Facebook is interesting.  I try to study the behaviour of the algorithms.  I noticed come across my 'People you May Know' list a few days prior.  Around 6:00 pm this night, I noted a Friend Request come from Colin under my notifications.  I assumed that this was a genuine attempt at caring, or perhaps he thought we could be allies, or perhaps Lisa wanted him to pass me a message.  I didn't know and it just gave more problems to think about, distracting me from current problems.

I was not feeling well, laying down in the dorm trying to process thoughts in a noisy, highly distracting environment.  The pain in my chest doubled after Colin tried that, stress.  An hour later I took this screenshot, but the Notification showed that he must have cancelled the request.  My lack of response was not meant to hurt you at all Colin.   It was for my own health.  I wondered if you had something to say, that maybe you should just say it.

 

November, 2008

When you guys first came to the house during all of your troubles, I did the only thing I could do.  Lisa phoned me before you two drove down and said that I will not be happy.  I knew what that meant, I knew it was coming and I knew it would destroy my life a long time prior to the call.  When you two arrived, the first thing my sister did was be sure to come straight downstairs and talk to me.

Do you know what I told her?  You do.  I told her that I had no problem with her coming home in dire need.  That doesn't mean I liked it, but anything else would be immoral. That would have been true even if I was the exclusive title holder of that property, I wouldn't deny any of them in dire need.  There was only two things I had stated that were must be's if anything was to actually work.

1.)  The two of you had to treat the house as if it was both mom's and mine. 2.)  If there was any problem with you, you had to go.

Lisa agreed.   It was the only way it would ever work.   I had already been through too much.   I had already invested too much.   It lasted one day.   I am sure Jim was behind that, as always.   Do you remember how you behaved there?

I would never walk into someone's family home, someone's childhood home, and start dictating to them about their financial arrangement with their own parent, tell them where to go in their own home, tell them what their 'rights' were, etc.   The only reason that house was there for the two of you to come to, for the two of you to try and take over - was because of me.