"Kick Through the Darkness Until Daylight Breaks Through." I learned that quote from a beautiful woman with the most interesting personality. Thinking of her always makes me smile. :) I just wanted to say hi Donna. I completely understand if you do not add me, but I will be requesting your friendship on here. It wouldn't offend me if you blocked your personal updates. I'd like to say it wouldn't offend me if you refused, it's ok if you do. However, I am sensitive. :) I hope you are enjoying the Golden moments in your life. With Love, Dan Berladyn

Hmmm....truth! lol! How have you been, Dan B?

Thank you Donna. :-) I have been all over the map - lol. Would you expect any less of me? :-)

Holy crap, lad, why would I ever block you? You are my friend!

I'm on a tablet so my typing is slow. I had to laugh looking at some of your comments on here. I thought that's the Donna we all know and enjoy. You are a unique person to me. I always liked you.

All over the map....does that mean you are a world traveller, or is that another thing you say that is mean to your own self? Well, ditto I always liked you too and still do.

I mean it to my own self. I haven't changed although I've probably grown and matured some.

I see Phil often still.

How's life for you? Are you enjoying your time? I hope you are.

Yes, Don and I totally enjoy being retired. No Bosses, no Bitches and best of all, no frickin' $$ lol, so we get by well and are healthy and happy. No one needs to hear about the "golden years" the only thing Golden at our age is our pee....lol!! A friend told me that and I can't stop laughing about it. He has had 2 heart attacks and a stroke and continues to laugh at himself. I admire tenacity and spunk! What are you dong these days?

I'm still a Drywaller, I've expanded into Framing and other things. I am a member but I have yearly issues with that (when I top up dues), I haven't worked Union in quite some time. I do my part to hold the package up or even beat it.

You must have found little me. :)

Just hit 40. :) Thank you.

What!!! Holy crap, I'm ancient! I hit 65 this April, but will never, ever grow up, just like Peter Pan. I can't believe you are 40...awwww. Congrats, you are still on the green side of the grass and that's where we all need to be for now, right?

Yes, as long as we are on the right side of the grass. For me, it was truly was hitting 80. As interesting as that day was, it might have been my best yet. :)

You are young at heart, your fun. You have a long ways to go.

I just found Terry on here.

Davies?

Yes.

He's in my list.

lol. I'll look him up, I didn't take him for a FB kind of guy.

Yeah, he hasn't replied to anything lol

But I haven't said too much either, I can just imagine him on the other end.. those eyes. :)

Say it in Spanish, he live in Mexico a lot of the time....probably there now. I wish I was too, I need some sunshine and a tan!

Yeah, he's there as far as I know.

That's why I haven't bothered to chat to him.

I'm surprised Homewood is not on here.

Hey, before you decide to go..

I asked contacted Lynne Tripp with no reply. Her pages are open... is her husband still with us?

I didn't see him there.

Yup, Rob is well and happy to the best of my knowledge....Lynne is almost blind, she has a lot of major health issues so maybe she missed something....keep trying Dan, she would not ignore you, I know it! Hugzzz, glad to hear from you. Gotta go and try to cheer for the Canucks (not winning) and I'll look forward to your posts! Thanks for adding me to your friends list buddy. x0x0x0

Thanks for having me! Enjoy the game. :)

LoL - Thank you Donna. Like I said, you are unique to me. You are always a pleasure.

Recognize this little fella?

I have a feeling I should. Did he work for dc38?

I vaguely remember something...

HA! I believe your Mom made him. You gave him to me ages ago at Christmas - his mane is Dan!

No, he is not a horse so no mane.....lol! name is Dan!!!

That's funny, that sounds quite likely... I've never known someone to carry my name, it's a funny warm feeling. Look after him!

He has been on my Christmas Tree every year since I brought him home, so of course I will! He still looks awesome!

I must have liked you to do that. I'm driving and pulling over to text is slow... I'm glad you shared that

Drive on lad, be safe!!

Disgusting, sick, horrible that I posted it, the message it delivers, or... I'm scared to post such things. But for me, its the reality everyone is oblivous too. For the record, I've worked with a muslim guy that I would trust more than three quarters of the people on my facebook list.

Not that you posted it Dan! It's the alleged human beings who are doing all that. I don't care what they are from a religious point of view, they are evil sick garbage. If they won't play nice then neither should anyone else. I think an ebola outbreak would fix them up just fine, unfortunately it's not selective.

No, it's not selective at all. But these people are also just pawns in a very real, very large chess board called planet Earth. I've been reading LOTS for over 15 years.

Thanks though, I people should see that so we all know what the end game is.

I totally agree. It should be seen, but there will still be deniers, they will say it's a biased view and deny everything.

Ebola, I follow that when I can. it stays in teh eyeballs and other places. The people that got it, keep getting sick after they are cured.

I know, those people are on my list and they are truly the ones who are nuts.

You can't paint everyone with the same brush, but you do have to realize the facts. Thank you.

It will be the great leveller I think, Mother Nature will take back her world one day, unfortunately she's not like Santa, and doesn't know who's naughty and who's nice.

Thanks for posting that, it's a real eye opener .

Those who oppose Nature are bound to be Destroyed by it - Author Hidden (you can't handle it)

Is it "Satan?" lol!!

No, the opposite... he believed he was backed by Providence... one of the most famous people to walk the last 100 years.

Actually, the most famous.

There's more to all the events in history than meets the eye. It's amazing once you start grasping.

I can't watch TV because I see it as conditioning, do you think I am nuts

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One of the reasons I do not like to travel and certainly not to Europe or Africa.

I wish I was in Europe, I'd stand for it.

Here... well.. it's different.

I don't watch much TV especially any commercial channels, I prefer to read. I don't think you're "nuts" as the commercials are just that, conditioning people to buy. News is biased too.

Society is molded. That's one of the reasons I like you. You are strong minded and independent. You think for yoursefl.

Yes and yes.

My brother chastised me for not watching the news, I was a monster for that. I just shake my head at him.

Politics is no different.

I never, ever watch the news, I can't stand it, they show you what they want you to see, and politics is the biggest game on earth.

Yes, that's EXACTLY right. They TELL YOU how to interpret it. Have you ever seen anything in that video on the news? Each clip is it's own major story. Even the people getting beaten, I've read them all. I get my news worldwide elsewhere.

Even this Facebook... tsk tsk.

Gotta fly Dan, making dinner. LOL FB has a lot of good things about it, I used to use it to find relatives of members who passed away and no one contacted the union. It worked pretty good!

I never trusted Facebook, but i no longer care. No family, my history, what do I have to be ashamed of? Nothing to hide, nothing to fear in reality.

I also talk to family in Australia, England, Japan etc. A handy tool. Yup, no worries if someone sees me looking fat or old on FB, I don't care. ;) Ciao for now!

lol

The best news is family living elsewhere. You know they don't lie and if they do, you when then they are. :)

Take care.

Ditto.

People are either too scared to comment, or they won't accept it. Either way, thanks for the bump. I believe the video and the dark stuff it represents, its a hard reality, but its the one side humanity everyone wants to ignore. Have a good night.

Hi, I was going to apologize to you for that. As I said to your daughter, I am grumpy. I don't know if anyone else posted after I left it, but I did decide to back out (even messaging your daughter on it, wishing to back out) and I even considered deleting but I didn't how that would work or look here on Facebook. I've never done it before. My apologies for my part. I hope everyone finds peace with it, Dan

Thank you.

She is very attractive, just like her mother.

Way better than her poor old Mom!! But thx for the compliment! ;)

Oh come on! I always thought you were attractive, I bet you were stunning at her age. :)

Gee, shucks. lol!

:-)

Daniel B, for the New Year I wish you all things that will make you happy and all things that will bring fairness to you, as you deserve. Inner peace is a hard thing to find, but if you look, it's there. Hard to find amongst all the debris, but there, none the less. Throw down the bricks, the weight is theirs, not yours. Xo

Wise words by Donna Pike, they seem to sit among many. :)

Do you know how much I would like to post words on here at 11:30pm, two months after the 31st that I recieved mine? The same amount of days until my eldest brothers birthday?

Bricks aren't bad, because I was offered a gun this Summer that I actually considered for many months. It seems easier, quicker and surer.

I understand your message, but I am not really sure.. that weight will be carried by them not my own burdens lifted. I know thyself, unfortunately I also tend to forget. I did foresee some of this at all ages of my life, I just don't know the best solution which is truly only mine to make. Thank you for the words and the thoughts.

Happy New Year to you as well.

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Well... I'm not sure on how anything looks, I need a release if they've forced the hand they have.

Harm none, especially yourself. They can't win.

When I was younger I think I would understand that comment. I do not sleep well at all, last night I didn't sleep at all. I have no foresight other than the fact that I don't want to leave here living a life of misery while they all literally enjoy themselves over it. I will not be able to meet my material needs, never mind wants for a full life. Please don't grant me bs, I have tools and an income to sustain as well as personal limits of what I can endure. It's not the same for me as Donna going to work in an office. I have more tools than some contractors, never mind the other limitations of me myself. They can't win spiritually is that what you mean? And am I intentionally hurting them if I state the truth of my life? Something I can't even write properly without spending years on? My cousin is mad at me. He wanted me to go into a BC Tenancy conference and lie. State I have paid nothing and throw away the truth.

I honestly can't even follow a direction I see fit, because I don't sleep. I am hoping you can provide me clarity. There's no guarantee I will listen in the end. I have wondered if this is how we destroy ourselves, mutual public exchange. However it is better than other options I have thought of. Walk away be the better person, I'd love to see anyone on my list do that. Especially in this exact state I am in. I am very far into the negative. My father did not want me to just walk away, he was insistent.

Okay Dan, after reading more of your story, I now understand why you have posted a sheep, a black one at that, as your pic. I didn't get it at first, I somehow thought you were inferring you were a "sheeple" , as in "follower" that's why I commented the way I did. Keep on, the story is nowhere near told, is it? Xx

I wish I was writing from the heart instead of memory. I am tired. I have written in other places too much and the whole purpose was to concentrate it here. That way I wouldn't have to repeat.

No, it's not near told, but the more I say the more I give them angles to attack from. MentalHealth showed up here today. Either from the I told the Police back in November or my family instigated it. Now I'll be repeating which diminishes my story telling. :)

I just don't know what light this puts me in, good or bad. Who posts all this on Facebook, I just don't have other options to finally expell it.

Oh Dan.

I wonder how you'll react. I'm not even sure if I should tell you this mentality of years long gone by made me smile. The first part is definitely full of good points. Finishing work should be done with a clear mind and work should give a person pride. Hopefully you laugh, Dan.

Lol! I had better make sure I'm totally put together from now on! I have read similar types of advice from "days gone by" and marvel at the expectations some people had back then. I'm sure it caused a lot of women to feel stressed and depressed because they couldn't do it.

There's some truth in it for all of us. The old timers tell me they used to come.tonwork construction in suits.

Come to work.

When you feel good you are at your best. At least self respect wise.

True, I don' even go into the gar d en to work without my hair combed and some makeup on. Not sure if it is just vanity, or exactly what you just said, feeling good about myself makes me feel good about what I'm doing.

Maybe that's why I can't write? :-)

Unshaven and unslept again. 4am before I fell asleep.

I couldn't sleep last night either, I have many, many nights like this. From 7 am onward I can sleep....

lol. Funny how that works. Must be lost routine.

With me, it is a combo of pain and getting old, happens to a lot of people I know. I use the time to just rest my body and meditate. Then, after a sleep drought, I seem to have a few really good nights, then repeat. I am and always have been a worrie.r

Worrier.

For me it's a lot of things, the scariest I think is physical health condition that's developed or developing. I have always had an active mind though.

Do you like the picture I left in Terry's profile? He used to call me hammerhead.

Why?

why did he call me that or why did i leave it?

Why did he call u that?

I wanted to write him something funny but I think I was too tired.

I think because I wouldn't let go, i just kept hammering forward, or perhaps it's hard headedness... i wouldn't accept somethings

Ahh, okay. i wonder what he called me? Lol! Although he was never mean to me at all. Working with people is a chore at times. Nevertheless, we have to play nice even when we don't want to. Gotto go for now and do my morning yoga so I don't seize up completely. Ciao!

Yoga, I can see you doing that! Good for you.

I think Terry was a good boss. Well aside from the foot on my head... :) He was a good boss.

Okay, the twenty four hour ban must be up......are you alright lad?

Thought of you when I saw this. I know you aren't the kind of guy who lets shit go....this type of thought probably saved my life. ?

Thanks Donna. Believe it or not I was trying to set up for that last Summer, now I am down $40,000 and behind payments. A little tough to just move on. I said it before, a gun would have been easier. the hardest part would be getting them all in one place and not missing. Just the truth.

On ther hand I am just leaving Phil's, he wants me to go with him when he buys a mobile home Park. You never know what's around the corner.

Thank God for friends.

Xo

Dan, are you okay? Also, is your friend the cat taken care of? What's happening my friend?

Hi lol Do you know one of the questions they ask is telepahy.. do you believe in such things.. I am laughing Donna and why? Because you messaged me. I was thinking of you just a few minutes ago. :)

I'm feeling rather blue, I am cold but all is good at the moment as I am living in Phil's travel trailer... Good friends are hard to come by.

Yes, i told you before I am Wiccan and that is one thing I know is real.

What else do you know is real? If I say that to the psychiatrists.. I used to have a better tune, not as good as you but I used to sense things.

Cold is better than being locked up against your will, you can go for a fast walk or a run to get warm. Thanks to Orfeo for making sure you are safe.

Yes, thanks to Orfeo. I might get locked up, I don't know, see what happens on the 7th. That's my court date. I was going to write about the cops but I thought I would leave it alone for now. They don't give a shit about me, I'm probably just the easiest one to charge with something and getting rid of me solves everyone's problems. Phil thinks I'll beat the charges, but I haven't actually seen the charges yet. Not available, I get that later. I know there are charges that can stick, but I don't think they've figured those ones out yet.

Real? Well, where to start...depends on the "w's" as in what, where, when, why and who.

The Popo's are not about looking after anyone, nor are they expected to. Be canny.

That's the problem I have... too many unknowns and a lot of problems. It's hard to chart a course.

Don't then, ride the tide and rest a little. (Not advice, a suggestion, perkaps)

Oops perhaps....take away the k please.

Yeah, I know, but when you are weakened and all screwed up you expect the Po po to help you. I am actually extremely disappointed in them. They actually told me they don't care my family drove me into bankruptcy and into suicide two years ago. They don't care about the last six months, they just want the problem gone, me, I the easy one. Politically safe to screw over too.

Is your fur friend Mr. monkey Brains alright? If not, call

They are not in it to care Dan. They just try to do what they can I guess, like shooting my sister.

Ahh.. yeah.. I do need to rest, but also there's lots I need to do. Its defeating. I took my server with me to keep it safe, but I can't get in online so I can't write my life like I feel I need to.

Posting on here will just get me in trouble.

Are they watching all your private posts too? If so, they can bite me.

No, not unless I mention hurting myself or someone else. That's where they are nailing me, the trips to the hospital, I have emotion and the psychiatrists see it if they manage to hit the right button. A lot of them wrote being "scared", I've never hurt anyone other than myself.

I finally had a decent psychiatrist last visit, I actually thought maybe they were all going to listen to my story, we talked for awhile and then that was it locked up in the hospital. No diagnosis, as soon as I am released I am arrested. It seems like a crock where they all work together.

They all decide what's right for you, but as the head of Psychiatry even stated, it's about covering their own asses. I'm just a number in a way.

To friend and extended family it all seems rather simple. To the doctors there's all these fancy words and titles which make it all sound crazy.

I met some really good physicians in there, I was wishing they were the shrinks. :) Easy to talk to, understanding, caring, etc.

No one wants to hear this, but I don't think I can recover. This is too personal to me. And because it's so personal I can't fight it, it's the way I am. It's always easier to fight for someone else.

I truly believe that, about you not harming anyone ever, aside from your very own self. The shrinks also do not care about your personal challenges, ie your not being included as a contributor to your mother's house etc. That is not relevant to them so maybe you should not share anymore about that. Or to your family either. They seem bent on their own will. I think you can recover, PTSD is real, and it is not on,y caused by wars or physicas injury but by emotional trauma. You have PTSD. Run that by the fancy diploma holders Dan.

Apologies for the typos, my arthritis is not friendly today.

I need to attend to housewifely matters at this moment, know I am in support of you getting your fight on, even if you can't do it. Right now maybe not, but I am sure you will rally to your own cause Dan. You are worthy, not worthless.

Anyways, thanks for checking in. I'm laughing because I am looking at what I have written compared to you. The doctors all start diagnosing my writing... it looks like he's "manic" etc. Instead of listening to what causes the problems, the history, they seem to look intently for telltales of illness. I probably do have something not quite right with me, but I think the overall situation is by far the biggest factor for years on end. I almost had it dealt with before taking that job at the union, it's only my fault I suppose, or fate, but that job completely knocked me off course on a personal level. If I stayed on course I'd have at least half that house in writing, plus a share if she passed away. In reality now, I feel like I should get it all, they given me a miserable, wittled life and pushed me into suicide more than once. All because they don't care. I just don't get that. I never understood that about my family, why try to compete and screw the other guy? Why not just help eachother? I used to cry over that because I was the one getting screwed the hardest, yet I was the one who tried to help others. Now I guess it all gets turned around, I look like the bad guy.

Thank you Donna... but it's hard to fight when you are hit so hard. My finances are completely gone. Take care of yourself, it saddens me to hear of the arthritis... I hope it settles down.

No worries about me. I have been fucked up a number of times. Yes, I like the term fucked up because it pretty much wraps it all up in one little phrase. You will do whatever you have to do and I will be in support of whatever you choose. There is no fair in life, is there?

By the way, I had a Wiccan girlfriend once, my ignorance scared me away from her. But as I have gotten older, I've learned more about life, pagans, wiccans, etc. I should have been more open minded, it's definitely NOT a bad thing. :)

No fair in life for me and my family, unless I can convince a judge otherwise. But I don't have faith in my speaking.

Thanks again Donna.

They will not listen, don't thank me for being your friend, just remind yourself you have supporters. Night D.

You have to be your own best friend.

Lol I don't get these minions? Is that what this is?

Yeah, I know Donna, but that parts not so simple. In someways this was all locked on course thirty years ago. I can't explain.

Yes, thats a minion. I don't get them either but I like them.

You don't have to explain. I like crows and they like me....

i need to go, dinner is ready and I can't overcook it. Hugs Daniel B.

I seem to think there's three outcomes and one is complete self destruction, I can't change it. It's locked, even when I try to save myself fate just pushes me onto something I saw a very long time ago.

Hugs back, enjoy dinner.

I will never try to talk you out of being reincarnated, which I believe in. Do what you need to, but don't do it because you are lost, you are your own boss. Xo

Dan, I'm glad to see you on FB. Didn't see any posts for a couple of days.

Well... lol, what can I say. I want to write, Facebook doesn't really work, the place I setup stopped working for reasons identity want to explain. Ive wanted to write things daily, it's hard when you fall behind due to being taken to the hospital a third time. RCMP this last time, not Port Moody. Three cars and six Officers to Phils house, you can imagine how he likes that. Then three Officers to my work. I was actually pleased with the RCMP, much softer people than I expected. But then, they were probably designated that way. I'm easy for them, I comply.

Oh, Dan.....fuck!

Ezra Pound, I wish I read more on him. Interesting, I didn't realize he flew in the circles he did.

lol. Life is what life is.

Thanks for reading my FB. I want to write on Mark Zuckerberg, and Facebook, but I'll likely just create more FB problems.

I see them as McDonalds in charge of free speech. It doesn't work. But its their site, their rules. What I find scary is that hey want to create the "Internet 2.0".

People will follow. Oh well.

When I don't see you writing I get anxious to make sure you are okay. Oh well is right. That saying works for a lot of occasions, lol!

lol. Yes it certainly does. You're the first person that gets that! Other people say "oh well?" in reply to that, as if they are confused. How do I handle getting finger printed Donna? I don't want those fuckers to legally have my prints.

Terrycloth did it, Phil did it. I can do it,but it goes against everything I wanted. To stay clean and unknown.

Let them have the prints as opposed to having your life. Mail them a pair of socks in an unmarked no return address package. Maybe they will throw themselves out the windows!

I do believe fingerprints don't count for shizzle, unless you strangle a glass. At least they didn't ask for a DNA sample.......

I'm scared I won't communicate effectively in court, I'll lose and then tell the judge to go fuck himself because I am probably capable of that. It'll be. My lack of tact defending myself that'll do me in. A part of me wonders if I shouldn't just concede and let my family hose me. Everyone has to move on. I have a feeling I'm decimated either way.

Moving on is not a loss, it is a huge success. Leave the fuckers behind to whither away. They may think what they will, you are not responsible for their thoughts. Grrrrr.

Well, my mother is still my mother. Honestly Donna, she's just... I can't blame her. As Lynn Tripp said, she expected a certain life, her old Betty well to do friends fill her head and my siblings have to win to make themselves feel better. It's literally me against the world. Thank you for the pic.

The pic made me laugh.

Babysitting this creature....another Granddogger. She just farted, and almost made my eye makeup run right off my face. Whew! Sorry.

Laughing is good. Unexpected laughter is better.

Please, Dan, keep on laughing, at any cost.

Dog farts lol. I know exactly how that four legged creature smells when you said that. Probably fun to have a round otherwise. Well that and the drool.

Granddogger, I like that word by the way.

No kidding, and I like to keep my house clean. However....I am adaptable enough to let it ride for 12 Days, then I can get my control back and scrub the shit out of the floors! Yes, Granddogger. If you like that, then here's another Donnaism: my daughter Angie's ex husband...we refer to him as her "wasband". ?

Going to sit and put my feet up, I have been busy all day, retired or no, I like to keep busy. Sleep well, perchance to dream. Wishing you peace and fairness Dan. Xx

Do you think the world is fucked Donna? I mean half of our problems are simply the system we live in itself. Everything is centered on wealth, money, protecting ownership. I'm not against that, but because it's the center we are screwed up. I hate to tell you who i think possibly had it right.

Why hate to tell me? Just say it...if I hate it, so what?

Thanks Donna. I like your words. Wasband and Donnaism. You could really steer language if people knew of you. :-)

I figured the whole world was fucked up way back in the sixties.....and it still is. It's just that we can actually grab the reigns and steer it in the direction we need to make it work. Some wins, lots of losses, but the balance is the thing.

No, I don't mind telling you. I just don't want it read by others. I entertain some highly unpopular views. If I state them my opinions get completely misinterpreted, but I am not alone in them.

No worries, I delete everything every day. If I can't remember what someone says, then I ask again. See, it's not Alzheimers or Dementia....it's being safe.

Yes, but nothing is truly deleted.

Going. Look forward to hearing more. Hmmmm, if anyone wants to read what I write....they should get a life!

Yes true enough. Have a good night.

Ditto my friend. Xx

Hey, is it bad to let a cat drink out of a toilet? Mine does, but he usually likes the shower. Even if he has fresh water he goes for the shower water when I come out. I have the court files. I can't believe the BS I'm going to have to deal with. They say I abuse my cat. lol. He's always fed, he always has a water source and he gets to go out more often than most cats. Courts going to be tough with no lawyer.

No answer, your scaring me that it's bad.

No worries...been dog sitting and she had a seizure. Daughter Number 1's dog. Sigh.... I have been reading your posts and I see a total fixation with "the house".

I don't like it when people call it that. A fixation. I have court tomorrow where they.. May legally succeed in screwing out of a home and my entire life. Why expect any less from me?

In court. Does it look bad if my cat drinks out of a shower and the toilet?

Tons of cats do that, and tall dogs. It seems to be a favourite. As for the word you don't like....choose another one then. I'm just stating what my interpretation of what is happening is about. If I am wrong, I am wrong.

Thanks. They've come after me as a danger to my family and animals. I'm just thinking about how other guys on the news have wound up. It's crazy. Theres a lot of exageration from my family members to the police. There's several of them acting in unison as witnesses and only one of me. Furthermore there's out right lies.

How do you prove any of this?

I was depressed last night.

No doubt, I wouldn't assume you could be otherwise with all this going on. Stress destroys people. As for proving, unless an outside persso

Oops...an outside person witnessed it.

The doctor but then I told him where to go and he has his own things to hide.

See, and I was labelled as being crazy and most people wouldn't have stayed in that house. But for me there was so many reasons to and everytime I tried to leave something blocked the path.

Like fate.

It's harder for me to go as I have different needs than many others.

It takes time to go. And now I have absolutely no money.

Behind two months, large debts

My oldest brother always wanted to erase me off the map since we were kids I swear.

I believe Karma is real and those who need it, get a tune up from Karma eventually.

Then I must have done something in a past life. The guy who taught me used to giggle and say that to me. That was 20 years ago. But karma works, because I have been good to others and watched it come back. It's why I decided I wanted to be honest and good, but I went wrong somewhere obviously.

By the way, my little sister. . . I shouldn't share that.

They have screwed up my life, I don't know how anyone can say they haven't.

They are lying too about the money I paid. Saying was lower that what it was. I have to write tge bank and ask if they have it on file.

Will it make a difference? Are you suing your Mom to get part of the house?

It makes a difference to me regardless.

I'm likely on the street. I can't stay at Phil's.

The most important thing to me was having a home. They've taken that.

I guess I tried to do too much, but then they kept driving me off of getting on my feet.

Hi, you don't have to reply, I just feel like I've gone crazy. My cousin was telling me my brother drove me crazy. Anyways I don't know what to say. Impossible odds it seems. Thanks for your prior words. Hope things are well for you.

Daniel........

Yes. Not to many call me by full name, wondering where that came.

Came from? Impact. :-)

Typos!!! I meant. There's, that's what I meant.

Is there something I don't know? How your using my long name... I'm scared to ask.

Alright then... Thank you for replying anyways. :-)

Oh, for fucks sakes...you know I am on your side. My Grandfather was Daniel as well, my name was supposed to be Danna...for Daniel, but due to cirmcumstances beyond my Mum's control......

We would have had a name to share. At any rate, tell me.

That made me smile, you never called me Daniel before I don't think. It's either fir girls who really like me or when I am trouble. I'm assuming the latter with everything happening

Donna and Daniel... OK... You know there was a set of twins in elementary, a little triangle. I liked Kathy and that made her sister Donna like me. I was never smart enough to switch it up and go for Donna. :-) just reminded of that by your name.

Nope. Not in trouble. I love the name Daniel, it is strength and has a nice ring to it.

I think work is losing confidence on me, the scheduler gets all weird if you don't have the energy to talk to her just right. I'm so broke, I might not be able to keep working

Witches choose sides, mostly for good, occasionally for n

Just a snowball I can't stop.

Witches. :-)

Shizzle! Yes. Wiccan. Always have been, always will be. Nature is my goddess.

The snowball can be stopped. Slow down! Lol!

I can't slow down, how I can I? I dont think k anyone comprehends the situation for me.

Had we but world enough, and time..

Just the chat not your life...

Oh sorry. :-)

No, do not EVER apologize to me.....

Do you the Crown was making everyone at the courthouse aware that I was coming. Some workers there confused as to why.

OK Donna, your worth apologizing to though if I say something wrong.

Looking at the file, I look terrible. I mean really terrible.

I would like to know why you had to go to court. I am not sure exactly why you had to go. Please explain

Peace Order, I forget the exact name. But I think it's just a complete excuse to totally fuck me.

If you read just that, you'd throw me in a loony bin. My voice is gone, my finances are shot, no roof over my head and I'll likely run out of cash before court so IL lose it without smokes.

I'm fucked.

I should at least write out replies but the history is too... Hard to explain. Basically I've been treated like shit and undermined all my life. It doesn't... Make sense unless you know what it like being just behind a curve all the time. In that family, it's almost like I can't do anything, just trapped.

But getting out, my working is not like anyone else's. Not completely true it takes a lot of planning. Phil disappoints me because he doesn't get the concept of tools and order. That's where I fa apart no.order.

Where I fa apart, when I.lose order. I like things organized and stable.

Family and emotions kill you.

They don't want me to succeed, it's makes them feel better to take. Don't know why, well I do but.

If a just knew my shape they'd probably order me to a hospital. I'm scared they'll be punching a whole in my throat.

Then people assume your an irresponsible smoker or itsmental illness. It ramped stress over and over.

It's just ramped stress I mean.

Nope, i know you are a master of the tools at what you do, i used to hear nothing but good comments. Family can dissolve your foundations. They can do what they want, you just need to be strong enough to win. Keep your hands close to your heart. Protecte yourself.

I have to disengage now, for a while. Keep on keeping

See I don't know whether to put everything on Facebook like I've been trying or not. I'm making myself look loonie or am I defending myself, I don't know.

On Daniel. Hold yourself together my friend. Until we

Talk again. Sorry for the broken dialogue.

All good.

Hugzzzz. G'night .

Thank you Donna. I appreciate it.

Hugs.

I appreciate that you are strong enough to still be here.

X

Thanks. I don't.think.i am.sreonf though, I think.im.weak otherwise.i.wouldnt.be in.these.shoes. Goodnight

Not weak.".just out of energy to fight back. In your sleep, you will gain it back, a little at a time. Fare thee well my friend, I won't forget you.

Oh, you are not weak at all. Nor is your cat. Nor is your spirit. Just downtrodden I think, for now, but not forever. Sorry I had to divide the comments. Now I will go to sleep, perchance to dream. Night.

Good to see a post from you D. I know that you are doing what you can to keep yourself above water, so to speak. Glad of that, very glad.

I'm under water, broke and homeless after Thursday, I just can't climb out.

Oh no...

I can try, but I know it's insanity trying to work. People don't get that, not even Phil the "Union Organizer". There's too many problems. But thanks.

Then what will you do? Do you have a plan at all, some backup...family perhaps that can be your bridge?

I told my extended family to go fuck themselves because they are befriending these people. One way ticket. :) I just want to make court.

You do have a goal then.

Nope. I can't understand how and why this has all happened to me. Seriously. I remember painting that house, the trim, took me 6 ten hour days. I decided I wanted to be good, noble, proud, honest, and I was trying to determine what to do with my life. I was already knocked off my rigid plan to save buying RRSP's, but I had my whole life ahead of me. I needed a purpose and I thought, wouldn't that be noble to look after my parents? That's when she said keep it up and you might get this house. My brother... he didn't care, but he just couldn't accept me getting more, or me getting that house. He was laughing they'd lose it. but there was no way he'd let me stay without him profitting off of me. He fucked my whole life, because once time started rolling it became harder and harder to get out, till was impossible without risking everyone's failure.

The cop that arrested me. She was the only one I was never at ease with. I never complimented her. I couldn't peg her, but there was something about her. I wondered if they hired her just for me. An hour ago, I read just that. They did. Hired her in January. She fucked me, I can see exactly what I suspected going on. I was dazed though... you just go with it.

It's all happening because I came off those RRSP's. I saw everything back then. Sounds strange to you perhaps, or even dumb, but it's true. I was mentored into better health, I knew what I had to do for me. I let my brother break my pride on it after trying to hide that plan and growing stronger slowly, ever so slowly. I used to pay $400 a month for insurance at 20 years old. I had so many boulders on me, I couldn't get up.

They loved laughing at me.

Two car accidents timed just right for ICBC to change the laws and charge me $400 per month.

Like fate.

My brother fucked over my sister and me and got our parents house.....we got a couple of thousand dollars. He got a lot. He also had a tragedy shortly thereafter...his 17 year old son hanged himself in my brother's front hallway. Can you visualize coming home to that? Karma......To say I feel your pain is real, believe me. Your family are psychic vampires...sucking the soul

That's how it felt.

Yeah, and the cops helped my family. You're brother was likely... well had the wrong priorities and that screwed his kid.

See, my family... I don't know how, but they win and become "good" people while became bad. I was the honest one and if you look at where I am at, I look like the criminal. It just.. I dont know.

Yup. He did....he is a homophobe and I believe my nephew was gay....and brother not-dearest probably drove him to it.

You do not look like a criminal except to the vampires.

I wonder if my grandmother killed herself, she always complained about what my mother did to her and then stated she wanted to die. That went on for a long time, then fell and broke her pelvis. I always wondered if she threw her walker.

Awww, that is awful. I hope not.

The pictures of my dad and my grandmother disappeared. I wonder if they had them removed some how.

Your mind still has those memories and they can't take them from you.

Doesn't help much when you are homeless. I just can't pull out, people don't get it.

My own mother LIED about what I paid.

See, I know my brother has couched her, it's after seven years, he has no records, he can't prove it. I wrote the bank they should have it on microfilm but who knows.

I didn't pay a tremendous amount because I couldn't trust her, but I paid more than they say.

We can't choose our families, we can choose who to love. Ruination to the ones who hurt us.

Have to go for now. Xx

Take care.

I have 18 PRIME files on me, possibly for Political and Historical Interests which again began from all the misery at home and in the trade in the year 1999. Other than that, I wouldn't know what they were for. Well, except for what my Doctor told me to do, he had his and over his mouth and said "XXXXxxxx You Dummy". I thought to myself, if a Doctor says it, it can't be that bad. Then my sister encouraged and once she knew...

I was completely open with every Officer except for the who Arrested me. I could just never understand where she was coming from with the things she was saying. I even wondered if they hired her for me and I think they did. Hired early January. I look at everything she wrote for the court and I look at what I know to be the truth, she totally set me up and railroaded me. One week in the hospital I return home to see computer on with a message on the screen. I checked for missing files, tampered files, I was in dazed headspace. I couldn't determine, but it scared me. Then I noticed missing emails I sent to my cousin who "helped" me in the beginning. All his emails gone. Yet, I still have records of them somewhere else. And today I confirmed those emails were erased. There is also missing documents on all of my personal items, so I don't know if my family stole a bunch of expensive things., Those documents are backed up elsewhere. Either way, I am set up to look totally nuts and dangerous, even a criminal. One thing I will do, is state the truth regardless. I know many of the outcomes. It just depends if they rattle me in court. That cop lied. She smeared her report even though the police have the correct dates and information as I was writing them in November constantly. They called it non-sensical. My first email to you, might be too much, but it's not non-sensical. I was placing notes for expansion at a later date because I know everything is unavoidable.

Thanks for your friendship Donna.

From what I have been told, you cannot erase a computer's files, an expert can retrieve everything that has ever transpired on said computer. I hope you can get back the information that you need. Ditto Dan, we used to have some pretty interesting conversations at work as I recall. I must say It makes me very sad to hear what has happened to you. Whomever said life isn't fair was very right, it most often is not and somehow, in most cases we can keep on and survive it. Unhappy, most likely but there is always a spark of light, right? Ciao for now.

Thx. Writing pointed life history now. They are rushing to supply me a lawyer.

PRIME files, a file is generated on any interaction with an Officer. Pulled over, etc. It's nothing.

Hey you, I hope it to send you lots of messages. I just wanted to share I left Phil's trailer, which is much appreciated but unhealthy. I stayed at a friends for four nights. They nursed me back up. Now I am roofless again. Everyone wants me to see Social Services, so today I did. $4??/month and I room in boarding houses with drug addicts. I don't mean to sound ungrateful but fuck me!! lol I'm hoping to I don't know. Find another way.

Hi, I just woke up from a bad dream and I thought who could I share it with? :) Sharing it publically on Facebook would just make me look like a loon. I recieved my medical records back from the hospital, out of all the doctors, only one stood out as she was the only one who wrote everything down in an biased and truthful manner. I could read her nicely typed report too. And one doctor actually completely lied, she was the one who had me locked in the second time. It's unreal to see that because the only sense I make of it was that the police asked her to. It gave them what they needed, then I see the police lying in the same instance.

Anyways, I just woke up from a terrible dream were my life was being driven off the tracks. All the same characters, different locations. Only this time it was the RCMP who picked me up and I now awoke to a real problem because I broke out and I knew they be publically looking for me. I just had to write some text publically for all to read, then I was going to walk into a police station to turn myself in. That's when I woke up. Oh, I forgot to include the crazy Psychiatrist who wouldn't allow me to talk as he "knew better" than I... even though he didn't know me. Dreams are messed up... Hope it wasnt a bad read.

Not a bad read at all, another chapter in your interesting, if at times unorthodox life Dan! Glad you shared with me, I wonder often how you are but don't want to press you for info.

I'm with you on the crazy psychiatrist thoughts....as my dearly departed sister said to one particularly nasty man..."So, I'm a crazy person am I? Well, it takes one to know one, asshole!" True story, I witnessed the conversation, and almost peed my pants trying not to laugh! You should have seen the look on his face! Priceless. Oh well, opinions are made by the owner of the thought, not by the receiver. ?

That has to be the most fraudulent profession prone to high levels of abuse. Anyways, I think my bank account has just been seized. Fuck em all Donna. Fuck em all. :-)

No, you fuck em, they're no my type!! Lol! Shit, hang in there Dan, what a ride.......

Thank you Donna, emails are coming in from Bailiffs, it should is interesting to see everyone play their games.

Wouldn't it be amazing to time travel back and get one piece of paper signed so it was a legally binding document, then pop back to now to see how that one thing changes things.......

Ahh... nothing would change Donna. I was smart enough at 21 to know about signing a document. It's a story... that you have to live to understand. The only real chance I had was when I joined the Union Hall as an Organizer, or should I say just before then. I told Kelvin that job fucked up my life and that idiot dismissed me. Which reminds me, I need to cancel my membership before they decide I "owe" them all these arrear dues. Must go now, thanks Donna.

Be as excellent to yourself as you can. later.

That's strange... there's money in the account, online it says nothing... yet I couldn't make a purchase? Fuck, I waste so much time having to run around and straighten out little stuff that I can't deal with the big stuff. Have a great day Donna, you are an awesome friend. Big hug. :)

This isn't a nice video, but I thought of you when I saw it. I almost shared it to your timeline then I remembered my past lesson! :) Anyways, I hope you don't find it upsetting, for that reason I don't want to share it. It actually... well, it makes me feel down seeing this.

Thank you Dan, that made my day! Karma sometimes misses the ones that deserve it, but when she doesn't, BAM! <3

I haven't said much on this yet as Court is looming. I was originally Arrested for Mischief and the Crown, I assume dropped those Charges, I am going to Court for the above, plus a Fire Arms Restriction. In some ways, I can only laugh. :)

Jan 1st, to Feb 5th are my Facebook posts and a misconstrued story and improperly recorded words brought about by a "doctor". It's amazing to see the system at play.

For you!

RCMP are parked out front, makes a guy wonder.

You are funny! You make me laugh! Thank you.

My pleasure! A sense of humour has gotten me this far......xo

Hi, How are you feeling? I don't want to saddle you with my stuff, but from your outside limited perspective, do you have any guidance as what I should do? I might not listen for my own reasons, but admittingly, all my holds ups have led to somewhat of a lost direction. Things i 2as comfortable in writing weeks or even months ago has lost their initiative. Lawyers, Counsellors, all that stuff seem like a lost cause. I'm just starting to drift lately.

Still dizzy as hell. Going for an MRI tomorrow...maybe they can see something that is causing it. You do not ever have to listen to me or anyone else as to what you should or should not do. Just know that there are people doing what they can on a level somewhat outside the norm. I think about you and send as much positivity as I can. No advice...that is not for me to offer, it might be wrong and I do not want to send you askew....hugs for now, harmless but perhaps comforting. Xo

Thanks Donna, I am glad you got your MRI nice and EARLY. :)

Yup, it is amazing that it got moved from March 2017 to yesterday......I have an amazing GP. I have no idea who she had to kowtow to to get that for me, but believe me, I do appreciate it. There are still lots of really good, caring people on this planet, few and far between, but shining like stars. Thanks for caring Dan you have a good soul and a good heart. " In MY opinion!" And, I am a stellar judge of character. Xo

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So do you Donna Thank you. :-)

We are alike in many ways...all good.

Nah, you're wiser. :)

Older.....much older, lol ?

I don't know, 40 literally felt like 80 for me. Thank you Donna. Next video is for your daughter, I just have to find it.

I wish I was forty again.....twenty six years after forty takes a bit of a toll, but I will never give up, I think there is a reason for being here. I have to find out the reason....it is a mystery that intrigues me. Who knows what is just around the corner? Good or bad, just have to find out and roll with it for as long as I need to know. Maybe in five minutes something amazing might happen! If not, maybe in five days......curious am I.

I think you are like me, you have bouts of seeing it don't you? What life is? The oine thing I wish I did (I am not regretting), but the one thing I wish I did was study from a young age. I was always told to and I even knew to, but if I studied, I'd likely be a lot clearer on many things I'd like to tie together.

Never too late. i am trying to lear Italian......even at my age. it takes me longer but it is interesting and so funny when I fuck up! Who cares....not me! Perfect is boring.

Please steer your daughter onto this guy. If you would, let her make up her own mind. Naturally, I know you make yours. :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f-L64f6WCRQ

Will do Dan. night. Xo

Night.

That video, I gave you I wanted to replace it and explain my reasoning. Anyways, I just mentioned your name on a CBC thread. I only did so to catch your attention and bring you to the thread. I will delete it once I know you read it. Comments like hers, from..... scare me.

I can just do this instead, sorry, I drank coffee late into the night and didn't sleep. But when I see a comment like that from her, I think of the System and your sister. Anyways, you are probably busy with your affairs, but if you care to know what this was about...

I just read it. WTF is she saying that for? Low blow is right, do you personally know her?

We debated ever since she found me giving Justin Trudeau a hard time on his Facebook page. She's at least met him, and I wouldn't be surprised if there's more than that. I haven't found her employment yet. I suppose you didn't see it, but my posts prompted discussion and even replies from people with the last name of Tru...... :-) The last thing I need is a special treatment program insisted upon by you know who.

Who, Elvis Trudeau? A hunk a hunk of burnin' love....for himself! Ciao for now!