One guy decides he's got to leave early, stops loading an incomplete wall, leaves his lift and pail where it is and goes home for the weekend.

It's almost comical Art.

Merry Xmas Art.

Merry Christmas Dan. I hope things go well for you this year. :)

Thanks Art. As Happy as I've been working where I am, I'm still expecting to get undercut somehow. I'm getting the $40 and all expenses. I am happy if they are, but they do have cheaper guys. I'm buying lottery tickets, feels like my only saviour. Laugh at me if you want, but Teddy retiring... I really think we should all do something for him. I'd really like to see him get a "Golden Trowel" as a parting gift. I know he looked after himself there, but he really was one of the best foreman I've ever worked with. Roger too. And Sandulo. I hope you have a good year too.

How's life treating you Dan?

Work is great. Home is... Well, are you familiar with the Samson Option? And you?

Samson option, no.

Cutting your hair? Too late?

Israel has a plan called the Samson Option, look it up. How's things going for you? Know any boardmen looking for work?

Work is busy, Frenchmen?

This is more one man stuff and they are busy, I tried em.

No, I don't know anybody.

Well, I'm boarding and I'm actually having fun. I should get back.. Are you not working or just getting some steam for those three sections of scaffold?

Nope, just waiting for the texture to be finished so I can start sanding. Yay!

What have you heard about B&O?

Lol, I was wondering if it was sanding day.... The boss emailed this morning asking if everything was ok.... I haven't answered but I keep thinking about your 4000 in 9 days and my measly 3400 in ten. :-) I can't help it

What happened at Bo? Decertify? Bankrupt?

Well it's not all that great, lots of bouncing around

I might be looking for something else, we will see

Bouncing? Try doing what I am doing, I bounce all day, 2 to 6 jobs a day. I'm probably closed to 3600, never actually figured it out.

That's pretty good

Holiday pay, stats paid, supplies paid, we're close

I won't take the phone though, I'm sure he tracks guys through it. Busted his.lead painter over billing 3hrs.

The only problem Dan is they want 13000ft in 9 days

I know, that's why I am here and your there. :-)

Been there done that. But I have three times the tools you do.

well I'm hoping to put mud on the wall today, Id better get back to the boarding. In some ways you are freer than I am. 7 women in the office to communicate with. It's different. Then there's homeowners and policies... It's trading one thing for.another.

Anyways thanks for.the message, have a Good day. It's not that bad, just let the pole do the work.

Hello Art, I can always count on you for one thing! Sometimes it bugs me like you want it to, but you know what? I appreciate you right now for it. I want to ask something of you. Please read this post and throw your number in. It's your option, but I'd like you to be the man you are. It's good for everyone including you, you'll see it in time. Happy Sanding, Dan

Thanks Art. I appreciate it. Watch for my answer in the end. You should ask the same of your kids, you will help burn in their memories with you so they can enjoy them later in life.

Where's cousin? Does he hide on here or does he even exist?

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Non existent. His wife is on, I wouldn't bother.

I know. I've seen her. Thanks Art, btw. It's not too late to wish me a happy 40th Birthday. Take care. Love you buddy.

Happy birthday

I'm still learning Facebook. I wanted that on my timeline. All good. Happy Trails.

Well... at least you know how to make a statement. :)

Will work for cheap? Prefer to sand only.

Good, I'll keep that in mind Sunshine. :)

Are you retired from drywall?

Not as of today anyways, I think that was mud I was playing with. New Synko mud.

Small jobs, I'm learning framing, t-bar, all that good stuff. I don't have the health to do what you do.

I have to change and start looking after myself.

It was good memories working with you.

Be the change

I only want to look at the good. That's right. That's the advice and push I need.

Can I ask you something?

No

Ok. Glad to know it. :)

If you picture a little boat, down at the head and tilted a little left, just barely taking in water or so. To drive that thing you need lots of throttle and right rudder. I'm wondering if that's me or was me.

Compounded Emotional Issues. Something has happened were I've had everything lifted off Legally, but I'm not sure what's next, only that I have to fix myself and do it now. Level the boat, pump the water and start making repairs. That's why my posts are different and more common.

I don't know anyone who had a 40th like mine. It was very interesting.

We are all different, a product of our genes and enviroment. One day I'll write somethings here and only share them with key people. Anyways I don't want to keep you.

That's weight built all my life and now it's off.

Well, I would just move forward and learn from your mistakes of the past. That's what I try to do.

Less thinking more doing

Yes, true. But my thinking... I have psychological problems, or I did at least, right? It's all in your development. In a way, I have the same thing Shakespeare did. I think I almost died 5 times from Nov 1st to Nov 21st. I'm no Shakespeare though.. you'd have to think deeply to understand hujan psychology.

Those meds and doctors.. I knew to stay away...

I am off all of that stuff.

For me it's really easy, when you put everybody else ahead of you your life becomes very simple.

It's just that our job is very physical and you only can go full speed for so long I don't care who you are.

It's all how we are built. I am finding it easier to live in the moment right now, but I have to work through my past which is not my fault. I have a lot of people telling me that. You have to understand my whole history.

Everybody need some thing to motivate them, mine are my kids.

Everybody has a different path

I was bullied and taken advantage of when I was young, it lead to so many compounding sequences.. but that's for another day. In a way it's natural. I don't have strong Art genes. There's strong Berladyn's but.. what ever.

Where you working?

House?

Pitt Meadows

I'm all over, small contractor. I left that job I had.

This is better in many ways, but to get the $40 I have to make him money. In time. It's working well both ways.

It sounds like you're still looking for the perfect job well it isn't in drywall

Drywall is good for me in some ways. It's theraputic, and I get to let my mind do what it wants to do - think. I just have to have the negatives removed from that. Think positive which is hard when you are around people who pull you down emotionally.

That's what's stopped for now.

Just be happy with whatever you're making. Find a hobby have something that you look forward to doing away from work.

Yeah, been there and done all that. You'd have to understand the homelife. That's what did it. You just simply can't be stable and move up. I had to call the police or someone, most likely me was going to die. I firmly believe you can kill with emotion now. And if I went, then they go too... through the heart. It would kill my mother, I know it.

I felt older than Carle on my 40th, no joke.

But it may have been my best yet. :)

If you are ever interested, read up on Shakespeare, many people live that condition. He probably had it much much worse.

It would help if I could read

lol

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0086879/

Mozart. Now I feel like an idiot. I wrote beethocen somewhere.

Beethoven, that's who I thought it was, but it was Mozart.

He had a severe illness that I think is very similar.

Watch the movie with your wife, she will like it. I was a Girlfriend 14 years ago that made me watch. There's boobs. :)

Now you have my attention

With that, I will wish you a good night.

G night

Don't pay much attention to Dan, he's just like that. That's Whitewall. He was a good boardman, you have to know him.

Things have broken down here so badly...

I've been trying to prepare to live elsewhere, that's one of the reasons for the van. I couldn't get it set up over the Summer because they make me sick. I hide when I see them. I'm bullied.

I'm afraid to ask

October 31st, they posted a Eviction on the door I paid for! lol

Effective two days before my 40th birthday.

I called the Port Moody Police to step in.

That's where they are at.

Who did?

My brothers posted it. I bail the ship, they take the wheel. My oldest brother fucked me over all my life. I think that's why I am messed up, it just compounded more and more. It started young.

I finally have extended family who is on my side. For now, I just have to function and get level.

They just want the house?

What about your mom?

From November 1st, to November 20th or so my head was running so fast I had to tell people to stop talking. There was about five points I swear I was just going to collapse dead.

They want me gone, they are the "heroes".

If mom lost this place and was in an apartment whining when she called them weekly, they'd hate her and avoid her.

It's fucked.

Just ask for the money you invested in it and walk away

I might just have to walk away period. There's plenty of angles, there's also my mental health. They can't endanger that. I am immediate family.

You should've done that years ago

In some ways.. I think there is options above everything because of the history and my health. Don't get me wrong, being gone could be great, I could have a life, complete independence, etc. But there's a trade off, tool storage, functionality, etc. You have no idea what I have for tools.

I wanted to buy a cargo trailer.

Really? Tools, cmon.

Should have left years ago? You know, I would have blamed myself for quiting. Besides, it's one of my Fathers last words to me. Make sure you "get".

Pretty much his last instruction. That and be happy. Tough. Maybe the latter answers the former.

Well I guess you saw a lawyer

Where is mom?

I haven't. I've tried for years to find one. I've been too sick this last month. It's only the last four days or so that I am level headed.

I have a friend who's going to try to find someone. I have too much on my plate. This is just sanity and perhaps a way to connect the dots

Find a lawyer get their opinion and move on from there. Where are you living now?

Either way, what ever happens... in many ways, I am better than they ever could be. I

I'm still here thanks to the Port Moody Police.

They enforced peace.

What are your brothers story that you were freeloading off mom all these years?

I am just a tenant renting mommy's basement

The story is very large, it's long. 40 years. I even mentioned a famous WWII vet that my father was close to. There's a lot to it.

Does your mom have a say

She's an adult and she's on title. she has all the say. When I was about 7, my oldest brother sat in the kitchen with her and told her he deserved more than everyone else. She ate it all up. He's always recieved shit loads more, I am lied to all my life, you have to understand everything starting from 4 or 5 years old. I think I got really messed up in this house.

I am the only male who did what is natural. I went with my father. They all chased mother, she controlled the money. Everything in her name. You have to know everything.

People ask me if my brothers are gay. lol

Let it resat unless you know a relevant lawyer.

Let it rest. You've heard enough over the years. It's survival for me now.

It sounds like it's perfect opportunity for you to go Dan, Pack up everything your own and get out of there simple. Let the money go

I can prove things legally through that councillor, but that's over $100 per 15mins just to get the paperwork. Theres a lot of paperwork. Doctors and that BS. Whatever.

Yeah, but I need to live Art. I need tool storage. I need a place were dust doesn't drive someone insane the odd day.

I can't stop what's going to happen, but I can get in a better position for it. For me, they are stupid. They are standing in the way of me leaving and then they go and do that.

My debt level is through the roof.

Find a place to rent for now for your tools, it sounds like a lot of excuses Dan

Ok, well I'm sure it does. For me, it sounds like reality. I am not like you Art.

I am different. It will help me tremendously leaving and it will also cripple me income winsse.

wise.

Well when you get screwed over you leave. Don't you want to have better health?

Yes, I do. I won't have better health if I am under too much strain and I collapse dead or can't work.

It's one step at a time. That's how I think.

No Dan my dad called me stupid and a loser, fuck them all.

Yeah, that's the ones who are alive. My dad and I have been treated like we are stupid and losers. They still put him down ten years later. I look back and talk about it with extended family.... they killed him. They bled him dry out of greed.

File bankruptcy and start fresh

That's an option.

It might happen.

One step. The first is health.

Then you can go buy a dirtbike?

lol

Maybe, it might fit in the van.

Now you're using the noodle strudel

Yes Ted. Until it starts hurting like now.

Less thinking more doing

You have no idea how much pain my head was in over those three weeks. I was worried my left eye would pop out. I couldn't stop it. Even the guys I am working with were saying I am going to drop dead. lol

Same thing... schedule schedule.... I know I shouldn't talk to you but can you tell about this and that! lol too funny, yet totally serious at the same time. I can hardly function when I am like that.

I don't know how but you need to let all that stuff go

I mean, hardly function. one stroke with a knife at a time is all I can think.

I don't know how either. Imagine your wife kicked you out and you had no recourse?

It's common.

You need to play the new black ops game

No games, not for a long time. I am worried about even keeping a computer.

Anyways I don't want to talk about it unless it's constructive.

I could very well land in court.

What do you do in the winter? No biking?

No Dan, if she kicked me out with nothing that would be easy if she left me with the kids and everything else that would be hard.

I forget, you don't ski or do you?

For you Art. Not for me.

Can't afford to ski, spent all my money on the dirtbike's. Lol

Just try to work as much as I can over the winter and take time off when the weather gets better

There's so many reasons I stayed, one of them was so that they couldn't "get" because they got from me all my life. Stupid, Sad, but that hurts enough it'll get me one day. Reality is reality. I know. It could be a great thing, but it has to happen right.

Good luck then

If you want me gone, help me be gone so I am on survivable footing.

Anyways.. thanks.

I didn't want to taint the pics, so I put the conversation here.

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Hope Dan didn't offend you last night. His nickname was always "Meathead" / "Meatball" but he's not a bad guy to work for now.

If you buy a cargo trailer and put your stuff in I know a guy who has some space to rent to you

Ok.

He's a drywaller what do you expect. Lol

I had $10K. It's gone. You can't or I just can't be stable here.

I need time.

To tell you the truth I didn't even read what he said. It's only drywall mud, now if we could get someone to sand it for us

Sanding therapy

Yep. i don't really have that problem because I don't do footage. I wince at the thought of it. Today I boarded. Tomorrow everything. Steel Stud, Board, Vynil Board, Tape, Sand.

It's better for me, but again, more tools.

I don't think you'd like it.

I actually tried some of that new mud, it was fine but it didn't sand out like the green mud

I've only done a little with it, but i wouldn't want footage with it. It's seems like more work. Better product though, the fill is harder, takes more abuse.

Synko A/P and Finish are the easiest to sand, but the dust is gross. Then there's layers, needing 220 grit for the picky pricks.

I like the Westroc Green. It was good mud when we used it.

Slick.

When they create the dustless mud we will be retired. Damn

The Hamilton layered a lot that's why I didn't like it

Hamilton is just an old Synko formula, I almost gaurantee it.

I don't like mud that layers, that's a another big plus for Westroc.

Synko taping, synko all purpose and then pro roc. Sand with 180 grit.

I used Hamilton 17 years ago, it came in short wide square boxes. You couldn't even tip them into pails. It was heavy and never dried. It was terrible.

Everybody loves it now

Different mud for different jobs. A/P which I hate for things like Optima, is perfect for what I am doing on small jobs.

I'm the only guy out of Andy's crew who doesn't use it

Nick.. what a wanker eh? No bulb. Clueless...

Well, you're the guy I'd side with. I've only used Hamilton once. I could use it. It's what you get used to and refine yourself for. It's just programming for me. It takes three weeks and then I am set.

He always thought shit didn't stink, I like his dad though.

His

Nick is not a Tradesman. I love his dad.

Whoa...

lol

Easy

Mario and those giant hands.

Have you got a sweetheart yet?

He's funny.

I was looking but I've realized I have to fix myself first. I think that may be the only thing that will save me. Finding someone, but it's a catch 22 living here.

I think more women are interested in me than I realize.

Yeah I'd wait for all this to settle down

I just need to find one that works... I mean that in more than one way.

I get a day off tomorrow because I'm waiting for my house to be textured this is what I hate about residential

Yeah..

Me too

I hated that too.

Even here, it's changing all the time, by the hour. But he really tries to ensure I have the opportunity to get 8hrs. He's only ever worked for one union company before going off on his own... whats the name?

I forget, it's only one I haven't worked for.

B&O.

Just a small guy so it rolls easy.

Oh yeah I think Dan Riddell is working there

Small guys are better in so many ways, but the big ones give stability.

I couldn't beleive they wouldn't return my call. They were desperate for guys. I am positive that Kelvin and other guy blacklisted me.

It's all about how busy you want to be

Anyways I have to go so have a good night

I don;t need them though. The dues, the benefits are nice... but a union... its the guys on the tools, not some clowns in an office.

Yeah... I do too.

Thanks Art.

Happy Trails.

Word brother?

:)

How long does a truck need to run to charge a battery? I have an hour left of work and I'm downtown.. Only me I swear.

An hour should be good lucky

If not your batteries dead

It is, it's good. Must just be a small battery. Short drives, lamps, wipers. Then I Park roll the power window up and down in the rain as look to see if Art posted anything on Facebook.. Then... Dead battery. I'll add another in the Summer hopefully. Still want an inverter for mixing mud.

Get a generator

Pump the exhaust inside? :-)

Up your butt or open a window

Wrapping up tools and going home, can't believe I've been here all day.

That's what happens when you're old and slow

Lol, I may be old and slow, but I was that quick in loading the truck. 6 pails, etc. I'm driving now. Catch you later have a good one.

It's late, I'm heading out for a bit to eat... and I had to share something... I LOVE the sound of a 364ci engine starting up. That van on start up is very throaty. It's cool.

Not working today?

No, we generally don't work Saturday's. If I want it I have to push for it. I have a funeral to attend today. An uncle born in 1929.

I should work though, pay cheque looked small. I'm used to $2800 after taxes now... I like those numbers anyways.

Reminds me of the Union

I've been short on time, I've been getting all messed up again. Lack of sleep, overwhelmed, etc.

Yeah, the Union, I think I am getting close to pulling the pin.

I was going to ask the Reps to add me as a friend on here and if they didn't... I'd have reason to comment on the "brotherhood".

We are going through the same thing, my wife's sister passed away Thursday.

That's a younger crowd though... never had someone related go young. My uncle was in his late 80's. He bought and rode horses before cars!

Who cares. Just work and you will be fine.

He time was due... ours is... if you went it would hit me much different.

Party?

I want a reason for pulling out, I took an oath. I had to to have that job.

I'm just starting to load bead can you be over here in 10 minutes

Sure, got a couple hundred for gas? I love my motor, but it likes to drink.

Silly Dan

Well, silly is better than sad. Loading is good day, enjoy it. I usually do.

Going to my moms for dinner tonight Kevin and Lisa will be there I'll tell him you say hi

Please do. I like hearing from Kevin believe it or not.

Yeah I do too but it's like a broken record says nothing new or interesting

lol

Hes nice when he's not angry. :)

He sands like he's angry. Lol

Well, I have too many times. It's motivation... get it anyway you can in this businesss.

Who wants to push that stick?

The stick is your friend

Rod always told me I worked harder when I was mad... of course, I was made a lot working for him. :)

mad a lot. :)

When are you going to take care of him?

Yes, be one with the pole. Take care of who Rod? He doesn't need me.

He'll exit all on his own. This trade is.. beyond...

You know a jihad

OK sunshine nice talking to you I got to get going here, take care .

I know I know... but Im finding that... I might be looking forward to a future alone. I just have to figure the right way through it. Of course if I don't... no one has given me Rod's address and i forgot the streets when i was told years ago. But that's ok, in my dark days I came up with a plan... :)

I just need the will to follow through.

Careful... you don't want to be an accessory.

I might need a hand with some houses out in Tsawwassen

In the end, he's small you know. He may be getting rich with Daniel, but he's a small person to do that to working people. He knows it inside too. I see it when I talk with him.

Nah... too far. I've wanted time off at the end of December here and I've had to accept some work in Coquitlam. Close to home he says.

It's a house which makes me.. think eww.. I like the small stuff.

This is a quote by an extremely famous person: If you were alone, what would you be in this world if your wage and loans were the only thing that you consider to be community?

You'd be Rod. You're miles above him Art.

Say hi to Kevin and load your bead nicely so you don't have to sand much. It's always better when you enjoy it.

How's it going, I like what you've written Dano. Keep it up, you are educating all of us. ?

Good or bad? Honestly?

Good, of course.

Good. I think it would read better if I spat everything out the way I wanted to over the last two months.

Might be homeless soon. :-)

Are you working?

Nope. I'm I'm deep shit in that regard. I quit. Won't do nothing until after Friday, when I know what the government's stance is. They are trying to evict me.

Well I guess you should look for a place anyways. Do you have work to go back to?

I don't want to think about it. It'll distract me. I have a few options. I can't do footage.

If you need some work let me know.

Will do, thank you.

Did you call yesterday?

Yeah, I just wanted to know what you thought of what you may or may not be reading. It's OK though. It's hard to get out this many years. Professional help tomorrow.

One of the hard things is that I've written everywhere, emails and such, private areas of Facebook. The police.

Hard to get it out properly, I probably hurt myswlf I'm places

I think it's good, it lets us inside your head and what you are thinking. And I hope you feel a little better letting us know what's going on inside that noodle of yours.?

Well, it would help me to get it all out once so I don't have to repeat anymore. Then organize it, then deal with it. I've in very poor medical shape, they are going to see that tomorrow. Financial just as bad. My extended family just learned on Facebook what the police know. I was offered a gun this summer and I thought about it for three months. :-) I have to answer whether there's weapons here each time they visit. They are nice, Good police department.

Just a loaded pole sander

This house was gone without me. They didn't care about my parents or it. I should have been able to do what my mom said, keep it up and you might get it. I loved this house. It might kill me to go.

Do you think you can buy it from your mom?

Loaded.pole sander. Mastic tube. Everything is a weapon.

I think my mom is a bitch whose extorted me because my siblings wanted her too.

My cousin says I should take them all for everything they have if I can, but... He said she said... 4 liars vs 1 crazy honest guy.

Can you come to terms with the money?

Haha... She said in conference she's not asking for 28,000 in unpaid rent. ...... Yet.

lol

Did you keep records of everything ?

How about a lawyer?

I'm thinking what's what's 20 years of my life worth? What's 20 years off the end of my life worth? Health? The fact people know she didn't lose everything because of me? 100-200k in lost wages? 100k in interest? My cousin said she'd have killed herself if she lost it

I did but and I didn't keep records.

I'll see what services I get tomorrow. The cops seem to trust me but I don't know.

Not that that's there department.

I don't know. I'll find out tomorrow. My cousin also says if I can't get anything cost her this house somehow.

They killed my dad, the same way.

It's tough I could see your point of staying there and fighting them but I could pack up my things and never see them again also.

Greed.

But don't you get caught up in that also

I was trying to leave. They fucked that up. Then they try to evict me.

I screwed up in the conference no sleep and I didn't know if she was going to press forward or not.

Is she still in contact with the other kids

Hopefully I can correct that tomorrow. I can't contact the Tenancy branch, but the services tomorrow may be able to.

Who would look up to your mom if you left

To leave, I need money in the bank stability, tools set up, and to Gk under my own will. Not thrown out after 20 years

Where are your tools

Here. With me where they need to be. I'm out of money and too sick to work.

So what are you trying to accomplish by hanging around

One step at a time art. I have to figure that out. Living on the street will not help me. And I still have extended family to hopefully extert pressure.

There's no choice now but the services tomorrow. They've made me so sick...

You'd understand if you were in my shoes.

I guess

This is also why the gun was a sane option. It was easier, but I had to get them all.

Then theres kids... So. No. Even still it wouldn't happen.

But it perplexed me. If I miss one that fucker benefits. Gets it all and gets to.play victim.

Lol make sense?

Just reality.

Yup

Back to my original question, Who is going to look after your mom

My sister most likely. She stole 40,000, lost her house. They can team up. See? The others are happy cause I get fucked as usual.

Then my sister gets a babysitter.

See, just need to kill Danno. Almost succeeded.

But don't you see once you leave they will all continue going down that same path

It will all self-destruct

For what a couple hundred grand each big deal you could make that back in three years

Umm. No. They put nothing in. They have nothing to lose. Years to plan an agree. But you make a great point in self destruction.

It seems to me you're caught up in the money also I would let it go it doesn't seem very healthy

Didn't see that. If my health was better and it didn't hurt me to get gutted, I guess I could take your attitude. I'm scared I'll be depressed and kill myself. I knew to get out at 20 or I was dead.

It's never too late you still pretty young

Well young not so pretty

How many kids did you grow with? Four spooled rotten kids, where the tap was cut when dad went bankrupt. EVERYMAN FOR HIMSELF. Well guess who's eight years old and the youngest? The one who was already terrorized because my dad wasn't here enough. He worked too much.

It's been 2.5 kids against me all my life without my mother. She's pissed still because I refused to be her dress up doll and dad won me over her.

Just 1 sister, we never got along that great.

You seem to be dwelling on the past to much I wish I could erase your mind and drag you out of there

Lucky you. See you developed properly. My brothers took EVERYTHING from me.

Then they complain it's not fair if I get more. Losers.

Then Dan do them a favor get another life and get them everything

Even if I drop dead, I won.

Better person.

Your better than them

Extended family is telling me I was their favourite and now they are learning what happened here.

Has anybody offered you any money to leave

Nope. Too stupid to do that. They are. They threatening to want more. It's extortion perhaps. I don't know. I will learn the real options soon.

Sounds like negotiating

I don't know what they offer but the people I am seeing tomorrow offered me help with finances and staying up. But they also don't know how Danno runs. Lol

Too fucked up to tune and whittle expenses. I am a person who needs order and stability because I like to maximize.

If I could just get your head screwed on properly you could hang in there and fight him because you also have nothing to lose

Maybe they are negotiating.?

Absolutely

I know I have nothing to.lose. I could perhaps have to stay here for medical reasons. Wouldn't that be fun for them?

You have to take a step back and look at it as a third person

I don't know why you would hang around there anymore

It's hard because it's so close to home for me. It's my core

Because I can't work.

Where do I stay?

How do I feed myself?

At Ted's and with a fork and spoon

I'm too far down. They should have stayed out of the way.

Lol

Lol. His garage.

Big family get together in a month. Pretty embarrassing for.them.

They care about that, trust me.

Let me know how tomorrow goes

They won't show

maybe but for my mom... I dont know. Hard not to. 60 years nearly of friendship on an important date.

My oldest... He's trying so desperately with all the cousins he put down, so we'll see.

I'll let you know tomorrow. It's the first step.

I told them what I told you last night. Getting them all, lol. I just figure honesty is better. I think my mother is at the police station. I had the police come for a visit. It's unnerving.. but least I am being honest. :)

It sounds... like it works for everyone else but me but I don't know.

Maybe you better keep that to yourself. Lol

:)

Well, they let me come home after talking to me near the house and then they let mom come home. I'm just honest! I figure that's best.

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I had 3-4hrs sleep. I just wanted to send you a message and thank you. Hope you have a good day.

Hey Dano, you need some drywall therapy

Yup, I swear that's the only way I survived. :) Very theraputic at times, extremely painful and boring at others. But honestly I have to write some things for the Police. I said I would.

Would you like to give me a hand for a couple hours a day?

Not yet. Thank you though. I have the same offer here locally which will be easier as it's employment. I don't want to lose anymore paperwork.

Okey-dokey let me know, I could use a hand.

So could I. :-)

Phone Ted.

Ted doesn't need to work you could probably use it more than him

Yes, but I can't right now.

That's why I am not working, somethings are more important to me internally.

No problem, get things worked out I think this year is going to be busy.

I couldn't change all of this if I tried over the last 30 years. Almost a set course from a young kid.

Yes. I heard it would be very busy too. Low dollar brings investment.

I think you have to move past the past and look to the future let's get her done.?

I wish everyone would fuck off when they say that. People say this is killing me, I say people are killing me.

People ask why do I care. I have to ask why would I not care?

By the way, I think the Jehovah Witnesses are right about one thing. The "system" is fucked, the way society is.

That Psychologist I saw, legally he did nothing to help me. Everything he said was not in the paperwork I had to pay him to get. I think there's even missing emails from me. He's protecting himself. Nice doctor with a piece of paper who swore an oath.

My family doctor stated in November I should have never of been on that medication for that length of time. I recorded it. He also said I have to tell him what I want for medications and such. I thought he was the doctor. :-) Anyways.... Whatever with that. Although there known side effects with all that crap.

Too bad I didn't write as much as I wanted. I wanted to expand the target list and write about Daniel Bosa and Rod Schwan. May as well put a target on my head by as many as possible. :-)

You either get that or you don't.

Hey Dano, how are things? Good or bad? Are ready to come out to tsawwassen?

What's up kid?

I was blocked from posting Art, my posts... :) Thanks for asking though. I do appreciate it. And yes, I was detained under the Mental Health Act, Section 28. It felt like Railroading but whatever, it was actually good for me.

I thought something like that happened. I'm glad you did it, just to show them you could?

You bet! :)

Everything you wrote was really good, it let us in on what you went through and what you where thinking.

lol - I didn't write about the huge muscle bound guards who escorted me through the tunnels underneath the hospital... I was thinking @$#%, here I go... padded room, clean jacket and no keys.. lol. That was a walk.. funny now looking back.

As long as you were polite

At my gym

Very. Well, I resisted a bit, everyone I've talked to in detail told me they would have flipped. These guys were roid monkeys. BIG.

I really only resisted on the medication. I actually won, they only gave me what I said they could give me.

Aside from the heavy bitch. But that was to ensure I was pliable during the "transfer".

Whatever you did it good for you now what ?

In the end, the head doctor admitted the only reason they held me was to protect themselves. They didn't want me. The head doctor was the only Psychiatrist who actually seemed to comprehend the situation. The younger ones, they actually were like kids to me. . Now what? One foot in front of the other. I don't want to chat away. I've come to conclude something. Mom and I better talk soon and come to turns or we both lose big time.

It's too draining to keep texting on, messaging, etc. That's why I post generic to everyone. The Police showed up today, after they left I had to write them a looonnngg email about bias. I think they listened. I hope they did. Now it's extended family and psychologists to resolve this.

By the way, the ruling came in. I am NOT a tenant, they do not want to hear this case. An escalation is court which will end badly for all.

One foot at a time and it's well past midnight financially for me, that's really bad, not just for I.

Too bad you all couldn't just sit down and work this out like adults

Calm and cool no matter the direction. . You'd think so eh? It is too bad. I need to pull my last uncle in, as a.. nuetral knowledgeable adjuncator, judge, which ever. I even put it forward, let's have a Berladyn court. All the cousins, uncle as judge and lets work it out. To me that's common sense and sanity, the cops ignore that. Legally, they only care about the Psychologist, I like him, I hope trusting him is right. He actually seems pretty damn smart. This one has a Masters. The less I talk about it, the easier it'll be to move forward. Action Speaks Louder than Words and I have a shit load to catch up on.

I think something is better than nothing

Doing nothing and expecting something to happen is just insanity

Change is a must

I'd talk to my mother by the way, but I can't do that alone. Things get twisted lied about and that's how we ended up here. I need a nuetral intelligent wise third party. The police have been told this since day one, but they slipped into bias, especially today. . They just don't want problems and want to cover their ass.

A third-party is a must just to cover your ass

Yes, Art. I get it. I also don't want to be in a position of.. well never mind. I know what I need no matter which direction I head.

Give me your perfect ending to this problem

Short form of course

There is no perfect ending. I either stay in this house till the end, or go and be somewhere else. I suppose the perfect ending is she drops the siblings and commits to me, helping me have the house in my name, correct all the finances and actually support me, but it's probably too late for that. She's 71, the finances here... maybe workable but I just pay, "brother" and "sister" have worked that so I get secluded from that info. They need to be kicked out of the equation for anything to be worked out.

Even if I go, I need to rebuild first, remember I am now $30,000 down and counting from six months ago. I couldn't even leave here without them fucking that up.

And I was mad enough to go, I just had to ensure stabilty and tools. I am different than you.

Even when I share with you, I keep a lot of things inside.

I know I need things or I will break. It's internal to me.

I would work out a deal to be her caretaker and if something happens to her split the house for ways or have the option of buying them out

That's where I am leaning, but my attitude is... the whole house. They've cost me enough for it. Including near suicides. Shoot for the stars buddy.

Of course you're different Dan I'm special.lol!

lol - Yes you are! Kevin said so. :)

You sound just like them all about the money

Do I? Well for me to get $100K? That's rediculous. Personally, I am the only one with a right to claim. Even my dad said it and that's very important to me. His words. I know what he meant.

But you have to shoot high and maybe it is too high. Either way, they wittle you down.

$10/foot. Sound good? Let's go make some money. :) Just kidding.

Hundred K is that all? I'm getting $.33 a foot in Tsawwassen

My intent 20 years ago when everyone was running was to end up buying this house starting then. Its hard to explain, but the harder you try, the further you get from the goal in this situation. It actually kept breaking me down. I would have been better off just never trying. I think that's a lot of what you seen, just giving up, but not giving up if you understand.

I get it

I know, but I don't think I can produce anymore. Seriously, footage... I don't think it'll work. I need lots of small jobs and stability. That's me now.

Just come work with me I'll take care of you Rod Swan style. $$$

Little Susie

Hee hee!!!

In anycase, where I am at now is survival, no matter the outcome. The sad part is, I think they are too stupid to see what I see happening in court. I will not write it here. This is watched. . Yes, Yes. Good ole Rod. He did teach me things though. By the way, he dropped me because I would not abandon this house. That's were we first began to fall apart. The Final was when he joined the "dark" side. If you can't beat them, join them he said. I went to the union at that point. He ended up where he is now.

Two best Students. Kevin Wosminity and Dan Berladyn. We went for coffee in 2014.

But the master was Carl Johnson the dark force flows through his veins

He would kill you with kindness the worst kind.lol

I don't care, I love Carle. :) . Spell his name right. Carle is correct. And Tony Chang, he's the best. :)

Honestly though, I'm better off with other contractors if I am stable at home.

Sorry Siri is just writing this down

Siri?

Over my head.

I have to look for work tomorrow, I need fulltime, small jobs.

You know the iPhone, I talk she types.

If you can't find anything you can come work with me part time whatever hours you want no problem.

Thanks buddy. I'll keep that on the back burner. Something is better than nothing. I might need it if I can't get back what I had. But there's still a few things to look into first before I ask for that.

You bet

Two strikes today, but I expected them. I have two potentials it's... just... hard to negotiate when you need it, know what I mean?

I have to go, but thanks Art. I appreciate it.

Good night?

Night.

Reminds me of a young Art. :-)

I am suppose to have my job back at $40/hr as an employee. I never believe things until they happen, until I am on site. Optima and the Union are trying to hire me. I get benefits and a good rate there you know. I can't understand how the union thinks they need to say things like that to me.

Just trying to justify the cost and how lucky you are.?

Yes... yes.. I don't want to hurt the Union but sometimes they are so stupid.

They know they have a good thing going, they don't want to lose. I don't blame them. They wouldn't be able to survive out here in the real world

Almost none of those guys in the hall would.

Trust me.

I just have the garage to sand, r u coming?

I have a doctors appointment, I need to prepare for it. It's very important. Head doctor or I actually might.

I also have one that is loaded that needs to be polished and another one Wednesday we can start taping.??

One day at a time, One foot in front of the other. Bank cards failed yesterday while buying gas. lol I am not even depressed!

Financially, this is the lowest I have ever been.

Nowhere to go but up bro

You and me both!

The Union did a lot of good for me, but in many ways I think it was the worst thing I did. It softened me.

Took that edge off.

When I took that Organizin job, I used to shake in the morning because I wasn't working. I don't know if you've ever experienced that. It was hard to go to work in the office.

Yes, I gardened, it gave me sanity in the end.

Do you know how long it's been since I have strapped a taping pail on me? 2.5 years.

Anyways, have a good day.

It's just like riding a bike you never forget

If I get my homelife fixed, I actually have good opportunites where I am going. But I have to be fixed in my homelife.

Maybe that is packing my shit and walking, I don't know just yet.

Wait till you get a couple of checks under your belt you'll be rolling. Well staying there isn't working, try something new.

Yes. One step at a time. I have to build up once more again. I had 10K last year in reserve.. $2800 checks... maybe I should have moved faster than I was. I find it hard navigating. I always needed a home, a base root to build from. Anyways have a good day.

How long do you wait for work? He said I am in for sure, we shot for Tuesday. He said Wednesday/Thursday, today he says there's stuff but it's delayed... I left him last time they did this, I just went to work for someone else. I lost my gauranteed work and the car allowance.

Matt had a sidejob in Abbotsford I wasn't driving out to haggle on Fireproofing. 50/hr was too much. so fuck it.

It's up to you, I don't think you owe anybody.

No, except the bank.

I owe them.

You too?

I should have let the hospital fill out EI for me. It would have helped, maybe I could have stretched it for all the lost time. I was sick you know.

I owe I don't know.. 90,000 by the time it's all rewritten if they'll even do that again.

I own nothing

I'm about 250k

Yeah, with a 1,000,000 home to operate out of.

3 million ?

Really? no? but for fun sure. :)

Pesos

Yeah... for a footage guy it's pesos. for a bum like me it's a lot of money. I just want small jobs 8 hrs per day. I had it good, well kind of. It was easy. The politics suck though as does the gas.

Move forward

I might be able to sue them for abuse of an adult, what do you think?

As soon as I am working I will be able to move forwards.

I am going to choke in a house as soon as I pick up that pole sander. I don;t think I can do it.

Someone at optimas address is looking for a project lead, think that's Carle's job?

They should train me. :)

It's probably Centura.. looking for another smuck to burn and turn.

I guess I should tell you, I had my uncle agree to mediate. Before we got that far, we talked on the phone, he suggested that she sell the house part it four ways and move on. When I voiced my opinion he "had to go". Then my cousin stated I don't listen to people??? Fuck them all.

Who had to go?

No one did. My Uncle agreed to sit with I and my mother. I can't talk to her alone or she'll lie. For all I know the Police will show up because I said something I didn't. That's the kind of thing I have to think about when I interact now. They used to lie when we spoke, now with the Police and everything that written down, I have to be smart.

I have someone coming her to pick me up and take me out. Weird. I am usually driving and this time its a girl. Just go with the flow, right? She's just a friend, but I think we both like eachother.

Have fun?

I'm working. Back in the saddle. Start Thursday.

DRYWALL ESTIMATOR/PROJECT ADMINISTRATOR. Centura, they want me to send in a Resume. Maybe I could negotiate a parking spot next to Carle! :)

Sounds great Dan oh what have you got to lose, I just want to be your right-hand man. good cop bad cop I'll be bad cop.

You could also help me sand tomorrow ;)

lol. I'd have a hard time keeping a straight face screwing guys like that. That's if I got past the act of doing so. I wonder if that's what Carle and Donnie did. Dennie telling you to work at McDonald's and Carle acting all helpful.

Have McDonald applications on hand at all times.

No work till Monday now.

Maybe

Give nick a call

That's what they did to me last time and it took three weeks while I was working somewhere else for me to say !@#$ you. But I don't know, I believe him. Who the hell screws someone around like that? He's texting me on his own and he spent the time taking me for coffee. This just means I lost the first little job I was suppose to start. I'll be in North Van for a few weeks. He said everyone's happy I am coming back except one... the scheduler. She used to call herself my work wife and then she got all pissed off with me after we both quit and she came back. She convinced me to drink wine and talk about my problems... fucking women. I think I'll be working Monday. I have to go see the bank in a few minutes... they called twice over the exact same loan this morning. But no one metioned the other one. I wish I knew the right way too turn, $40 is too high to go bankrupt. 21 months... too long. And Nick... yeah, I was programming him on Speed Dial. :) Winwood offered today, I guess someone's reading my facebook posts... Jim A.

Win wood is good, grab it

Too hard to negotiate with them from this position.

Health wise I am better off on small home owner jobs, who knows I may meet someone like this too.

I ran theyre job for $31/hr and they considered me lucky... I was too weak to negotiate being half suicidal so I just said fuck you and walked around all day. I did a good job though. :)

They pay cheap if they can. 24-28. If I was up on my game I could have got more. I was just empty inside. I didn't work, i just managed other people, I did small bits here and there when.i could and that was it.

Prodcution, suites.. I looked in mirror last night... suddenly I got fat again, I was thinned down not to long ago.

I guess I haven't been working at all and eating like crap, no kitchen.

Gotta run... Bank wants to hear from me.

Ok

You working today? Slacker?

Yup. Working at dealing with the bank. lol. They don't like it when you miss a payment then talk to them. :-)

What are they going to do take away your sander

You should always talk to.them first but... That's hard to do when tour taken to the hospital. Work is Monday.

lol

Give them my sandpaper too in that case.

Are you sure

Monday sounds like a Wednesday then next Monday

Yes. I have my schedule. I get to work with the guy Modern was dying to get rid of.