These are typed ramblings from my phone to this site, logging my words. My only true means of logging anything at this given moment in time.
I phoned back to cancel as the homeowner (Mark Berladyn) was no longer present. I stayed on hold for probably close to 30 minutes. I would like you to know I am only following your instruction and it is the right way to handle it as another Officer stated. I know it's a busy night for you, but it honestly feels like you've abandoned me when I am only following your own request.
I understand you arresting me as per Port Moody Police Departments request. I think it's a real shame that even up until today, it was still unclear as to exactly what I was being arrested for. A lot of people seem to be confused about that.
Do you know what? If the Probation Officer actually did her job as a Government Employee, none of that would have ever have happened. I explained that to Probation today and they seem to have understood. It is your take that my Probation is there to actually offer me services not available to the General Public, not as a punishment. After all, that it was stated in the Courtroom.
So please, the next time I call, or the next time someone calls on my behalf (hopefully the Probation Office), it will only be to follow through with your own instruction. Spend the 30 minutes to help me get through this and survive please. Neither of us wants to be picking me off a bridge in 6 months, or a year, or two years.
You wouldn't believe how stupid the challenges are that keep me down. It's so simple to get me up on my feet. I don't want welfare, I don't want Government Services, I want the independence that the Port Moody Police took from this Life Long Resident who stood by his parents and did the right thing. Funny, it actually would have been illegal for me to do what my brothers did and I'm the one nearly dies for it several times.
You fucking help me. I am not fucking bum. As my very own Doctor said as I felt him abandon me - "That's too bad, you were such a hard worker".
Update: 723pm
You were just here. THANK YOU.
Good Officers, THANK YOU.