I wasn't surprised to see a car slowly cruising through the parking lot earlier this morning.  Looking outside, perhaps 20 minutes ago, again seeing a car sitting there in a healthy line of sight, that didn't surprise me either.  It is tough to remain private when I said so much in a post, combined with the fact that a friend knows my location.  Friends say too much to others without really understanding the premise behind loose lips sinking ships.  The smallest variable can negatively change my future and it actually hurts me inside.

For me, I guess it doesn't matter at this point - the moment I had to accept dependency on someone and have them influence decisions I was @$#%'ed.  That is the quickest way to throw a cart in front of a horse in a complicated situation.  You accept someone's help and then they start making decisions for you, without understanding the consequences.  I knew to press for the suite the other night, he was tired and wanted to this.

Anyways, I know those cars visit here, but I am going to assume the visit was for positive identification.  Hard data.  I am told that your cars are normally only here once every few days.  For all I know, you've been here all morning.  Anyhow just do me favour please, no more surprise visits.  I guess you cannot text like the RCMP has politely done beforehand in the past.

Oh well.  I might be wrong, but I think I am too cluster-@#$%'ed now anyways.  This capital being spent that is not mine, being spent to get me on my feet, it's literally been wasted because it needed to be spent very carefully on one of the places I viewed since release if I was to do what my friend wanted.  When you are this far down, every bit of efficiency counts.  Trying explaining that to the Court Offices who seem to think it's not a big deal to come there routinely and...

Ridiculous.  No one has a vested interest in my life but me.