Subject to minor improvements when I am able to retrieve my legal files from the dumbass who is holding them.
On my way to "Probation"
Leaving the house for Probation, I walk outside and up to the street. Just before I get there some woman in a car drives hurriedly onto the shoulder, nearly hitting me before she comes to a complete stop. Very aware of my situation, I choose to not draw attention to the matter.
I cross the street and I find a place to sit on the retaining wall against the sidewalk. From this position, I watch her wondering who she is driving the car and what she is up to. She's rushed, she pulls out a notepad staring at the house and proceeds to jot something down. A short time later she drives off.
I assume this is either a Bailiff or a Private Investigator contracted to TD Canada Trust. I feel dumbfounded in my assumption that she is looking for me. Was she really that unaware that I was coming from the property? I drive to Probation.
Meeting with PO CHOW
(Our second meeting)
Since I managed to have enough money to afford gas to drive and to enjoy the necessities of my coffee and cigarette addiction, I could actually speak this meeting. Prior to this meeting, I was still forcefully convincing myself to be open-minded towards Probation and receiving "help". Internally things began to fall apart rather quickly.
Probation Officer CHOW appeared indirectly uncaring. She was Passive-Aggressive in Mentality towards me. I asked her a question regarding my file, she didn't know the answer... "Oh, I don't know... I haven't even read the file yet" - she was very aloof. Two weeks in and she states she hadn't even bothered to read the file...
She mentions Forensic Psychiatry and then quickly withdraws it when I accept the offer. She cites they are hard to book time with. She goes on to suggest "Community Help". Which is simply Tri-Cities Mental Health, something already discussed the last visit. FRAUD. I am beginning to feel I am being asked to go in circles. We are rehashing.
She's not helping and it feels intentional.
As for myself, I was holding off on my pre-calculated direction for this... this so called "help". The whole point feels like it is obviously to stall and derail me. To break my will into submission. This is corrupt to the core. Especially when you consider that I have done nothing wrong.
I ask again her about Forensic Psychiatry, as per her previous suggestion last visit. "Oh, I even haven't tried to phone them yet". For me the clock is ticking, any data via testimony/personal history, which is basically memory, is weakening and corrupting by the day. My financial situation and my ability to gear up psychologically getting myself to work is permanently weakening by the day.
How is any of this any "Help" ?
In the end, all it does is add further burden to someone trying to bring out the Truth. All this is doing is burying me in more and more self-serving files these people are creating. On top of this, she's a Government worker... salaried and living in a different world. Clueless like many people. However, for all I know, this is exactly what she's being asked to do.
In what felt like a completely Passive-Aggressive gesture, she again brought up the idea that I should seek "Community Help". In other words, I should go back to "Tri-City Mental Health". This was already ruled out in the previous meeting. I had already clearly expressed to her that that place was FRAUDULENT. It was a setup and I had many problems getting Medical Records out of there.
As we discuss things, she makes more insulting, outlandish replies such as "That is only your opinion" or "You are just being difficult". She is completely dismissing my opinion formed through my own eyes. Excuse me, but she claimed that she hadn't even read the file. How can she possibly make such statements?
She was like talking to a wall.
PO CHOW then admits she cannot actually help me. I might be mistaken, but I believe this where my first hint of protest came from. I was told I'd be charged with contempt of Court if I didn't attend these meetings.
By the end, it felt like complete Bullshit. A total waste of time. Something designed to chain me down. It was anything but something to actually help me. In fact, it left me with the deep impression that the whole purpose was to "protect" the System.
Like a typical Bureaucracy, in my disdain (mission accomplished), she asked when I would like to meet next. She had no problem with this situation. This is every day for her. Typical of my will to make things easy for them, I let her choose as I had no crystal ball and no schedule. "Let's See... my vacation... yada yada.." as she goes about choosing a date.
September 7th it is to be. I was left unsure as to whether the delay was good or bad for me. Again, I have no Crystal Ball.
I am not keen on any Psychiatry as I feel they are all FRAUDS
At this point, I was still forcing myself to remain open. To keep insistent that she set up a date with Forensic Psychiatry. I was intent to see if she would follow through. It's the only thing they offer me. Something she was now downplaying as being problematic to set up. None the less, the tone was set.. it was to be set up by the next meeting.
Off I go leaving the Probation Office believing the entire System is corrupt. Funny, as that is one of the eleven prerequisites/recommendations put forward by the Frankfurt Institute on how to DESTROY A NATION.
The Crown Prosecutor gave erroneous information to the Judge in my last courtroom visit. He said I was aggressive. This obviously did not come from PO CHOW.
