There's not going to be a last letter.

I AM GOING TO WALK IN FRONT OF A CAR AND KILL MYSELF

The above was the main point of a 'last letter' forming within me for the last two months.  The only reason I have not written the words is due to the very situation that I am in.  I am not depressed, but I have been constantly at the whim of my environment, unable to focus and unable to draw the energy required to concentrate.  This is the only reason I have not written what I intended.  It has been one of the last things holding me up from following through with the same logical decision.  Now, too much time has passed and I have lost the sincerity of my own words.

Unlike my former thoughts in the past, this act has not felt selfish at all.  Do you know why?  Intentional Corruption.  This whole 'System' and the people who 'Serve' it are corrupt.  Rather than solve problems, they create them.  Corruption breeds corruption.  So for me, being intentionally murdered why should I care to leave this world quietly?  No wonder why the PMPD had someone come at them with a knife years back.  The Port Moody Police are self-serving, corrupt, and inept.  Mental Health facilities and their Staff, they are just the same.  The Courts and the System itself is a complete joke.  Corrections, is anything but.

Just a bunch of Godless bums justifying their existence.

As for what I am going to do, I never know what I am going to do until the time actually comes.  One of my ideas was to get the RCMP to check me into the hospital as a last ditch effort.  What's really going to come of that though?  Is a hospital, with their Psychiatrist's really going to do the right thing?  Which to me, is demanding I be placed back in my home, my cousin returning all of my property and having my siblings restrained in order to give me peace and stability while I untangle all the Lies and (mis)Truths.  Common Sense.  Something that should have happened in the first place - two years ago.

But it's all a Fraud.  It's just a Dog and Pony Show.

The problem in that house was my siblings.  My oldest brother Jim desperately wanting me discarded and used so that he could feel better about himself.  My next brother Mike, he's just a follower seeking unjust enrichment.  Both abdicated the 'position', both abandoned ship, both were unwilling to help their parents, yet both seeked to hold down and take from the one who did.  And did I did.  No one else could have lived like that and no one else would have worked for it, including my sister.  She wiped out her life, taking from me and wiping my life makes her feel better.  It will not in the long run though.

Then there is my mother.  That relationship was salvageable, I just needed my siblings held at bay.   So simple.   The whole reason my mother and I didn't talk for two years was the initial major near suicide that I had to recover from.  I couldn't talk to anyone.  Then coming out of that, witnessing her in my siblings full control, there was nothing I could do.   Now...  enter PMPD MHL Jenn OHASHI, some hero.  Too stupid to understand she was being played.  She even stated that she didn't care about me being driven into suicide at the time.

Round two.  My elderly mother is still being controlled, those were not cakes in the oven, those were phone calls to my sister for instruction on what to do.  I am doing the only thing I can do to safeguard whatever is left of my life, while I try to check myself into the hospital so that I can avoid killing myself and here enters Jenn OHASHI again.  My mother does not want me charged, she does not want my life impeded and what does Jenn OHASHI do?  Like a Communist Criminal she Charges me, impeding my life and leaving me no other option.

 

RCMP & Red Serge

Something else I wished to expressed in this last letter was the idea that the RCMP should go to my home.  They should use a tall handsome Member in Red Serge and he should approach my mother and say "Ma'am...  I need to talk to you about your Son...".  This makes far more sense than the Communist Bureaucracy (mis)using the 'Rule of Law' to favour Criminals, where the similar will be done after I am dead anyways.

Of course, the RCMP have turned half Communist themslves which will only get worse with Unionization.  So where does this leave me?  Every option is just more of the same.

    The Lieutenant Governor of British Columbia

I don't think I am going to walk in front a car and ruin someone's day, but I was very close to doing such the day she wrote back, very close several days since.  When her email came in, I actually had a tear rolling down my cheek as I  fought with the idea of entering the Bail Office just to be unjustly tortured and held down some more.  Which is all that turned out to be.  Just another means of Victimizing a Victim.

The Courts are not set up for what they need to hear (Truth). The Truth needs an untethered mind.   Meaning,  a person like me needs peace and stability.  I need to settle and I could write it out in detail.  In two years, believe or not this has been impossible.  They destroyed my life, completely destabilizing me,  then expected me to defend myself.   Criminal.

I do not think I'm going to the Bail Office.  I don't think I'm going to the Hospital.  I do not think I am going to Jail.  I know I'm not bowing down to a Criminal City Police Department who happily disposes of Life Long Residents, hides evidence and supports criminals and unfortunately her Majesty QEII is unlikely to telephone my mother,  from one Queen to another.

So that only leaves one option.

No matter what any reader's opinion is here, they've taken my life.  The System is just as guilty as my family.  You're all Criminals.