I better take care of this now the best I can.  If I am hospitalized, which may be forced upon my person, I am better off to have this written.  Regardless of the state that I come in, the following is what I need:

• The ability to smoke so I keep even keeled, save your bullshit substitutions for someone that they will work on.  They do not work on me.
• A voluntary light dosage of an anti-psychotic to catch up on rest, that is if I feel it will benefit me.  It will likely help me get some much needed rest, but it'll leave me sluggish for any following conversation the next day. As for sleeping pills, as always they are addictive and I will not take them.
• The least verbal interaction with Staff as possible, ideally I would go to straight to a Psychiatrist like Dr. Brian Scarth.  From here, he could read this site and consequently provide the paper bureaucracy with a Doctor's Order that I am to go home and avoid stress.  Stress such as the Bail Office, the Social Services Office, any and all types of Bureaucracy.  A Doctor's Order ordering me to the only place that will save my life, home.
• A Social Worker to fill out this booklet of forms, without actually talking to me and causing me even more internal stirring and emotional stress.

If you do not grant me the above everyone involved in this for the last two years murdered me from your own failings.  Not only that, but you all let injustice prevail.  My oldest brother plotted this for years, with the other one following along for the ride.  My little sister upon marrying the wrong guy and wiping out her own life and decided to join them for her own gain.  You do not have to understand any of this, but their testimonies are completely twisted versions of reality and outright lies.

I was never even given a chance to counter them.  The only way to do that is from home.  Which is exactly what you all took away from me, along with my mother who was being manipulated for a long time and now you have forced a hard polarization.   You have all already MURDERED me.  I am only waiting to write a few things out before I up and walk into a car, killing myself.  You people cannot 'fix' this unless you provide what I need.

Otherwise, what are you going to do?  Incarcerate an innocent person the rest of his life?  For what?  Your failures?  What are you going to do drug an innocent person and let his life waste away?