There are valid reasons why I do not want that route.  I would much rather have it out of my mind.  If I can get Stable in my base needs, I can then begin to move forward while finding the mindset where I can actually forecast and make proper decisions.

That route you asked about is not viable to me.  In fact, I think I was more interested in cutting a deal or making things work somehow.

Life just continually throws me impossibilities.  Just find my post about last night.  This stuff happens all the time.

Thank you for the polite sensitive nature of the phonecall.