Last night, April 20^th,

I come home happy, I was actually happy for the first time a very long time.  I put in a good day’s work on the type of work I used to do weekly, I have some seized tools fixed, I can find myself feeling a bit of a groove, as I work I can think and sort my problems.   I came home a bit late, I wanted to get moving forwards on a few things I’ve been continually held up on.  Things I need a clear mind for.  Next thing I know I get a text from the woman here I have nicknamed the “crazy lady”.  The other one is nice, this one has days were she’s just nuts.  She wants to know if I read the note she placed on my door.  I go grab the note and give it a read…

“Seeing that you now have money, I want money for blah blah blah blah..” – the note goes on to say.  This woman, I think she lives on welfare, she’s always trying to extort money out of me.  She wanted me to pay her for cleaning up the mess in the garage left by herself and the last tenants.  Even though there is always someone’s clothes in the washing machine/dryer, she barks at me about my laundry before the loads are even finished, often even violating my property by folding my clothes and bleaching my clothing items…  she’s keeps looking for a way to charge money.  When I moved in she went through all my things, she likely still does that as I have been too cheap, too broke, too focused elsewhere to buy a new lock for my door.  It’s just on and on, all the time – continually changing household rules and causing disturbances.

Last night she wanted money for cleaning the house.  I only use my bedroom that I pay for, the bathroom (which I clean) and laundry.  She wants to charge money for yard work and all kinds of things, which was never my deal and I have to process the right and wrong in this.  She cleaned the floors, I do not know what she did, but they were so slippery I almost fell twice, the third time that I slipped last night I actually fell.  Even time she tries to charge me money I just bring up things like my truck tire, I ask her if she’s going to pay the $200+ to have it fixed.  She’s the one that swept someone else’s nails where I park.  The other day, I spent $200 because she lost the key for the garage and I needed my tools.  I knew this was going to happen, so to make sure it never happens again, I bought an electronic lock so that everyone could just have pin codes and no one could lose a key, which means that I do not lose a days or a weeks wages (I need unobstructed access to my tools).

Anyways, even when I get myself stable, everything is chaotic around me.  It’s non-stop.  This might seem like minor things to some of you, but these are things that cripple me.  I cannot be driven and focused on a job, or perhaps a civil suit – seeing that no one has helped me recover my own property.  I wanted to begin looking into and filing a civil suit against my cousin a month ago or a little more.  As soon as I set my mind to that, moving forwards on it, the resident pothead here kept making issues because people making noise in the house means he cannot keep sleeping at 9:00AM.  The solution to that?  The women in the house wanted me to pack up all my things, desk to work from and all, and move into a basement bedroom.  Then, before I was allowed to do that, I had to wait for her to clean the room out.  All this time wasted only to have them change their minds again in four days time.  By then, I have had to move on to different issues in my life.

This is all too long for you all I suppose, but I find it very crippling.  It’s all non-stop petty items that actually hold a person down.  I’ve looked from time to time to rent elsewhere and that is a whole other ballgame too.

This morning I had planned on working before attending Probation and then heading back after.  I had to go out and leave the house after the texting drama last night, I am tired this morning.  I figure my first stop may as well just be Probation.  I hope that that decision doesn’t put me behind a day at work.  Work can make me happy, it’s often therapeutic itself, but if I lose momentum that falls apart very quickly.