Wanting to know what is happening...
Hearing an answer for your needs is more important to you, than allowing me to decide my needs decide for myself. Three times you cut me off to solve your needs after I told you I do not want to be pushed. No wonder why so many people get fucked up by 'Councillors'.
Speaking softly and appropriately in tone, does not necessarily equate to you being 'right'. As soon as you kept cutting me off to push for your needs, after I told you each time that I do not want to be pushed into decisions, shows disrespect. Regardless of my poor verbal reaction.
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She's thrown me out, wanting me to leave. The paperwork that I was asked to sign the other month was three days notice, everything in there is one sided. She cannot pay my damage deposit back and she expects me to care about her needs. She doesn't care about mine nor the damage she has done.
She likely just wants to know if she will be renting that room out or not, and for the information (if she is passing it to anyone in the Hospital). I do not trust anyone here. No one's word means anything.
She knows it's recorded, she's looked at it. I am embarrassed for my actions, but I really do not feel well and I am out of money. I also, have a good part of me that wants to tell her that there is no reason for me to have any respect for her or her needs.
(She caused me to walk off a job and away from $3000 in order to protect and pack up property)
However one could argue she's trying to care about mine, but only because...
PS. Just before she came to the door, I decided to stop humming and hawing about my decision. I was just going to carry something to the truck. I am out of money, my truck is half loaded with my remaining tools, my primary tools are at home, I cannot get my cellphone working...
Before talking to Margaret, I was trying to tell myself to stay, trying to get myself to understand that it might be the wisest decision, but on the other hand it also feels like now or never. All I am going to do is burn resources trying to change gears, backtrack and go through all the problems in trying to get back to where I was a week ago.
I will likely end up in a much worse spot. Not being able to secure and move my needed property. Of course, on the other hand, I might never have this location and this garage. So... If I hadn't moved my stuff and lost that job due to these woman's actions, actions that they will not account for then... obviously I would just keep staying.
Of course, another thing I just deciding on was whether to pawn something, or buy one pack of smokes, or spend the last bits of cash I have on two packs as I now out of cigarettes, leaving me with just enough gas to get the truck home.
I have visitors to this site that I have not seen in sometime. Anyways, now with unsettled peace, I figured fuck it. Buy two packs, I can stay sane a little longer. That is the first thing everyone wants to do, take someone's cigarettes and then start forcing them to answer questions for THEIR needs. Not mine.
At the Store, I see Margaret walking to her car. I never see her there. I tell her I will text her later thinking I just follow through, load the truck, dump it at home and force my options from there. If I text her, seeing she is keeping my money, she can secure this room for another two weeks.
Of course this is stupid as I would just have to bring everything back. Not only that, but I have to question whether.. the other things I am thinking make sense at all.
On leaving the store, I see Margaret driving to the Hospital with Harrison. The one who kept taxing me, last night wanting a cigarette, promising to give me some back when Margaret gave him his money. She's coming from the store and he cannot buy cigarettes on his own. Both of those two would corrupt information to a Hospital about me.
If that is what they are, spies and people trying to watch and then control, through their own cause and effect, they create what they see and report. Mental Health, Counselling, all that crap. Total waste as the System they build, they build for themselves, these are simple things to improve. I offered that for months on end.
Is Harrison owned at the moment ? He is too young to be involved in me, he does not even have the integrity to follow through with his word from last night, see ? Maybe someone will mark me down as 'paranoid', suffering from 'paranoia', but personally I think it is sane to explore all the options, angles.. the only down side how draining it is and how ridiculous I would sound being proven wrong.
Anyways, if this 'Mental Health' System wanted to improve for the people, over the workers, it would.