I know, one begets another but...  from my shoes, I have already been asking if I haven't been wrong for not already heading down to the Department and doing what really no one, including me, wants me to do.  I die somewhere else, I will feel cheated. You have Murdered me and in an emergency bid to save my Life (again), after being Victimized by a Crack Addict and her Friend, you dump a bunch more Corrupt Bullshit on me.

Absolvement of Personal Responsibility.  Personal Responsibility, have any of you figured that one out yet?

By the way, what I wrote on Facebook above is true.   You know, I know I shouldn't...  but, seriously, do you?  You help a Family kill one of their own.  Cause and Effect.  A part of me has swung back and forth to being pissed off, to being stupid and thinking you are "helping" me.  I don't see how you are helping me by forcing a polarization in a Courtroom between my mother and I.  I really do not. Who does that over this type of issue? Especially, without providing me an equivalent stability to gather facts, organize and coagulate them for use...  but wait, that serves your purpose doesn't it?

I do want to thank Dipoala for the invite to talk freely, but at the time there was only so much emotion and energy to work with making sure my tools and property were not stolen, let alone relax enough to ensure within myself that I was making the right decision.  Ok, so I had maybe ten days to track Dipoala down and talk to him?  It wasn't possible.  I ran out of cash, I had to track that down before I could follow through with my own plans, the dynamics in the house I was at were collapsing, then the Woman attacking the one tenant, then later the one tenant attacking me, then dismantling my living space, packing up...

So yeah, I am not happy with the words above but you know what?  I am not happy to be in Court over your actions either, nor am I am I happy to have my life destroyed.  Talk about kicking someone when they are down.  Oh and the Tactical Team?  Really?

I read my PSR this morning, it pretty much states that I am harmless.

I knew you would delete it.  This is low traffic site, but it is read world-wide.  Go ahead delete it again, I won't put it back.  I don't even feel good about posting it, but in some ways I am glad I did.  In the slim chance, that this is all part of a plot right the wrongs... nah... the Judge already let enough slip out.  I can never look Police Officers the same because of you people.