As Posted to Friends on Facebook.  It is too long of a post to capture a screenshot of.

I've been up all night. Do you know why I have been up all night? I've been up all night because I need to write out what I have to say about the day's events in Court. Do you know why I cannot write out what I need to say? I have absolutely zero independence, zero finances and I cannot function. Do you know why I cannot function? Because I have a 26-year addiction to cigarettes. I would have been done writing what I need to write a long time ago if I could have just had smokes as I required them. Yes, it is a terrible habit, but I do not do drugs and I drink very rarely. If you think this is a benefit to me you are not wise to my situation.
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I came pretty close to telling Judge to go ahead and lock me away for a full year as he clearly made it known he could do. I also broke "protocol"  stating "I hereby disavow the Crown", I did this just before he was going to rule against my favour. This prompted yet another attempt to force me into seeing yet more Psychiatrists. Luckily for me, they determined that the Courts did not have the power. It is something that would actually hurt me. You don't have to understand, I know many of you do not. But this is CRIMINAL to me.
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The Judge believed in his view that I received a fair trial. I openly disagreed with him for reasons I would love to explain. I cannot explain because I do not have what it takes to keep my mind flowing with no independence.
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Two people that the court system is protecting committed perjury on the stand. If I could write, I could prove again. Of course, I have to have interested legal parties to pursue it. The court has now ruled to protect them. I am restrained. They are free.
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Another witness there, someone in the courtroom, someone who knows all of us and the whole story disagrees with Judge as well. He does not believe this was fair to me, he does not believe I had a fair trail and he believes the Judge is looking at two small of a window with no true bearing on why I cannot defend myself properly in court.
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My lawyer, I feel really bad. I think in some ways he was really proud, either of me, or of himself. I was too tired to determine that. He felt good as he wished me well on the next step of my life. I completely dismissed him and I need to correct that. The reason I dismissed him I want to explain too. I wanted to fire him the first day and the second day I met him. It was about those feelings I had, but I am not so sure I am right to talk badly about him at all. I just wish I could write so I explain everything by writing.
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I asked the one witness who I can freely talk to about my testimony. I asked him what he had thought of it. I get to laugh here for the first time in a while. He said it was absolutely terrible. Then he thought about it and he stated that there was no way he could have handled it as well as I did.
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In so many ways, that is the whole story. Someone see's a snapshot of me and they negatively judge me. The few who actually get to learn the actual details, they end up complimenting me. In some ways, it is like being trapped in irony. Even the neighbour here last night, he said he was highly impressed with how I am handling it. I don't view it that way. I should be handling it better.
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The Crown Prosector... he was bumbling all morning back and forth. Court might be cancelled it might not be cancelled, etc. etc. Other lawyers were complaining and there I was being ping-ponged by the System, after two nights of next to no sleep I had to deal with this. I had nothing that I wanted for evidence and I even had an empty stomach all day with barely a coffee in me.
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Yes, people have it much worse, but if you know my details, this is all the destruction of my life. No sleep, no food, no evidence, no ability to take advantage of an offered postponement (things will just get worse) and I am not even allowed to bring some quickly jotted notes to the stand while I freely address the court.
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On the stand, the Crown Prosecutor is bumbling the facts so much he is asking me about named people that do not even exist in my life. This is a man who is asking for judgements to be made upon me in the name of the Crown.
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Now in the Courtroom as the Crown Prosecutor kept bumbling back and forth over which cases to run that day, I piped up and told him that he was killing me. I said it so convincingly that many members of that courtroom took very sharp notice of the comment. Perhaps you can judge me as wrong for that, but I honestly don't think any of you would if you would have seen it yourselves.
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On his recommendation for probation, there's an actual suggestion made that such a thing would be helpful to me. In probation, he said I'd be offered services not readily available to members of the General Public.  I had to openly tell him you are actually hurting me, not helping me. I really wish I could write out everything I have to say. I'm not sure the Judge appreciated the comment, but I stated (repetitively) that the Court is "Victimizing a Victim".
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The Crown Prosecutor was a nice guy, evident by his reply to my question to him while I was in testimony. I find him easy to forgive, but for @$#%^ sake's it's my life.

There is extremely relative things I need to say here and I just can't. I need sleep, I need smokes and by the time I get all that... this drive to write this stuff will be gone.

MY NEXT COMMENT attached to this POST 2016-07-24 13:10

I wanted to take these words off, but I am choosing to leave them open to my friend's list. It's an insurance policy incase someone wants to pursue locking me away with Psychiatrists against my own will again. The Courts do not have the power, but someone else may be able to. I obviously do not think it is right for me. I am hesitant to say it "legally" but I do the like the idea of myself personally seeing an outcome of win-win-win-win for myself, my lawyer, the judge and the prosecutor. I can't write, it's impossible while I am going through withdrawal. I do believe the court case cannot be said that it was a fair trial. It was impossible to build a defence, as I was thrown out of my home, lost my savings and credit, my livelihood, likely my vehicle, friends, employers and now a likely audit. Not to mention having bailiffs, private investigators, etc. etc. contacting me. I do like my lawyer he is in his 70's. I may have been given a very good one, I don't even have the full capacity to process a thought on that. The reason I wanted to fire him the first day I met him, is that in a five-minute meeting he said to me "Sir, you are depressed, you need a pill and you need to collect Welfare". I was still capable of working at the time, there was no way I was going to take a pill or collect welfare. Obviously, this looks good for both of us.

MY NEXT COMMENT attached to this POST 2016-07-24 13:21

The more I write the more I have to defend. My lawyer (public defender) "only" deals with 30-40 cases at a time. Other public defenders take twice that many cases at a time.

MY NEXT COMMENT attached to this POST 2016-07-24 14:04

Fair Trial. There's so much more to that not being a fair trial, even my ride to the courthouse decided to sleep in and I didn't even get to have breakfast as discussed the night before. I couldn't drive my own vehicle. Anyways while we broke for lunch on the stand, I was writing out questions for my lawyer to cross-examine with. Game plan change, especially with no printed documents (thanks - Purolator). While I was writing out questions to cross-examine with, the Sheriff's decided they had made a mistake in the morning. They knocked on the door of the Interview room I was in and they conducted a bomb search. Kid you not. I have no issue with this at the moment. The Sheriff's treated me with respect, I have no issue with them.