your jobs on a bunch drug addicted junkies who will likely never take the step to improve their own lives. There is absolutely NO BENEFIT that you bring my Person. In fact, the ONLY thing you do is bring me HARM by hindering my ability to express Truth and fill my own needs. Mental Health, there is NOTHING to discuss with you.
You Corrupt TRUTH.
You falsify reports.
You misguide.
You distract.
You Serve Yourselves.
You even just Physically ASSAULTED me over a Piece of Paper.
Thanks for what amounts to adding to more bullshit onto my week. Giving me more shit to write out. More distraction from writing out other things. More distraction from processing thoughts to all these matters. More shit to walk through. You are fucking pieces of shit. That includes you in the Bail Office Denise and whomever might have directed you. It is as clear as day you only care about yourselves - not the bigger picture. You do not care about Justice. You do not care about Truth. You do not care about my Mental Health.
I have stated EVERYTHING needed to help me. I have stated EVERYTHING needed for the Courts to help me. Go seek your help in justifying your incomes somewhere else, preferably at your own EXPENSE. You people are a drain on the Nation, not a boost.
I guestimated a very long time ago that the 'System' must have spent $300K plus on these affairs involving me. A bunch of hours for a bunch of assholes who have literally accomplished NOTHING. You have ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING aside from destroying my life and masking the Truth. By now, if I use those same figures it must be over a $500K. Police time, Hospital time, Social Worker time, Mental Health Facilities, Incarcerations, and on and on and on...
What do you assholes have to show for it?
Driving someone into suicide? Bravo.
Excuses are for LOSERS.