Tonight I get told on an online dating site that I look familiar.  Then I as the conversation progresses she finally figures it out.  My face has been all over the news as a pervert for women and children to watch out for.  My immediate reaction?  If I didn't kill myself before, I might just do it now from this.  I suppose it depends if it drops off or not.  With Probation, likely it won't.  With a stance against the Government, likely it won't. How can this even be just?  I at first thought it was the filmers, but now I am thinking the RCMP did it to cover their asses.  That what organizations do.. cover their asses.  Mind you, I have to put themselves in their shoes...  some guy walks in, states he was lured, states he not even processing (mentally), states he's honest, states he never seeks children to meet, states he doesn't even go after women under 30 (which actually is still too young truthfully, it won't work), states he can't be under 25 (too immature). But I did state, at least I think I did that I did think it was a 14 year old coming to meet me in a well lit, well occupied public place.  I did think that in.. what's the right word?  Extremely short units/parcels of time.  I thought it was many things, I was so distracted and over loaded I wasn't thinking.  I think I wrote all this out already.  I was curious as to who was behind the messages and why. They honestly did not fit, but they did as soon as I seen that Surrey woman who texted them, that's why I called her insane right off the bat.  What else did I say to them?  That I hope they catch someone drugging these girls and sending them off into prostitution?  They called me a drug addict.  I don't use drugs, they said that was me.  lol - I may as well laugh.  Never done that in my life. Obviously I wasn't thinking clearly, but what else did I say?  It's wrong for me to give her guidance?  They said yes, and right now I agree with them because I am in no clear minded state to give guidance to listen to people.  Remember though, when I say her, etc., I am just referring the "her" it was if I it actually turned out to be a youth. Just doing a search..  I see these guys on google and the short descriptions stating it's man on girl, man on man and woman on woman doing this.  I think those stats are very unscientific although they may true, I don't know.  Personally I think these guys are all about claiming a name for themselves. Anyways as I looked.. I seen the words pervert, rape, etc, etc, etc.  Where are the stories of the men being taken advantage of?  It's natural for men to want to sleep with women, it's nature.  Where are the stories of men being played and taken advantage of?  It happens all the time.  Women do it all the time.  They try all the time.  Like the woman in Roosters continually bending over beside me showing me her nice rear end in very lucrative poses. I noted her attention for a long time, I was just too tired and not there for that.  I honestly don't feel sexy enough to be close to anyone.  Too many health problems from things leading up to this last year, and then definitely this last year. No one is ever going to believe a guy nor feel sorry for him.  That's what it is to be guy.  I was just thinking of things legally.  I guess the System gets what it wants... to bury me.  You know, it's funny, I can think back to 22/23 years ago.  I knew if I didn't abandon my parents I was dead.  I knew myself psychologically and what I needed to live.  What I needed to be me.  It all makes sense in my mind.