Tonight I logged this where it should be logged. Thank you to those of you who know my actions after the fact and listened. I have no idea of your true thoughts, but you offered appropriate advice. Aside from an inability with everything going on in my life, I have done nothing wrong other than to allow myself wonder out of curiosity what the truth was.
To the Surrey People with Paint Brushes, honestly if you were not so eager to paint people just for the purpose of having someone to paint, you might actually earn some respect from me. In truth, you have foolishly become the predator, looking for a predator. You have no discipline, no standards and no respect for truth. Furthermore, your never going actually catch those you claim to be trying to catch. You're too stupid.
You've preyed on someone who is going through things you probably will not even spend the time to understand. I can get very scattered with everything I am contending with. Some days are better than others and today was no exception, highly scattered. You just topped it all off with your actions. It's even right in the messages. Right from the start I felt like I was lied to and I questioned what to do.
I know what my thoughts were between the messages and the ones I didn't type as I was busy doing other things. I even know the ones I mis-worded, softened in scattered uncertainty in how to handle it. In some ways, I don't care what you all do. My intent was not what you wanted it to be.
Right now, one of the things that keeps me sane is constant distraction. You definitely served that purpose, it's really too bad I don't see you serving the purpose you think you are. You are just too dis-genuine in your efforts. Anyways, thanks to the advice I received tonight, I likely will adapting that distraction.
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PS. The only thing I truly regret in this moment other than allowing texts, is allowing you to bait me verbally. I honestly didn't have a clue who was going to visit me at a place I frequent. The manager here thought you were fools, as did the patron at the table behind me. Both listened to the whole story.
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