Hi Jenn,

I should email you specifically less, but Mark told me last night that Jim Berladyn was stating during my Uncle's 80th Birthday, that Jim Berladyn didn't know what "he" was going to do with what you call the "Family Home" or "My Mother's House".  What "he" was going to do with it.

You don't have to understand or care Jenn.  Everyone told me the Police wouldn't help, just as they told me the Doctors, Lawyers and Courts will not help.  But if you actually knew the history, Jim laughed until my father's funeral that my parents would lose that home and everything in it.

Mike would walk around "I don't give @#$%" about mom and dad.  And Lisa, as good of a face as she puts on, only jumps into whatever camp suits her.  She left too, she wanted her own house and she smirked at me thinking she'd gain off of me.

You don't feel sorry for me or understand that's fine.  A home was the most important thing to me.  My income is forever crippled without one, Mark wants me to try from here, but I don't think it's going to work.  Anyways, the only reason my mother is in that home is because of me.  My family is why I never got on my feet, it cost me my ability to have my own home for that one to be kept.  My mother promised and promised, but I am always the shafted, since five years old.

I don't think you judge me in a very good light.  Honestly though, it's very unfair of you.  If you ever have a chance and you care, go speak with Mrs. Nadia Xxxxxx, XXX Xxxxxxx Rd.  She will tell you this is unforgivable.  Did you notice Larry Xxxxxx, the man across the street wave to me from his Office upstairs last night?  Gary Xxxxx would have done the same.  John Xxxxxxx, he'd hide, he's a good friend but only if he's not seen in something politically unsafe.

Anyways, it makes sense why I haven't seen anything stolen yet.  Jim feels he's one his game of cheating me out of doing all the dirty work and living with mom and dad keeping them going while I ensuring I get took.  Please don't judge me, it might not seem or even have been a healthy environment for me, but...  I can't make you understand.  I don't want to "judge" you, but I am just not sure you have the capability.  It's hard enough to express the history, let alone do so in a way that most others would understand.

Back to the Lithium, I was working extremely hard in 2004, locked into a personal plan after being off the tools for two years.  I had a date that just set me off, making me feel very elated.  I saw her a few times after that, but the point is, I agreed to "try" medication for a born illness that it doesn't look like I have.  All environmental most likely.  I was on that stuff less than ten days, almost twelve years ago and they are smearing me with that.

For the record Jenn, even if you don't think much of me.  I'm the one who was pegged to be married first and I am the one who had the most girlfriends.  No one ever asked if I was gay, not that there's anything wrong with that.  However, I am just trying to tell you, that most of the things you see in me that you may not like or that you may judge me for, are things brought on by family members who's whole goal has been to tie me down, devalue and take from me.  Perhaps my true faults are weakness and vulnerability in my inability to avoid them pulling me down.

I don't want to waste your time and I don't think you believe me, but Jim Berladyn is a complete douche.  He's a weasel as a lifelong acquaintance from the neighbourhood told me in December.  Even my recently deceased Uncle Peter Berladyn had said it.  My mother, sweet old lady...  you should hear what her friends have said over the years, or her deceased husband.   However, now I just look bad for saying all this.

I wish I had recordings of the things Jim has said over the years and the tones, the manners in which things were said.  It would help with my conveying what I know to be true.

Sorry for the long email, I just..  I let you help them take from me.

Have a good day,
Dan