Jump on board buddy.

Thank you Shane. I only ask that you do one thing for the time being. Keep what you see here to yourself. I am going through a lot of changes and some of this needs to be sealed to only those who are here. Maybe I'll talk to you sometime person.

I'm not gay, but damn your pic looks good. Must help those personal needs. Take care.

Please add your number Shane, I'd like as many as possible before I show mine in the end.

PS. You can help me complete the last part of your sentence sometime. I would like to see you in person if we both have the time. Thanks.

If you have a mentality I'll see you on my way out in a bit.

Wrong. Guy bud

Oops... I meant to say if you had a moment Shane.. I'm headed out shortly. Either way it's OK.

I'm out the door in 20 mins to take daughter to taekwondo.

Why don't you pop by on Sat early eve. I'm around till 7 from 5pm

You ok?

OK. Will do. I'm thinking it could be a food thing all around. I'll try seeing you Saturday.

I'll explain in person. It's all good. Thanks and good to know you put her in that class. I tried it when I was younger. It's good for people. I should have stuck with it. Till then take care.

She's gi g for her 3rd degree black belt

Sat

Impressive! It's the integrity and discipline that's worth the work, not the fight skills. But she should have that too for the future. See you Saturday I hope!

Ya man I'll he at home till 815 I have to take her to her black belt test at 9 pm. It's 9pm sat to 8 am Sunday

Wow. Well hope she does well. I have to run. Take care.

Ttyl

Hey Shane, I can never make plans because things always change when I do. I'd rather have seen you in person, but there's a good chance I am forced out of this house next year. If that happens, I have extended family telling me to leave nothing behind for the others to claim. There is an 8 year old stove, built in microwave, and fridge with very little use. Do to the situation they are not even hooked up. Your mother can have them if push comes to shove, for my own reasons, I believe she deserves them more than mine. I can tell from your pics your mother is a grounded person who doesn't place material and image over the well being of her children. I'm available if you ever want to talk in person, just know sometimes I am all over the map, tired, etc. I used to be scared of you growing up, I shouldn't have been. Your a solid guy in my view.

We should get together and chat bud. It's not good to think we are alone. I'd like to hear of what's Going on with you. Let's get together for a coffee. Make the time I'm sorry you felt scared of me in the past. I don't like hearing that I made anyone feel that way. Especially people that I grew up with and would have protected in the event of need. We are all a family and will forever be that way. That never changes because we all grew up in glenayre.

Whenever we both have time Shane. I'm always fluctuating a bit but whenever there's mutual time.

Just asking to be clear if the invite was for me or another Danny. It's all good if I took it in confusion.

Ya you

Yes bud come at 915

Perfect, thank you Sir.

We will have a brew

You coming?

If you are Going to be a bit I'll step over for one across the street

Yes, time slipped,I thought I still had ten minutes. Actually go ahead, I'll get you.

Ok I'll go over for 30 mins. Text me when you are on your way over.

Im behind on laundry, just pants... 20 mins or I have to wear something else.

On the way.

Ok I'm at the neibour house the elliot house. Come here

Dryer said 20 mins, still wet... I hate to ask... What COLOR is the house?

Blue

Ty

How long will you be

Here, come to the door, too embarrassed to get it wrong

I'm outside.

Ok

Touch the deadbolt it lights up. Press 4848. Turn bolt

Thanks.. Id be better to write it so it's not misunderstood, but thanks for tonight. I'm tired, but I went to Denny's. Hope your girl enjoys tomorrow morning.

Hope that's ok. I never posted it earlier for.. privacy but you kept stating open for all.

What do you mean

Oh you mean share the post. Ya that's fine. Ya next year we do again.

I deleted it, I don't want it on there. But thanks.

Ya man you have people wondering about you.

Well there's nothing I can do. Unless I do something like this. At least, this way... they can share the emotional burden. This shouldn't be happening in my view. Not of it should have.

I lose everywhere else I know that.

Your family isn't asking it's other people . May as well tell your story and not be beet around the bush

I'm not, and I know that. I do want to tell it, but as Mrs. Zabjek said a few days ago, it's difficult to understand because most have had it too good and don't comprehend. Even her own son, she gets it. Then there's the issue of shaming my father... if it's read the wrong way. Or having everyone think I am crazy which I already know Jim tells everyone.

I meant, I know it's not my family, it's friends.

Even my cousins who know all the characters in the play... both parents involved in business, etc... say it's a really fucked up situation, this house.

The truth sets all free

Yes it does. But you have to release it at the right angle. :)

To much thinking bud.

Perhaps you are right. I don't know.

Your dad's infidelity is nothing. Your mom was a bitch and he looked else where big deal. It's normal these days and almost excepted

It's not that, it's his bankruptcy, his wife no longer loving him, his sons laughing at him. Its all money based.

If he kept pulling in the dough, theyd never have cut him off. Viscious cycle.

How do I tell everyone I tried to do the right thing, both leaving and staying and they fuck me either way?

Buddy that's all not a big deal. Your dad is dead he will never know people know. Fuck I went bankrupt I dint care who knows.

k..

Only people who care is you and you should not tgink your dad is any less because if bankrupt. Your dad tried his best raising 4 kids and a house and car and food. Same as my dad

I'm not the one who thinks less of my dad, they do.

But they are the fuck tards. They are the sick people.

They sit on their high horse

When my dad passed away I broke into a million pieces, I still cry and I am happy too. They laugh.

While your dad sits and watches from above

You should let it all out man.take a stand for him and you. That's my point of view

Thank you.

Your mom's a bitch your sister is trailer trash. Jim eas always a dick. Mike was ok but like you said week.

Weak

You know the thing that drives me nuts... when I do let it out, it's why didn't you do this or why don't you do that! There's always details people do not get.

Mike wasn't ok to me. I think I am weak, but strong in less normal ways.

It's not for them. It's for you. Just telling me that shit felt good I bet.

I don't like repeating.. but it's good to know people care, that feels good. No one wants a broken record though.

So let it all fly. Get fucking mad and let er fly.

Keep it not so detailed on a computer. Then ad details to it filling it in.

Just fucking don't let them win.

Ok I'm out have to sleep.

And may that be a good sleep. Good night.

Buddy help me out on this. Yu paid your family Morgage since yu were like 20. Your dad passes and your still paying till about a year ago. Then you stop paying because? Then after not paying your family tries to evict you. Why did you stop paying Morgage?

Drove me into near bankruptcy. It's best to call it contributions as mortgage payment, we've fought for years trying to get something in writing.

When she needed something I would get, when she didn't I was spent and discardable.

So you were contributing. Then decided why to stop? You made 5 grand a month I'm sure. 1200 is just like rent.

So something must have happened to make you just stop

Be careful Shane, words make me want to hurt myself. I started out life wanting to get somewhere in a family that just wanted to hold me down to exploit me.

You go crazy.

Jim plotted this.

Jim didn't just plot it, he thrived on it.

I'm just wondering what made things all change. This were going fine till some point. Trying to understand your posts as they are so jumbled they don't make sense. Trying to fill in the blanks is all.

Yeah, well it's not easy trying to describe 40 years of ups and downs. I'm sorry to hear they don't make sense. It's something that would take 3 to 5 years to write.

I'm doing this because I have no other recourse.

K.I.S.S keep it simple stupid. May help in this case.

Keeping it simple is calling me a renter and giving me the kick. Which is what they want. I go away broken, destroyed, they feel good.

Why would they want to kick you out if you are paying?

Doctor told they are Takers, my father and I Givers... I didn't like the latter. i wanted things equal all my life.

I'm not paying. It'll come out in the next few days, let me write.

Ok bud.

You may remember him like this. That's me he's holding on to. I don't want to publish too many pictures without extended family having a say. I could care less about my immediate families opinion. They give him no respect.

No attachment

Why does that happen?

I'll post it in mine..

Don't worry, I heard the story about the urine and the beer bottle when i was a teenager. Hearing it agani just reminded me. Hope you have a good weekend.

What story was that?

I thought you might have read what I post to Jim today. At the bottom of the post I wrote I heard he was given a beer in Burnbaby Mountain containing urine and he drank it. Or something to that effect. I am really tired and we had our conference today. I would have spoke better during it if I had been through one before.

I wasn't happy with the way it went. I couldn't prepare myself for it.

Life gives you what it gives you bud. We learn as we go. No one and I mean no one aces things on the first try.

Thanks man. Just for the record, she wants me out. I was actually trying to leave here, trying to get set up for that over the year and they managed to make that too hard too. Then I get that eviction notice. lol - Anyways thanks for the help.

So what was this conference? Are they trying to sell and you won't leave. And you get fuck all for all the years of paying?

They didn't mention selling, but that's probably the next step.

I've been trying to write out the story, but it's not easy. I haven't paid since october because I ran out of money renovating which she was approving and partially paying for.

That's only 3 months of no paying

Lots of shit happened. So now they say I am a tenant who hasn't paid, they are not claiming the $28000 not paid, not claiming yet and they are claiming I have wrecked the house.

No, that now over two years.

You have to understand the whole story.

Its a long history.

Its hard to write out.

Ok bud yours to have and hold.

Thanks, have a good weekend.

You too

Hey Shane, are you not working or is this just your phone that's always on? I just thought I'd explain why I was arrested. I don't have the official court papers but Port Moody Police charged me for the pictures you see of the basement and the posts you've seen here on Facebook. I was released with a promise to appear in court. It seems surreal. I think they are acting bias, I guess the result will be how I handle it in court.

I didn't see pics.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/932045306871821/

I thought I had added you. I'm arrested for the renovating, it's unfinished because I ran out of money, mom wouldn't help, I became suicidal after throwing away my anti-depressants and almost declaring bakruptcy. She approved of them but now they are calling it all vandalism if you can believe that. Anyways, it's up to the courts now.

My siblings helped push me to start those renovations, I guess that's going to break down to he said she said.

The basement is unfinished, the rest is done.

Oh, I don't have the upstairs in there, I thought I did. I renovated the upstairs kitchen, bathrooms, etc.

I work 9-5.

I see you had no permits.

Yu have no vapor barrier I that basement. They would have nailed you for that.

Lots of work don't there. Looks like a reno not vandalism. To me.

Yes, I know about the permits. I can get nailed for a few things.

But as far as vandalism goes...

And there is a vapour barrier, but that's besides the point. I was under a lot of stress and medicated. Anyways I'll let you work, have a good day.

Buddy take care. Take it easy.

I am. Thanks Shane.

I remembered your drywall today, I didn't forget. Measurements are still in the truck. I just got back to work this last week, but I am now not allowed to come within 500m of home. I think the PMPD could have done better than railroading me, but it's out of my hands.

Just thought I'd let you know I didn't forget.

If you get a chance bud. No rush. Saw your fuck head brother today. Didn't say hi . Never liked Jim. . Ya man I hope lessons are learned.

Sorry to hear all that. Good that your back to wirk

So does that mean Jim's around the house? I'd like to know if you see him?

I just saw him that day

Thanks.

What do you do when you are circled by bastards, hurt by your own words and the Police decided to target you?

Financially I can't recover and, I totally wiped out. At least at home, I might have chance.

You keep walking forward. It's only a test in your life. This test is here to make you better and stronger. Take the high road bud. Move on. It's poisen.

Moving on is jumping off a bridge. You don't know what I need to function.

You are not nothing really. If you were paying rent that would have been $1000 a month for 10 years that's $120,000.00 look at it that way. When your mom dies at least you get 1/4 by law.

That's $300 grand possibly.

Do you know Shane I could have bought a house for $70,000. Mom encouraged me to stay, then I realized they wouldn't make it without me. Even her friends said that, Jim laughed and so did Mike, they were going to get at my expense. Even Lisa smirked. Sorry, I am going to die over this either way.

Your going to get, just give me the check. The only thing you can do is try to pay less until you have something in writing and you just go in circles while everyone fucks you and self esteem drops so low you want to kill yourself. But on the other your saving your parents, they would have left dad for dead. I know it would have happened.

Mike would get pissed off if dad came to his house, "glad he had a gate to keep him out".

Them theres Jim... haha, mom and dad will lose that house.

Bud I'm sorry you have been fucked over. Spinning your wheels in anger and hate will sink you. Doesn't mean you agree with what they did or do at all. Just wait till your bitch mom dies and you get your1/4. It's in God's hands.

My income requires resources.

I cant.

Then you can't. Keep doing what your doing. How's that working for you?

I may as well till I jump off a bridge. PMPD has been told that, so has the RCMP.

Buddy doing the same shit is spinning wheels going no where. Change something. Don't let them win. Your the best berladyn born. Don't make Mike the best by checking out.

I can't change it, it was win or die. That's all there is too it. If I go to the hospital I just lose income and go further and faster down the whole. The more I go, the more Jim has to live with.

Are you serious?

Well, I don't see any other options. Keep working trying to make something work, this court... just going to bury me with Bullshit. I have to address it or get a record.

Your charged with a small thing.

Don't worry about that. Fuck there's worse things out there.

Where are you living

In a trailer with intermitant power and no water. I haven't showered in four days, my contacts haven't been out in ten days or so. I piss in a bucket. Hows that for living? :)

Ya not good.

And what are you going to do about that all? At least go to the port moody rec center and shower . Just go in the washroom. And use the shower by the gym part.

Coquitlam Rec Center to shower. I've just been wanting to do other things. At least they have soap there.

Hey, I was thinking of disregarding the Port Moody Police and dropping you a piece of drywall cut to size, but I threw the measurements away as it did and does look like I can never return home. Anyways, one day I might send you that book and if I do, I hope you read it. Thanks for the past support.

I'm good I fixed it thank you

Hope your well

Well I'm in a supportive spot, without who I am staying with I'd be on the street. Anyways, the whole system is a joke. My lawyer explained this morning that I am going to Court to prevent a crime that "may" happen in the future. All paid for by you, including the Officer who lied to build her case. This world is fucked. No one cares about what actually did take place as far as crimes go. I used to think of the PMPD highly, now I think they are a joke. Anyways have a good weekend.