If I what I heard was true, I'm a potential suicide waiting to happen.  I'm sure this would be a convenient way to stiffle me forever.  Does anyone in the government want to admit they did someone wrong? The only help for me is a secure place I can reside, do small jobs from  find balance and write to correct this. Probation?  I really wonder tomorrow will bring.  I've probably been foolishly optimisatic, bit now I think theyll just fuck me over. Why did the CRA email me at roughly 2am?  It's like another train whistle.  And who put my pictures on the news, RCMP? I haven't slept and I can't find faith in the above.  wish I had sleep.