CRIMINALS
[pdf-embedder url="https://dan.berladyn.online/wp-content/uploads/2017/01/February-16th-Orfeo-PAGLIACCI.pdf" title="February 16th Orfeo PAGLIACCI"]I can't write anything out properly, because you have taken my means to organize the facts for proper presentation and true analysis. I like proper details and FACTS. I like TRUTH. Meanwhile, everything thing you provided or provide for me, is counter productive and twists and corrupts the remaining facts for your intents and purposes. So for now this will have to be the best I can do.
In 40 years in that home, my mother has stated she wanted to kill me, like many mothers do with their children every single day. Others were scolded at times too.
My sister has threatened to hurt me and she has, almost killing me and she's taken years off of my life. At many times, she has enjoyed doing so.
My oldest brother has enjoyed hurting me. He has tremendously enjoyed giving me plenty of pain. Somehow he thrived on it.
My middle brother has hurt me and enjoyed doing so as well. He even attacked me as a young adult. I was RIGHT for how I physically replied to that. You people would probably teach the WRONG answer in that position. He never touched me again.
So as you can see, everyone has had anger and everyone has or has wanted to hurt each other at some point in 40 years. I would consider that to be NORMAL.
So do you see how my answer is appropriate and correct, how my answer is the truth? Do you see how my answer was truthful to Doctors who were not truthful with me? Do you see that?
The young sensitive Psychiatrist had a clear motivational intent and a preconditioned bias before she even walked into that little office. Their whole plan was to ram me into the hospital. Planned, the documents are clear. I just started working.
You people pin the blame for my personal alarm on me? I am trying to save my life and you are trying to help my family kill me. If you didn't cripple my means to rebuild the time, everyone would see exactly how much damage this HEALTH CARE SYSTEM and this POLICE FORCE did to my life, rather than help me, they helped the others who drove me into SUICIDE.
When the Doctor asked who I wanted to hurt, I said everyone. It seemed like a truthful answer. In 40 years, I have in the least thought of it at one point or another I am sure. I am not truly sure that I ever in my life wanted to hurt my mother. I likely hated her, in fact I know I have at times, but I can't say I ever truthfully wanted to hurt her.
I am the one that cared you assholes
The others? If I wanted to hurt them, it would have happened a very long time ago. I don't know if this is the way other people are, but I usually turn it inwards against myself. Often, I would use the anger they filled me with for drive, output at work. Very destructive, but I do work harder when I am angry. Work is a good outlet, or least it has been.
When I was offered a gun in the Spring of 2015, I ran it through my mind as an exercise, a calculation. A Learning which is entertainment for me. A personal experiment on the outcome of that. An Assessment. I never even tried to get that gun or any other. My mind likes turn, it likes to think, it likes to calculate. I am still glad, I ran that calculation and fully explored the output.
I could show you messages that you have like already read anyways as you invaded my privacy. If I remember right, they describe the gun and the analysis much better than I can in this very instant. The answer was it would never happen, if I truly wanted it to. It wouldn't work.
I probably never told anyone this, but I likely would have turned the gun inwards, on myself. I don't know if you will find that message on me spraying my brother Jim BERLADYN's truck windshield with water. I actually felt bad for that, I didn't feel right. However, it would be a much funnier story to tell if I sprayed his head with water instead.
I do not get enjoyment out of hurting people. That's not me.
Even if I did or I had tried to, I was too physically sick. You people clearly know that. Too physically weak. It would never work, even though someone was encouraging me for quite sometime... the worst they got was a sprayed windshield and a facebook post about killing ME not them Them.
And you FUCKERS Do what you Did?
The bigger questions for me, is the mistruths amongst Professionals who were suppose to actually HELP me. I hope this does not get swept under the rug and I hope the right people have listened. No matter what game you were playing, you had no right to make decisions that violated my person.
I could cite so much.
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Posting Threats. Please Read that 'Threat' very carefully. That is not a Threat. A threat is stating I am going to kill you. I have had people threaten me before. I never did that like you claim.
Do you have any idea how many friends, co-workers, associates from all over told me get physical and slap some sense into him? To punch him out? Do you know how people in all these years told me to intimidate him? Even a Doctor. He's literally KILLING ME and someone has to tell me to STAND UP and FIGHT.
That post is not even a threat. Read it again.
It just dawned on me... if any of you were actually real in your assessments, you'd have known that I wouldn't actually be able to do it. I would shut down internally. It's Psychological between him and I. Having to come to your offices, that added stress.
He's scared because his intimidation wasn't working anymore. Even if I wouldn't internally shut down, I do have intensity, but I do not have the health. I knew that when I sprayed his car windshield with water. I'd do more damage to myself than him if I tried.
By the way, the only reason I sprayed his windshield with water is because I was encouraged to punch him out. I didn't even feel right inside about doing that. Go ahead and charge me with assault for spraying windshield with water. You probably would, because seems to be how ridiculous you people are.
You and your intervention. In reality, do you know what you people are akin to? Communists. You really are. If anyone had any brains, they would have removed my brother and my sister from that house in the very beginning. Like I requested.
Wait, you didn't do that as I have one of those disorders that doesn't even exist. Do you know how much I could have explained to you about your little Psychiatry, DSM and all that bullshit? It's a fraud - I could see it all when I was going through all that shit.
When I was Arrested for Mischief and told that I wasn't allowed to talk about it, do you what a good friend said? You people really fucked up.
The only question now, what are you going to do next? I have a very hard time believing that you are going to do anything practical for me. This System and all the people that work for it, they don't seem to actually want to do anything constructive.
Just give out pills and run people around in useless appointments.
You kill them.
A Mental Health Liaison Officer. I really think it's all a FRAUD. You would look like Clowns if my Rights were not Violated and I was able to write it out.
You People are Criminals
I cannot stop thinking about that.
CRIMINALS
What are you morons gonna do in your little Psychiatry gig? Should I bring my toothbrush too? All you people have done, is make everything worse, then you log little snapshots that don't even line up with reality. It's my life, my camera, my lens, my computer chip, my processor, my data. You people are so wrong in your notes it's not even funny. It's disgusting.
Now I'll be on camera, which I hate, in an environment that I am not comfortable in, being lead, probed... you don't get what is real like that. Right now, I fucking hate you all people. You think your pieces of paper are more important than natural human being that you keep denying the ability to defend and heal himself with the Truth.