This report is absolute proof to me.  You cannot have someone else tell your story - they just get key things wrong. Even when you like the writer.

I wish these were in electronic form, I could edit them for accuracy. Key things are written wrong, from there someone else reads and the story just slides sideways from the Truth.  For something that has been so important to me...  is it any wonder this stuff makes me sick?

For all the money spent, I could have just finished writing it out myself. How long have I wanted do that for now?  A year?  It's actually been years, but I have had to do it for a year. I'm going to get told that it is all my fault.  At times, I could have been writing, but it's something for me that I have to fall into and then not be disturbed.  Impossible after having any stability destroyed, being homeless, struggling to get by, having the items required stolen by my cousin.

They do get many key things right, but like many others, they get some common things very wrong.  Insight, this is my favourite one to read.  Several 'Health Writers' do this.  They state I lack insight into who I am and every single thing I have been through on top of how I handle all of these situations - I lack insight.  I am a person whose memory goes so far back, I remember leaving the hospital when I was born.  I know who I am and I know the compounding variables to my environment.  I also know Murphy's Law.

I liked talking this one Psychologist, I really did.  It was an off day for me,  I had poor sleep, I just moved, I just confirmed my things were stolen, but I enjoyed our conversation.  However, key phrases, key things I had said... all out the window.  I am the only one who can write this story because it's my story.  Send me somewhere else and it's the same thing, just people getting it wrong and then... it's too late.

Page 17 Instability in Intimate Relationships (I have to touch on this one)

• Most females want males with some form of financial security.  Since that had been forced to be entrusted to my mother, those women are already beat at their own games.  Some even stated it openly.
• Most females want to work their way into an established person's life. Established.  I knew that at 20 when I set out the plans for building a successful life for myself.  I wanted to buy a home by myself and then be very careful who I allowed to move in.  I had great teachers at work.  Taught me all about life.
• Women, believe it or not.. some women just want to be intimate for a short duration. They pretend this is a 'Relationship'. This way they feel no guilt when they break up with you.  They'll just find something you did 'wrong'.  Of course, sometimes I ended it.
• Women again believe it or not..  they generally want someone who does not go to bed between 8 and 10pm, working six days a week and never going out.  They simply do not want it.  It is too boring.
• Once again, women sometimes just want sex.  Even a 28 year old virgin who I was happy to just spend time with in respectful celibacy...  It wasn't my idea to get naked and break the covenant with her religious beliefs, it was hers and then.. she couldn't handle what she did.
• Marriage... kind of tough when you are married to your own mother and forced to trust your life to her word.  I used to have to tell her that I wasn't married to her. I think that would cause most people problems in intimate relationships.  Especially when your siblings are trying to take it from you.
• Then base needs.  Mine, from my hobbies, work life, everything encompassing me, even my patterned routines...  I have certain base needs.  The key to that need is my own home, property, my own domain within my own control.  I knew that at 19...  and you people write no insight.

For the geniuses that would just state move on, get out of there... it was impossible.  Just for starters, there was far too much contribution that does not appear on the surface and no means to ever make it up.  Then there was the fact that I could never leave like my siblings did, the personal guilt would have taken me down when my parents lost everything in foreclosure.

Anyways, the report is a little limp in that reflection.  I knew at 18/19 years old when I was trying to hide my saving for a down payment..  I knew my life was over if I ever slipped an inch from maximum RRSP contributions every year to buy my own home.  That was really the only time I could have left without issue.  That ended with my oldest brother finding out and laughing in my face.  It wasn't good enough (and he's better).

That probably doesn't sound...  I paid ICBC $400 a month.  I sucked it up and accepted my situation, doing everything I could do to better my situation, only to be laughed at.  I even paid my own taxes self-employed, who did that at that age, in those years?  Of course, I'd have climbed faster if I would threw the smoking away for good...

I don't need doctors to tell me what my problems are, what they have been or how to fix them.  I certainly do not need medication for fraudulent diagnoses.  Every now and then, something to help me sleep when life is overwhelming or after I have consumed too much coffee over too many days, but other than than that..  it's all BS, that started from a doctor wanting me to believe I was ill from the second visit so he could profit treating me.

By the way, I have never car pooled.  I have owned a car and driven ever since I was sixteen years old.  I have also worked tremendously hard, harder than most would understand.   Oh... right.. that's a trait to an "illness".  No, before some book worm notes that, there are actually reasons behind me working so hard and having to continually push as hard as I did.  My oldest brother used to complain that no one had it harder than him, wow.  I used to sit in silence wondering how he could ever say that.

You have dates and names all out of whack.  You also have things I have said to you reworded.  I actually really liked this team, but it's just proof to me that psychologists, counselling.. it is many ways it is a waste.  I take carefully chosen words out of my vessel and they get spilled all over the floor.  Then they have to regenerate with in me before I can give them  out again.

For the purposes of the Courts, this report was needed I suppose.  I haven't been stable enough to do it myself, someone doing it on my behalf was probably a good thing.  From day one, I have wanted to do it myself and avoid all the pitfalls and wasted time when things important to me are written wrong.

I suppose the essence is caught.  In a four and a half hour meeting (or 3.5hr?), outside of the mis-writings not even mentioned, it is a pretty good report I should admit.  I just don't think anyone can catch the true cost, nor the extreme difficulty in making things happen in these family relationships differently than they did.

I stated here, that the PSR was against my Religious Beliefs and I think the System may have backed up on those words.  They really are in a way, because the only God worth Worshiping is the Truth.  The PSR made me sick and it scrambled me... something I knew would happen - as simple as it may seem to many of you.

Speaking of which, Pyschologist #3 really hoped I would speak to someone about all these affairs.  He never said who that someone should be, as in Title.