I am a human rubix cube that only I know the map to which has to be carefully solved by going backwards in my mind while stepping forwards and avoiding the obstacles in my path at the same time.

These words were the words my mind forced out of my head November 21st, 2015. This was the very last night and the last set of thoughts produced from a mind running in overdrive for three weeks straight. I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep so I could function and keep working the next day. It was excruciatingly painful, I was concerned I was going to die right there.  Word by word, my mind slowly hammered each one out in the order you see above.

The next morning I woke up