Please tell my mother that when she has bouts of reality and she starts worrying about me,  that she should just phone rather than play these games asking others if they had heard from me, or if they knew of my where abouts.   She knows my number has never changed, she knows my email has never changed,  and she should probably know at the time that she has those feelings of alarm,  they are real.

The day will come when I am no longer here and those moments of worry, will turn into moments of guilt.  To all her friends who misguide(d) her and consequently were misguide(d)  by her in gossip,  you are/were clueless towards the reality of the overall situation.  The most sane thing that I could do would be to commit suicide by walking into some poor innocent smucks car.   Is a mother's false sense of pride worth the life of her son?

'Dr.'  Owen James said you could not admit it because it didn't make you 'feel' good.   Of course that is not your only problem,  your scared of the other kids,  not me.   Funny how it works, you defend the ones who abandoned you and discard the one who actually supported you.

In the end,  do you know where the fault lays?   In this Corrupt System and all the useful idiots who eek their livelihoods from it.   Worthless bums.  In a sane world,  people would do what was right over what was  erroneously written on pieces of paper.