Hi Jenn,

This is as off record as I can get with you I suppose.   I do hope at some point to forgive you. I have and do, but when I read your files...  if you knew the history, you'd know how unfair this is.  I don't expect you to understand that because... you've seen me so unhealthy.

Since my sister is lying in testimony and helping you make decisions that actually do not help my life, they make it worse.  I am going to tell you something about her.  She's stolen from every employer she's ever worked for.  Colin has his own problems, the neighbours across the street reffered to him as a spoiled teenager.  I remember when my sister married him, she thought she'd be secure.  She ended up stealing $40,000 from her employer, she was caught when she was pregnant with Ava.  Then she admitted she stole from every employer she ever worked for.

She lied to you in testimony, she coerces mom, she tried to lead me into committing fraud in bankruptcy.  Jim was pushing for it too, what are they going to do to him? He'd scoff that.  He was laughing, thinking I am worthless.  No matter what happens in court, please believe me that all I ever wanted to be was an honest person and build my own life that way.

I took pride and I worked around that house hard, then I'd crack in depression from Jim coercing mom.  I've been battered and battered by my oldest brother Jim for a long time.  He can't handle anyone getting more than him and he acted through the years like its a game to win.  Yes, he is a teacher now, he's all high on himself on that.  If you know him the way I do, you'd know he's a player, or at least until he got that job at BCIT.  Cheat, Steal and Lie.  He was always so proud to get away with something cleanly.

My mother really did promise me and she's lying in testimony.  She's even lying in what I paid.  My grandmother went to her old age home completely resentful that she financially helped my mother.  My father was resentful and my siblings treated him like crap behind his back.  I used to feel like they'd leave him for dead in a car. It was Uncle Peter that kept him going, that and coming to the house where mother...  helped him, but didn't really want him either.

You might think getting out is the best thing for me, but really you have no idea what I need to operate.  I know you think my living space there was disgusting, but I lost 40lbs and was near death.  It takes time to recover, once down they were like vultures totally controlling mom and the house.  Before my sister came, I was in a routine of vacuuming weekly, cleaning, etc.  I was even cooking or attempting too, I worked hard.  Come home tired, bed at 8:30, 9:00pm.

I used to do half of an entire floor of a highrise per week, every week and you cannot fall behind.  One of the best I'd be told, well at least when I wasn't completely miserable about Jim coercing mom.  When the market started taking off he'd brag about how much money he was making in house value and encourage her the same way, mom would look at me uncomfortably because she can't say no to him.

Buying a home and having my own property was probably the most important thing to me at 20.  My biggest fear of not having.  I don't know if you can understand that family dynamic, but you have no idea.  It's beyond simply not being fair.  It's actually disgusting if you've helped them get away with it.

Please don't be so judgemental.  If it wasn't for my oldest brother controlling my mother to try and make sure I was just being used, it probably would have worked out for all of us.  It's just their greed and it's nearly killed me several times.

Thank you and as much as I don't like you for helping them, I hope you have good weekend.

Dan

PS.

No, there's no guns there.  I won't allow myself to have one, at least not like that, not in that environment.  I'd only want one if there was a civil war or if I actually took an invitation for hunting and I might not even be able to do that now.  Least of my problems at the moment.  Take care.