God Bless the Queen.  I'm happy to post this picture here, she looks great. There is a video under this text, linked through Facebook, it might appear for you, it might not. https://www.facebook.com/royalcollectiontrust/videos/802078533285033/ https://www.facebook.com/HeadsTogetherCampaign/posts/449423938775703?comment_id=449718395412924

 I wish I knew how to respond effectively.

I was ‘taught’ the harsh realities of Life and how to think, react, process and interact with this world (Society) by someone who put a great deal of energy into living through me vicariously 20 years ago. A second Father so to speak. A Mentor. Through my own Nature and my own Will, I took this further, opening myself to exploring the Natural World of Life and ‘Personal Faith’, doing so on my own without ‘external’ corruption.

I suppose this sounds… a little off the wall, but I for a time I was very connected and very in tune with the World around me. I understood how to truly ‘Listen’. My answers would always arrive in the exact moment I needed them. I feel this is something people must experience for themselves to understand. It is not illness, I wasn’t sick, I was simply living ‘the Way’. People noticed as I would often find they would be drawn into me, tasking me further. As it was pointed out, as it was put forth in a question by the only person who truly knew me internally, ‘it is very lonely at the top’.

I chose to step away from that path for many reasons. I do not actually mean to share it here, but years later I found myself in the company of a ‘doctor’, one who was trying to tell me what I experienced was an illness that needed to be fixed with medication. The same for my natural feelings of elation at points when I deeply connected with members of the opposite sex in mutual feelings of love so strong they lit up class rooms. That was ‘illness’ that needed treatment with medication and paid visits (a fraud).

Living Healthy and CALM. A Campaign Against Living Miserably. One of the key points to the above, was health - both physical and mental. Eating right, exercising (I used to actually run) and making good choices. Another very important key, perhaps even more important than what has been mentioned is ‘internal integrity’. It takes effort, great care and continual work to ensure your personal vessel stays true and void of any corruption. I did so by following a set of rules, immediately checking and discarding selfish desires as they spawned within me. It is not easy, but once mastered… it is very rewarding.

I am no where near that anymore and I have not been for a very long time. However, some things never change. The World is Corrupt and through that Corruption, innocent good lives are taken through deception and lies. These lies are then masked through the Masquerade that is Mental Health and Industry of such. I do need not to learn how to live healthy as a first step, I need what was unjustly taken from me, my independence, my finances, my means to earn a living and my home. The rest will follow. Incidentally, I also need all the Personal Property that was stolen from me returned.

Common Sense Right? However, there is no System that operates on such principles. Everyone is a bureaucrat shuffling people down the line, filling useless appointment slots, simply earning their cheque to steer someone in the wrong direction, offering excuses while the subject drowns in a situation leaving them worse off. I can only conclude that this is INTENTIONAL.

I have not written as much as I wanted to, nor have I written much in the manner I intended to, but I did write enough to the right places where my words should have been heard, listened to and digested. I even include HRH Prince William and HeadsTogether in some of those writings, asking that if the person receiving my words is not able to fulfill the request, to pass the words up the ladder to their Superior. Nothing.

For me it is pretty simple. I trust no one, I do not want to verbally explain myself over and over and over, to deaf ineffective ears. I want to do it once. Let us do all of this in the open. Stabilize me, stabilize my means to keep a suitable roof over my head and help me fix myself starting at the beginning going through it all one step at a time. I documented as much as much as I could and I have the most of my records, except for what has now been stolen from me.

Help me help myself, like the System should have done from the start while I help the System help itself, but clearly displaying all the faults and corruptions that it brought not only into my situation, but Society itself. Wide Open in front of the World. Let’s go through it all step by step, fixing not only my situation, but the problems within the System. The Answers are not as difficult as people may think. Truth, that is all anyone needs.

It’s been over a year and now since I have been forced to be lucky to live with two scheming women, they have likely finally dealt the last blow to me. I’ve watched them do it to others, I watched them try with me… and I was just about arrested just over a week ago for attempting to save my most valuable possessions and my means of living by dropping them off and storing them at home. I am beyond repair because I can no longer retain independence, support myself, keep a roof over my head, etc.

My work needs and my personal needs are much different than people assume. I make an Honest Living with my hands. I cannot operate without a stable, secure home base with certain attributes. It is simply not feasible no matter how advice people think they are offering me.

So as it stands, for the last week… I am stalled recovering emotionally from this upset on making my next move, using the last bit of fuel I have to park my livelihood and possessions at home (risking arrest by corrupt police), checking myself into the hospital to be not helped there, to being homeless, to walking in front of car at the City Police Department, in order to make a Statement.

• They are Corrupt. • The Mental Health Services are Corrupt. • The Courts were Corrupt.

People think the problem is Mental Health and needing help. Not at all, it is about Integrity and Truth. No one seems to have it.

( This is longer than I wished, I was planning on writing somewhere else today but… anyways, I just wish I had the focus to hit the nail on the head in closing. I don't. Thank you for the response. )

I did not actually intend to post on his page, just in the moment, it's fit.  I do not even want to store it here, I was going to hide it for my own reference, but if it is buried here on page three...

For the last few days I've been trying to write out thoughts that I've wanted to write and format into a letter for quite sometime.  I just do not seem to have the peace stability when the words return to me.  If this is all I can do at the moment, then it is all I can do.

Oh, for the record... it was planned to lock me in the hospital against my will for 30 days, I was out in 7.  After that, I was locked in twice against my Will for 48 hours, maximum legal duration which...  did great damage at critical turning points in my Life.

October 18th, 2017

I wish I could freeze time, park myself and write to this website, or even better... if I could have done so while I was incarcerated into a Jail by Court Order for 30 days on the grounds of a "Psychiatric Evaluation", one which to quote the Crown Prosecutor today was "useless".

30 days to sit in a Jail cell with Petty Criminals.  I could have wrote everything the Judge wanted to know during that time.  I could have wrote it here and the Psychiatrist could have read it, even gone through it all with me. I would have even let him post here, publicly for the whole WORLD.  Instead, in the 30 days that I was incarcerated in a Jail, during the the third week I was told I had a visitor, upon entering a 4x4 foot visitors room, I suddenly found myself sitting across from a Psychiatrist and I reluctantly spoke to him through dividing glass.

One of the things he cautioned me was that anything I said could be public.  Yeah, well...  did he read this site?  I felt he must have because he immediately tried to overcome my hesitations by demanding to know my "qualifications" while assuring me he was "trained".  Trained by whom I thought, God?  I should have said it.

Sorry, but that is not...  conducive to anything TRUE at all.  If anything, it is a means, intentional or not, to Corrupt a Truth and thus Corrupt the Justice System.  The Judge naturally is insulated of responsibility because s/he has a paper trail covering his/her rear.  Next time, incarcerate me with my laptop please. All that this System has done is leave me in a worse position.  30 days LOST for no reason at all, unless that was the whole point.

The "Nice" guy in me feels bad for calling the Psyche Nurse terrible, but that's what happens when all of my writing is plagued with instability. Like instability from being awake all night, unable to charge devices, homeless, etc.  If anyone has any control over me, please help me help myself and help the 'System' find it's Integrity at the same time.  If you are going to take my life unjustly, at least take it for a cause I can believe in.

TRUTH - That is not too much to ask for.